I'm back! So, I've been really busy and since my last story was SO. LONG. I need a break before I go back to writing long stories. But in the mean time, I do write little scraps. So, I decided I'd just compile them here because why not? Note that I probably don't spend more than a day on them so they aren't perfect. Also, most will involve Terra and Slade. Because...I love them. Enjoy :)

Oh and I don't own Teen Titans. Yeah.

It was supposed to be an innocent betrayal. Take advantage of his teaching to control my powers, gain strong friendships with the Titans, tell them I had an alliance with him at the right time but that I wanted out and to be good, and they would protect me from his wrath. Exploiting a super villain sounds risky, right?

Well, it was.

I could never find the right time to tell the Titans. To sit them down and say so simply, "I'm working for Slade but I want to get out of it." How was I supposed to say such things when Robin was always going off on just how much he hated Slade? When I could see Raven's narrowing eyes whenever I said something she didn't seem to like? Whenever I still felt like an outsider with them? They were a family; I was implanted in their lives. I figured I just hadn't gotten close enough yet. One day. I would tell them one day.

Only that day never showed up and suddenly I was hacking the security system and preparing to flee the Tower to let them die. I was getting sucked in Slade's game, being his apprentice when I just wanted friends. With no other option, I tried to run away. In the last minute, I brought Beast Boy in an attempt to tell him my dark secret. So when Slade would eventually catch up with me, he could fight him and help me get out of this nightmare I had let myself into.

It almost worked. I tried to explain, but Slade got in my way. He told my story all wrong, saying I was his apprentice and a spy and that the Titans couldn't give me what I needed even though their love and care was all I ever needed. Slade took my words and he shredded them and left me reaching out, hoping for help from Beast Boy. And he spat at me, "You don't have any friends."

And that was it. I had helped a villain and now I was a villain too. I wasn't a victim to be saved; I wasn't a hero in the making. Just a corrupted girl no one was going to care about.

I followed Slade out, showing my unwilling alliance. I was in tears after Beast Boy said he had no friends and I tried my best to hide them, but Slade wasn't having it. "You're going to need those tears for later," he threatened. I stopped crying and hoped he would forget his threat, but I knew he wouldn't. I braced myself for the worst when he reached his hideout.

It was a simple punch across the face. Right in the crook of my eye, where the sensitive skin would blacken easily. I stumbled in reaction and he took advantage and threw me to the ground where I landed on my shoulder. No longer on my feet and in no control of the situation, he kicked in the stomach.

"I'll teach what happens to traitors," he growled.

I curled myself in a ball as a form of self-defense, but he uncoiled me to get open shots. He held me down. He used my like a punching bag. I just lay there, eyes closed, letting my body go dead. If I acted dead, I could feel dead too. The brutal beating my body took in like a sponge but at some point I couldn't feel the pain anymore.

I don't remember how bad the damage was. I do remember that he left me there and I lay on that floor for hours, in and out of consciousness and reality. When I eventually gained the strength, I dragged what was left of me- my body, my sanity- and flopped onto my bed.

I stayed there for three days. I thought he would come to me again, angry at me still, ready to hurt me again for my attempted betrayal, but at that point, I didn't even care. Let him be angry. Let him kill me. What did I even have to live for?

I had a lot to think about in those three days. Most of the time was spent replaying Beast Boy telling me I had no friends. Every time I tried to understand what happened, the story slightly changed. It went from his obvious hurt to a mutual misunderstanding to him betraying me. How could he just leave me like that? Leave me with Slade when he had to know I was just being beaten and manipulated? Beast Boy didn't want me to be happy. He didn't want me to be a hero. He wanted me to be hurt, and he knew he could leave me with Slade to get that job done.

On the third day, I stepped out of bed. I didn't stall, I quickly got dressed and headed to the training room. Slade was there, as if waiting, as if knowing.

He barely looked at me, "How are you feeling," it wasn't a concerned question. It was a test.

"I want to kill him."

"Good. You see, Terra. Not everyone is looking out for your best interest. There are only very few who actually want to help you reach your full potential."

It was obvious manipulation. He said things so openly that it was almost like he was mocking me. Look at how I've destroyed you, was what he was really saying.

I let him. "I know that now. I'll do anything you say."

It was supposed to be an innocent betrayal. But instead it made me a criminal.