SG NEXUS CH1 –(2005-2012) RELATIONSHIP THEN TO NOW
Part1- SG1 Season 9 & 10
Jack and Sam (Circa S9 Episodes 1-2)
June 2005
Jack walked out on the porch of his cabin. It had been a long few week taking, care of some lose ends on Colorado Springs, and getting settled in Washington. A smile swept over his face when Sam's car pulled up the drive. He did a slow jog up to the car and opened the door for her. She got out slowly and couldn't help blushing as she greeted Jack with a warm kiss. He put his arms around her waist and planted another kiss.
-Sam: I can't believe we're doing this.
-Jack: I'm no longer your commanding officer.
-Sam: But you are still my superior officer.
-Jack: I know, but I'm going to be retired soon. As long as we stick to the plan, by this time next year we'll be… um…
-Sam:(grinning knowing that Jack had just backed himself in a corner) We'll be what, Sir?
-Jack: You know (making an odd face as he searched for the right words) We'll be… all set… good to go… sitting on top of the world.
-Sam: Uh huh. Nice save, Sir.
-Jack: While we're here, it's Jack.
XOX)X
Cam and Carolyn (S 9 Episode 4 *4min. 45 sec.)
July 2005
-Cam: We really shouldn't be doing this.
-Carolyn: You weren't worried last night in my quarters.
-Cam: That was different. Nobody was here.
-Carolyn: You mean my dad wasn't here.
-Cam: There's that and the fact that we're making out in an elevator.
-Carolyn: I know, you're right.
-Cam: Let me take you out on a real date.
-Carolyn: I don't know…
-Cam: I won't take no for an answer.
-Carolyn: well…
Before she could answer, the elevator door opened. They pulled away from each other in time, but forgot to fix their clothes. Cam was more than a little nervous when they came face to face with Gen. Landry. He spoke to Carolyn about Vala and Daniel's medical condition as Cam tried to button up his shirt. He could tell by the way Landry was looking at him that he suspected something. But Carolyn was unfazed. When Landry left Carolyn couldn't help but snicker. They made sure to keep their voices low.
-Carolyn: You weren't nervous were you.
-Cam: Like a chicken in a fox's den. Maybe I should say something to him.
-Carolyn: That wouldn't be good idea. We're still getting to know each other. What if things don't work out? My dad can be a real bear when it comes to the guys I've dated. And you work for him.
-Cam: You have a point.
-Carolyn: I better get back to work.
-Cam: (speaking in a whisper) Wait. What about that date?
-Carolyn: (looking around before speaking) Ok. You're on.
-Cam: All right.
He watched her as she walked away with a smile on his face. Things were starting to look up.
XOXOX
Jack and Sam (S9 Circa episodes 6-7)
Aug 2005
Jack and Sam were spending another weekend together. They looked forward to their times together. Jack had some bad news that he hoped wouldn't put a damper on their weekend. They snuggled on the sofa enjoying the ambiance from the fireplace.
-Sam: So are you going to approve my request to stay at the SGC?
-Jack: You really want to go back.
-Sam: As long as it doesn't interfere with our plans. I do miss the job, and Teal'c and Daniel, but mostly I'm doing it for Mitchell. Poor guy is in over his head especially with this new Ori threat.
-Jack: Speaking of the new threat, and our plans…
-Sam: uh oh. Why do I get a bad feeling about this.
-Jack: Because it's probably not going to be what you want to hear. I'm probably not going to be able to retire until after we've eliminated this threat.
-Sam: But we have no idea how long that will be. Look how long it took us to defeat the Goa'uld and the Replicators.
-Jack: they consider the commitment as part of the promotion. Besides, with you as part of SG1 we'll have a better chance of eliminating the threat.
-Sam: (clearly upset) And then what about the next threat?
-Jack: I don't want you to be upset about this. We're going to make this work.
Jack pulled her into an intimate kiss. No matter what happened with their jobs, he wanted there to be no doubt of his love for her. His kiss was only somewhat reassuring to Sam. In her mind she was starting to have doubts that things would work out for them. But she never doubted his love.
XOXOX
Cam and Carolyn (S 9 Post Episode 12)
Jan. 2006
Cam got in is car and sat for a moment contemplating everything that had just happened. He was still shaken and upset by the experience of having his memories altered and the woman he was with having died because of him. At least the memory of murdering Reya Varrick had been erased. It was of little comfort though.
He had not known what to expect when Gen. Landry met him in the locker room. Surely he had suspected he was in a relationship with Carolyn. But Landry had been kind and understanding, which only made Cam feel worse. He considered just avoiding her, but he knew it was best to own up to what he had done. He tried to ease his own guilt. After all, it was Carolyn who didn't want to get serious. She wanted to keep the relationship casual. They had argued about it the night before the mission to Galara. He took a deep breath and started the car. He had hoped that the drive to Carolyn's house would be longer, but it seemed shorter than usual.
He walked slowly to the door rehearsing in his mind what he was going to say, but nothing seemed good enough. He rang the doorbell and waited for what seemed like an eternity. Carolyn cracked the door just enough for Cam to see her face.
-Carolyn: Cam, what are you doing here?
-Cam: I need to talk to you.
-Carolyn: No. You should go home and get some rest.
She started to close the door, but Cam held it open.
-Carolyn: I am being as gracious about this whole thing as I can possibly muster. You need to go home.
-Cam: I'm not going anywhere. If you close the door, I'm just going to wait here. So you might as well just talk to me now.
She gritted her teeth hard and rolled her eyes, but did open the door. She went over to the table and perched her arms on it keeping her back to Cam. Tears were stinging her eyes and she did not want him to see. Cam was nervous and didn't get to close.
-Cam: I don't even know where to start. I'm sorry. I was upset that you didn't want to be in a serious relationship and I acted out.
-Carolyn: (Shaking her head) Right… So this is my fault…
-Cam: No. That's not what I mean. I was just trying to explain. What I did was wrong. We never said if we were going to be exclusive. I tried to get you to commit one way or the other, and I was upset that you wouldn't.
-Carolyn: (turning to face him) I explained that to you. You serve under my father. I didn't want to make things difficult or awkward for you! You know very well how I feel about you! Otherwise you wouldn't be here!
-Cam: I know…
-Carolyn: Do you know my father just called me. He told me I should give you a call, make sure you're ok. He thinks you're this great guy. You're th kind of guy who would be perfect for his little girl. He has no idea! I can't even face him because I'm afraid that he'll take one look at me and know something is wrong.
-Cam: (Feeling even worse) I messed up. And I am so sorry, Carolyn.
-Carolyn: Yeah, well so am I. My Father may not have known about us, but other people that we work with did. Do you know how humiliating it was to have to do the medical investigation for your case while everyone in the medical department knew!
She started crying despite trying her best not to. She really had fallen for Cam, and she thought he knew how she felt. Her reluctance to move forward or go public about their relationship was only to make things easier for him, not because she didn't care for him. Cam felt as if he'd been punched in the gut. All he could do was sit there and take what he coming to him. He deserved it. But seeing her cry broke his heart. He went over and put his arms around her.
-Cam: I don't know what I can say or do to make you feel better. Just tell me what to do.
Carolyn could hear the pain in his voice. She knew that the entire ordeal had to be difficult for Cam. And as hurt as she was, she felt awful for him. She knew about the incident where he had killed the refugees, and suspected it was the memory that he had to relive. And knowing that Dr. Varrek was killed because of a jealous rage must be tearing Cam up inside. She knew she had to get herself together. She pulled away from him slightly and looked at him face to face.
-Carolyn: (though her sobs) There is something you can do for me. You can go home, and get some rest. I know this whole thing must have been difficult for you, and you don't need to deal with us right now.
-Cam: I … I can't go home.
-Carolyn: Why not?
-Cam: Because… when I'm alone, I keep seeing the bomb going off. It's like I'm reliving the worst moment of my life. Every time I think about all those innocent people… families… children…
-Carolyn: (shaking her head) Cam…
Cam hung his head in utter despair as Carolyn looked away from him. She was hurting too, but she knew it was nothing like what Cam was going through. She wanted to throw him out on his a**, but couldn't bring herself to be so cold. Cam knew that he was being unfair to Carolyn. He was an emotional wreck and needed her. But after what he had just done, he knew it was wrong to lean on her for emotional support.
-Cam: I'm sorry… I shouldn't be bothering you with this. Not after everything I've done. I'll go.
-Carolyn: (whipping her eyes and stepping out of his gentle hold) No, you shouldn't be alone right now. Just have a seat and I'll get you something to drink.
She was gone longer than Cam expected, but soon returned with two coffee mugs. She handed one to Cam and sat down with him. She could tell it wasn't the drink Cam was expecting.
-Cam: (taking a sip) What is this?
-Carolyn: It's an herbal tea. It will help you to relax.
-Cam: It's good. Thank you. I don't deserve you.
-Carolyn: Cam, we can't… I can't be with you any more.
-Cam: So you let me stay because you feel sorry for me.
-Carolyn: You've been through a lot…
-Cam: I love you. I don't want to lose you.
-Carolyn: I still care about you, but you hurt me.
-Cam: Can we just start over?
-Carolyn: No… I wish it were that easy.
-Cam: Maybe if you give it some time…
-Carolyn: Maybe. But can't right now. And I can't say whether or not some time in the future I might be willing to give it a try. I think it's best if we just end it now.
-Cam: God, Carolyn, I need you.
-Carolyn: No you need a friend. You don't need to be worrying about us, with everything you are going through.
-Cam: But I…
Before he could say anything, the doorbell rang. Carolyn did not look surprised to have a late night visitor, as she got up to answer the door. It was Daniel and Sam. Carolyn showed them in, and Cam let out a knowing sigh.
-Sam: Alright Cam, let's go. Teal'c is on the base picking out some movies.
-Daniel: You can ride with Sam, and I'll take you car back. Teal'c asked me to pick up some donuts.
-Cam: (to Carolyn) You called for back up?
-Carolyn: I did. You need your friends right now. Take care of yourself Cam.
She gave him a hug and a kiss on the cheek and walked away from him. Sam tapped him on the shoulder and walked him out. Daniel waited for Carolyn to get Cam's car keys. He was taken by how poised and gracious Carolyn was being about the whole ordeal. She handed Daniel the keys, but suddenly lost her composure and started to cry. Daniel realized how badly Carolyn must be hurting because of this. He instinctively reached out to her and put one arm around her shoulder.
-Carolyn: I'm sorry. I thought I could keep it together…
-Dan: I don't suppose anyone's asked how you're doing with all of this?
-Carolyn: Only a hand full of people know. And I work with them. When it happened, everyone was too embarrassed for me to even say anything.
-Dan: Well if it helps, Mitchell didn't tell anyone, per your request. Sam, Teal'c and I only know because we work together… and we kind of badgered it out of him.
Carolyn mustered a smile and a soft laugh at Daniel comment. His attempt to make her feel better was somewhat effective.
-Dan: If you need to talk or vent you can always call me… or Sam or Teal'c. We are your friends too.
-Carolyn: Thanks Daniel. I really appreciate that. It's getting late, and I know how much Teal'c likes his donuts.
-Dan: You are right about that. (turning to leave) If you need anything…
-Carolyn: I know. Good night.
XOXOX
Daniel and Vala (S10 - Post Episode 8)
Oct 2006
It had been weeks since Vala's kidnapping. She had been through a lot and felt closer than ever to Sam, Cam and especially Daniel. The way that he had reached out to her meant so much to her. She had hoped that he would ask her out on another date but he never did. She figured she would have to take matters into her own hand. She found Daniel in his office buried in books. She snuck up behind him and covered his eyes.
-Vala: Guess who.
-Daniel: Vala, I know it's you. I'm trying to get some work done.
-Vala: Oh, well I won't keep you long I just wanted to let you know that I'm ready to finish our date.
-Daniel: Hmm? Our what?
-Vala: Our date. Remember. You asked me out. I accepted. You took me to a romantic dinner, and then I was kidnapped.
-Daniel: Uh, no…
-Vala: No you don't remember?
-Daniel: I mean yes I remember and No it was not a date. It was two friends having dinner, and me welcoming you to Stargate Command.
-Vala: Right, well, for our next date I figure we go with the romantic dinner again. Then afterwards we do something fun like dancing. And then we go back to your place and…
-Daniel: Uh No. Look Vala. If you want to get together and do something sometime that's fine, but there won't be any romance, or dancing or whatever it is that you think we would do at my place.
-Vala: Fine Daniel. But you don't know what you're missing.
Vala left Daniel to his work. She didn't understand how he could seem so put off by her. She decided it would be best to let it go, at least for now.
XOXO
PART 2 - Post SG1
During Arc of Truth, Continuum, SGA Seasons4-5,
Jack and Sam
Sep 2007
Sam was just finishing up packing a few things to take with her back to Atlantis. Jack sat down on the edge of the bed watching her gather her things.
-Sam: I don't think I can do this.
-Jack: Yes you can.
-Sam: Lead the Atlantis Expedition? Dr. Weir has been there from the beginning. How am I going to just come in and replace her?
-Jack: You have great people skills. What's really going on here?
-Sam: You know what's going on Jack. It's the same thing that's always going on. We keep putting our careers first.
-Jack: (sigh) I know it seems like it, but this is who we are. We've started something with this Stargate Program. Doesn't it almost seem like… I don't know…
-Sam: Like we have to keep going. See it through.
-Jack: Yeah, that's what it is. We're in this together. You know that, right?
-Sam: I know. We're going to work it out. I know we will.
XOXOX
Daniel Vala (Pre Ark of Truth)
Dec. 2007
Vala busted into Daniel's office, her normal cheerful self. Daniel was trying to get some work done and was clearly annoyed by the disruption. He took a deep breath in order to keep calm.
-Vala: There you are… Not that I'm surprised. You really need to find something fun to do.
-Daniel: First of all, this is "fun" to me. And second… what do you want?
-Vala: I was bored, so I thought I would keep you company.
-Daniel: Oh… no, that's quite all right. Maybe Mitchell would like to hang out with you.
-Vala: No he's off trying to get Carolyn's attention.
-Daniel: Dr. Lee?
-Vala: No his idea of fun is even more boring than yours. I mean the things that he can go on and on about. I thought for sure he was going to drive me wonko. He went on for a half an hour talking about some Asgard gadget…
-Daniel: Vala! Please, I'm trying to get some work done.
-Vala: Fine. I mean I'll just go crawl into a whole and not come out until someone needs me. I mean why on earth would anyone want to do anything with me that I might enjoy…
-Daniel: (taking off his glasses and rubbing his temple) Ok, Fine. You've got five minutes. What's up?
-Vala: (Pushing his work out of the way and hopping on his desk) I just want to talk. So I was thinking about what Teal'c said. I'm guessing that I am the girl in the couple that hooked up. I mean yes, it could possibly have been Samantha, but seriously. There is no way I could go that long without sex.
So that leaves four options. I already got Teal'c to admit it wasn't him. All I had to do was ask him repeatedly and just like that…
-Daniel: I'm not surprised.
-Vala: So I don't think it was Landry, because he treats me as if I was his kid. So that leaves you or Cam.
-Daniel: Not me.
-Vala: You know Cam said the same thing. But I'm certain it was one of you two, or maybe the both of you… Or possibly the three of us…
-Daniel: (shaking his head) No! No… That's not…
-Vala: Oh come on, I can see the way you look at me. I know you must be secretly wanting me…
-Daniel: It wasn't me!
-Vala: Wouldn't it be fun if we just give it a whirl, and see if it was you and me?
Vala whipped off her shirt and threw her arms around Daniel. She gave him a huge open mouth kiss. Daniel was stunned for a moment but then pull her off of him.
-Daniel: Vala, I'm telling you, I know it wasn't me.
-Vala: How can you be so sure?
She went in for another kiss but Daniel held her back.
-Daniel: Because…
-Vala: Because what?
-Daniel: Because… I still love my wife. I have tried to move on. A couple of times I've met someone who reminds me of her, but I just can't… And you… You're nothing like her, for one thing. And two, you're married. You said you had real feelings for your husband. And yet you throw yourself at any guy who can get you what you want. You run around here, getting a kick out of the fact that I haven't moved on. You make a joke out of my love life, reminding me and everyone else that I'm not getting any. I haven't been with a woman of my own free will since I lost Sha're. Did you ever think that there is a reason. I truly loved my wife. And sex is not a game, Vala. Not for me. It's deep and personal. It's two people sharing the most intimate essence of their physical body. That's what I had with Sha're. Now, you can keep getting your kicks at my expense. I'm used to it at this point. But don't think for one minute that I would ever diminish the way I feel about real love and intimacy by actually taking you up on your offers. It's not going to happen. Now if you don't mind… I need to get back to work.
-Vala: (Putting her shirt back on and sounding disappointed) Oh well… I guess I'll just be going then. I didn't realize I was such a horrible friend.
-Daniel: Vala, you're not a horrible friend… You're just… you, and that's ok.
Vala put on a fake halfhearted smile and left Daniel to his work. Nobody could hurt her feelings like Daniel. And he never meant to. He just had a way. She was moping down the hallway when she heard Daniel call her name.
-Daniel: Vala, wait up.
-Vala: What is it Daniel? I don't want to keep you from your work.
-Daniel: I just want you to know that. The changes that you've made in your life, are good changes. I know that you are a caring person and your dependable and loyal.
-Vala: Yeah, I'm just a real saint.
-Daniel: No, you're not. You're…unique. One of a kind. And that's pretty incredible. You don't ever have to change who you are. Not for me, not for anyone.
-Vala: Thanks Daniel.
-Daniel: You want to grab a bite to eat. I hear there's green Jell-o today.
-Vala: (with a huge grin) Sure!
They went to the commissary and had some Jell-o. She talked to him about SG1's last mission. He loved her enthusiasm and her energy when it wasn't directed at embarrassing him. Vala was glad that she could put a smile on his face. She wanted Daniel to like her. Her feelings for him were quite genuine, but she didn't know how to get that across to him. Every time she tried she seemed to annoy him. But when he would talk about love and what intimacy and passion meant to him, it only made her want him more. She wanted someone to love her like that. She wanted Daniel to love her like that.
XOXOX
Cam and Carolyn (Events following the final Cam/ Sam scene Ark of Truth)
April 2008
Carolyn waited outside of the room while Sam visited Cam. She had watched over him through the night as he slept. He was in such bad shape when he was beamed in, that she feared he might not survive. She couldn't help but hear the two talking. They got along so well that Carolyn couldn't help but feel a twinge of jealousy. She remembered when Cam made her laugh. Over the past year he had tried so hard to make up with her, but she refused to give him another chance. Now she was regretting it. Sam finally came out and thought she'd have a little heart to heart with her friend.
-Sam: Sorry I took so long. I almost forgot to give him the macaroons.
-Carolyn: Please… don't apologize. It's good for him to have his friends around him.
-Sam: it's also nice to have the woman he loves around him.
-Carolyn: What?
-Sam: Come on Carolyn. You have to know he's been carrying a torch for you for over a year now. Look, I know what he did was wrong, but that was a long time ago. And I know how sorry he is. I can't tell you what to do. I'd probably do the same thing you have, if I were in your shoes. But sometimes you just have to take a chance. Maybe it will work out… maybe it won't. But if you don't give it a try, you'll never know what could have been have been.
-Carolyn: (Whispering) I know.
Sam smiled and walked away. Carolyn took a deep breath before going in. Her heart sank a little seeing Cam all busted up. It didn't help that he looked so pitiful trying to eat a macaroon. He automatically smiled when she came in. She sat down on his bed and took the cookie from him.
-Carolyn: Here, let me help you with that.
-Cam: You don't have to do that.
-Carolyn: I know. I want to.
She fed the macaroon to him in small pieces. For a moment Cam thought he might be dreaming. When she finished he reached out and touched her hand. She looked down at his hand on hers, but didn't pull away.
-Cam: I've missed you so much. (long pause) I've had some major regrets in my life, and loosing you is one of the biggest.
-Carolyn: I should go.
-Cam: Please don't go. I have to tell you, Carolyn. I love you. I never stopped loving you.
-Carolyn: Cam…
-Cam: I know it's probably all kinds of wrong for me to be laying this on you now. But you don't know how many times on this one mission, that I thought I wasn't going to make it… that I might not get another chance. I'm not asking you to take me back. I'm just telling you how I feel.
-Carolyn: You should.
-Cam: Hmm… What?
-Carolyn: You should ask me to take you back.
-Cam: Would you… really?
-Carolyn: I can't make any promises, but I can try.
-Cam: I don't deserve you.
She leaned down and gently kissed him. He held her hand as best he could to let her know not to stop. As they kissed Gen. Landry came to the door and saw them. He was still oblivious to their previous relationship and was somewhat pleased to see them together.
-Landry: I'll just stop by later.
-Carolyn: Dad…
-Cam: General Landry, Sir.
-Carolyn: I was just finishing up.
-Landry: No need to rush on my account. I can wait. Mitchell, I'll talk to you later.
He turned around and left the room. Carolyn looked a bit stunned and Cam was clearly shocked.
-Cam: I guess there's no keeping us a secret this time.
-Carolyn: Yeah, good luck with dad.
-Cam: Thanks. You know what, I could really use another one.
-Carolyn: A macaroon?
-Cam: No. A kiss.
-Carolyn: (Leaning down for another kiss) Sure.
XOXOX
Jack and Sam (Post Atlantis Pre SGU)
Aug 2008
-Jack: I'm not trying to buy you off! I picked you for the job, because you deserve it.
-Sam: And this has nothing to do with you being offered the Top position at Home World Command. I mean really!
-Jack: Yes it's tempting. I'll be in charge of the whole Stargate program and a sweet promotion to Lieutenant General. But I'm not going to make this decision unilaterally. We're in this together.
-Sam: Exactly. So If I take command of the USS Hammond, that's a minimum of 2-year commitment. That leaves you free and clear to command the HWC instead of retiring.
-Jack: If you really don't want me to do it, then I won't.
-Sam: So I can be the woman who stood in your way. I don't think so. That's why you threw the Command of the Hammond at me!
-Jack: Why are we arguing about this? If you don't want the d*** position, just don't take it. I'll retire and we'll all be happy!
-Sam: That's the problem. Will we be happy, Jack! Of course I want the position. It's the one thing I haven't done yet that I've always wanted. It's the kind of thing that I dreamed about as a kid, but never thought possible. Can you imagine me commanding a space ship, traveling through the galaxy and beyond?
-Jack: That's why I recommended you Sam. I know you. I knew how much commanding your own ship would mean to you. The fact that I'm being offered a life changing position at the same time is just… coincidence.
-Sam: (tearing up) I do want it, but there are other things that I want so badly. I feel like I have to keep sacrificing one in order to have the other.
-Jack: (wrapping Sam in his arms and holding her close) I can't make the decision for you. I just want you to know this. Whatever it is you think you'd be sacrificing to take this position, you are not sacrificing me. I will always love you and I am committed to you… to us.
-Sam: You promise?
-Jack: I promise. We are going to be together.
XOXOX
Cam and Carolyn
Jan. 2009
-Cam: Sorry you didn't get picked for the team. It was really close.
-Vanessa: It's ok, Sir. I think my brother was the right guy for the job. And I'm sure Lt. Hailey has earned it.
-Cam: You've earned it too, James. You'll do great on your next post. Do you know what it is yet?
-Vanessa: Yes, Sir. I think I'm going to take the position at the Iccarus base.
-Cam: No kidding! Well congratulations.
-Vanessa: Thank you, Sir. And thanks for taking the time to show me these Sodan moves. They're really kick a**.
-Cam: And you're a natural. Must run in the family. Ok here's one for you.
Cam got her in a position as if she were restraining him, and showed her an escape and attack move. He had her down on the ground before she knew what happened. He then had her try to escape from him. The first time didn't quite work out for her, but she got it on her second try. The third try she had him flat on his back with her elbow to his neck. He was about to say something about her technique when he heard Carolyn's voice.
-Carolyn: What's going on in here?
-Vanessa: (quickly getting up off of Cam) Dr. Lam.
-Cam: We were just doing some training.
-Carolyn: (Glancing over Vanessa) Well that explains why I've been waiting
for over an hour.
-Cam: Oh, god. Carolyn I am so sorry.
-Vanessa: Sir, may I be excused.
-Cam: Yeah, Lt. James. You can take off.
Vanessa left quickly, while Carolyn watched. Carolyn then turned her glare to Cam, who could tell he was in for it.
-Cam: I am so sorry.
-Carolyn: You say that a lot!
-Cam: I lost track of time.
-Carolyn: I can see why!
-Cam: Wait, you don't think… Oh come on!
-Carolyn: Well it wouldn't be the first time.
-Cam: Right, right. Once a cheat always a cheat.
-Carolyn: You said it, not me.
-Cam: When are you going to stop punishing me?
-Carolyn: Cam I'm not the one who…
-Cam: I'm not going to this right now.
-Carolyn: Fine. I'm going home.
Later that evening,Carolyn sat on her sofa drinking chamomile tea to calm herself down. She loved Cam, but the relationship was not working. Things were great for a quite a while. But as time went on she found herself becoming jealous and suspicious. On more than one occasion she had thrown Cam's past infidelity in his face. She always regretted it afterwards but She couldn't stop herself. She heard the door open, and put her cup of tea down. Cam sat down beside her and put his arms around her. She rested her head on his chest.
-Cam: I really am sorry about not meeting you. I made the final selections for SG1 and there were a lot of bruised egos and hurt feelings to deal with. I know their all adults and rejection is part of life, but I wanted to take time with each of them to tell them personally. James was last on my list. I'm not interested in her. I'm not cheating on you. I just lost track of time.
Carolyn was quiet. Too quiet. He stroked her hair and touched her face. She looked up at him and he whipped a tear away, then kissed her. He carried her to the bedroom, and the two shared a very passionate night.
Afterwards they held each other. Cam was desperate to make the relationship work. He was head over heals in love with her. Carolyn loved Cam too, but she hated who she was becoming. And in her heart she knew she couldn't go on.
The next morning Cam woke up and watched Carolyn as she slept. She was so beautiful. He touched her face and she awoke from her slumber. She loved the way she felt when he touched her. She wanted to say something, but couldn't. She got choked up and thought she might cry. He gently pulled her out of bed and walked her to the shower. Intimacy was one area that they never had a problem with.
A short time later they sat at the dinning room table with a cup of coffee. Carolyn was still unusually quiet. Cam worried that her feelings were still hurt because he forgot to meet her after work. He would just have to find a way to make it up to her.
-Cam: Why don't we call in today? We don't have anything pressing on our schedules. We could go to the park, or do one of those art show things that you like so much.
-Carolyn: I can't.
-Cam: Sure you can. You're dad's the boss. I'm sure if we ask he'll approve a little R and R for…
-Carolyn: That's not what I mean. Cam, I'm sorry. I can't do this any more.
-Cam: Wait, what are you saying?
-Carolyn: We have to break up.
-Cam: What! No, no, no… Yesterday was a mistake… a huge mistake. It won't happen again.
-Carolyn: It's not just that…
-Cam: Do you seriously believe I'm cheating on you? Because I promise you I'm not.
-Carolyn: It doesn't matter, because I don't trust you. I love you, but I don't trust you. And it's driving me crazy, Cam.
-Cam: I love you. I'm not going to hurt you.
-Carolyn: (crying softly) The problem is, you already have. And I've tried to get over it, I really have… but I can't. When we broke up I missed you so much, I just wanted to be with you again, but now that we're together, I feel like I'm losing my mind from jelousy.
Cam got up and went to her side. He was desperate for her to change her mind. He could tell by the look in her eye that her mind was made up. But still he had to try.
-Cam: I'll do better. What ever it takes, I'll do it.
-Carolyn: Every time I see you talking to another woman I want to scream. If you're late, I want to track you down. If I don't know where you are then I automatically think your cheating. That's no way to have a relationship. How long will it be until your sick of walking on eggshells?
-Cam: I don't care; I'll do it for as long as it takes.
-Carolyn: I'm going to take a couple of days and visit my mom. It would probably be best if you moved out while I'm gone.
-Cam: I can't believe this!
A flood of sadness and anger rushed over Cam. He pulled away from Carolyn quickly, afraid that he was about to lose it. Cam struggled to fight back tears. He stood up and struck the table with a fury. The coffee cup went flying across the room and shattered. Carolyn shuttered not expecting the violent reaction. Cam hated losing his temper, but couldn't help it. He was losing her, and there was nothing he could do to stop it. He struggled to take deep breaths and regain his composure.
-Carolyn: I'm sorry.
-Cam: (choked up) yeah, me too.
He hastily grabbed his keys and a jacket to get out of the house. He slammed the door so hard that the whole house rattled and the hinge came loose. Carolyn sat with her hands pressed against her mouth still stunned as she heard Cam's Mustang start with a roar and tires screech as he sped off.
XOXOX
Daniel and Carolyn /Daniel and Vala
April 2009
Carolyn sat in her office catching up on some reading. It was a slow day at the SGC. There was an unexpected knock at the door, interrupting her quite time.
-Carolyn: Come in. Oh hello Daniel. What can I do for you?
-Daniel: Hi Carolyn. I was wondering if I could get an allergy shot?
-Carolyn: Sure, let me just grab that for you.
She put the book down on her desk as she went to the medicine cabinet. Daniel couldn't help but notice she was reading a book on ancient Mesopotamian pieces of art.
-Daniel: I didn't know you were into this.
-Carolyn: I am. I prefer historical works of art, but I can appreciate modern works too.
-Daniel: So are you an artist?
-Carolyn: Me… no. I don't have the artistic touch. I just enjoy looking and studying works by others.
-Daniel: Me too. Of course I'm really mostly interested in historical pieces. I have several collections actually.
-Carolyn: I have to confess, I've taken a look at some of the pieces you have stored here. Sorry, I couldn't resist.
-Daniel: Oh, I don't mind at all. It's nice that someone appreciates it. It mostly just collects dust.
-Carolyn: (administering the shot) that's a shame.
-Daniel: I'm actually expecting a few more pieces in a few weeks. I'll let you know when they come in.
-Carolyn: Thanks.
-Daniel: The Hollandale Spring Art Exhibit starts today.
-Carolyn: I know. I'm planning on going after work.
-Daniel: So was I. Maybe we could go together. I mean, since we both…
-Carolyn: That sounds like fun. I'd really like to.
-Daniel: (getting up and going to the door) Yeah, me too. Should I pick you up?
-Carolyn: (walking him to the door) Sure. I was going to get something to eat afterward.
-Daniel: I need to eat too.
-Carolyn: I know a great restaurant near the art exhibit, if you want.
-Daniel: I'd like that.
They stood outside the door of her office. Carolyn was typically very serious while at work. This was the first time Daniel was seeing her so relaxed on the job with him. They were always very friendly, but this was different. She was trying not to blush. Daniel surprised himself. Had he just asked Dr. Lam on a date? It had just kind of happened. It wasn't planned or forced.
Vala pranced down the hallway at the SGC. She had just returned from an off world visit with Tomin. As promised he granted her a decree to dissolve their marriage. With paper in hand, she was going to find Daniel and tell him she had genuine feelings for him. She thought about what she would say, but then decided she should just plant a huge kiss right on his lips. She went around the corner and saw Daniel talking with Carolyn. He seemed to be in a good mood. She went right up and barged into the conversation in her typical friendly way.
-Vala: Hi! What are you guys talking about?
-Daniel: Ah, there's an art show in town this month
-Carolyn: Yes, lots of modern and historical pieces will be on display.
-Daniel: Yeah, should be a lot of fun.
-Vala: So what happens at this art show?
-Daniel: Well the works of art are put on display, and you walk around and observe them. Often there is an expert there who lectures or opens the discussions.
-Carolyn: Then you discuss the artists' intentions and interpretation with the expert and other patrons. It should be a really good time.
-Vala: This is your idea of a good time?
-Carolyn/Daniel: Yes.
-Daniel: Turns out she's been secretly admiring my collection of artifacts.
-Vala: Oh, I bet he gave you an ear full about touching his things.
Carolyn: Actually, he was quite gracious about it. I can't wait to see your new pieces when they come in.
-Vala: Really… Because, when ever I play around with Daniels things he gets quite cross with me.
-Carolyn: Well I don't actually play with his artifacts. (Laughing) I wouldn't want to break or damage anything.
-Vala: Of course not…
-Daniel: So Carolyn, should I pick you up at your place at 5?
-Carolyn: It's a date.
-Vala: A date?
-Daniel: (smiling) Well, yeah, I guess it is.
-Carolyn: (smiling) I'm looking forward to it. I better get some work done so I can get off on time.
-Daniel: So, Vala, what's that? (Pointing to the paper in her hand)
-Vala: Oh this… It's the papers from Tomin. I'm officially a free woman, Daniel.
-Daniel: Oh, well congratulations.
-Vala: Daniel… I umm… I didn't know you were into art.
-Daniel: Well, like I said, I'm mostly interested in historical art pieces, but yeah.
-Vala: So you and Carolyn?
-Daniel: Yeah, I guess so.
-Vala: I can see why you like her. She's beautiful, and smart.
-Daniel: And who knew we had so much in common. (looking at his watch) I have a meeting with Landry. I'll see you around.
-Vala: (flustered) Oh… Right… see you…
She couldn't help but be disappointed maybe a little heart broken. She really cared for Daniel, maybe even loved him. He had been the first one to give her a chance, and they had been through so much together. But they had absolutely nothing in common. All of the things that Daniel enjoyed just bored her to tears. She leaned her back against the wall and let out a giant defeated exhale.
*(More Daniel /Vala coming soon in the SG Nexus series)
Later Daniel caught up with Cam. He wasn't sure how Cam would feel about him going out with Carolyn. They were close friends, and he wanted to make sure Cam heard from him, not someone else.
-Daniel: Hey Mitchell, I wanted to talk to you about something.
-Cam: What's on your mind Jackson?
-Daniel: I wanted to let you know that um… There's this art exhibit this week…
-Cam: Uh, yeah. If you're looking for company, that's not my thing. You
know who likes art stuff… Carolyn.
-Daniel: Yeah, I know. She and I are going tonight.
-Cam: Good.
-Daniel: Kind of like a date.
-Cam: (getting the point) Oh, I see. When did all this come about?
-Daniel: It kind of just happened. I just wanted to make sure…
-Cam: (doing his best to hide his disappointment) No man, it's cool.
-Daniel: I mean, it's just a date, it doesn't mean…
-Cam: It's all right Jackson really.
-Daniel: So we're good?
-Cam: Always man. We're good.
Carolyn and Daniel had a wonderful time. They got along quite well, and found each other very attractive. After dinner, Daniel drove Carolyn home. He was quite the gentleman, making sure to open the car door and walk her to the front door. Carolyn was smitten.
-Carolyn: I had a wonderful time.
-Daniel: So did I. You know, maybe we should do this again sometime.
-Carolyn: I'd really like that, Daniel.
-Daniel: It's getting late. I'll see you tomorrow at work.
-Carolyn: I'll see you then.
She gave Daniel a gentle but lingering kiss on the lips. They smiled at each other as she went inside and closed the door. Daniel was taken by surprise, but in a good way. Carolyn was the type of girl who got right to the point. She had a great time and was starting to really like Daniel, so she had no problem showing it. As nice as it was, Daniel couldn't help but feel a soft sorrow come over him, as he drove home. He missed Sha're so much, even though so many years had gone by. He knew it was far past time for him to move on. Maybe this would be it. Carolyn was very hopeful. She still had feelings for Cam, but knew they could never be together. She hoped that someone as wonderful as Daniel would be the right guy for her.
XOXOX
Daniel and Carolyn
Late June 2009
Daniel and Carolyn went out on several dates. Each one was very much like the first. They got along well and truly enjoyed each other's company. But something seemed to be holding them back from taking things further. Carolyn was nervous about taking the next step, because of how badly she was hurt by Cameron. She wanted to be ready to take things further, but had to get up the nerve to do so. She had to put her lingering feelings for Cam behind her and try to move forward.
Things were a little more complicated for Daniel. He was quite comfortable taking things slow. He had been attracted to other women before, but there was never the possibility of a real relationship.
This night the couple had just enjoyed a documentary on De Vinci. They held hands as they strolled across the campus of the local college. The summer air was nice and the sky was littered with stars.
-Carolyn: It is a lovely night.
-Daniel: That it is. I wish we didn't have to cut it short.
-Carolyn: So what is this research you're doing for Dr. Rush?
-Daniel: We're just looking for any clues as to how to unlock the 9th chevron. There was an artifact that I researched years ago. It had specific markings that may be what we're looking for.
-Carolyn: So you're going to get the artifact?
-Daniel: No unfortunately it was destroyed. However Ludvick Vonhagger wrote about the piece in one of his books. The libraries here don't have a copy. I'm going to NY to go through the basement of the main library and dig up their copy.
-Carolyn: Vonhagger? It wouldn't happen to be Arts of the Unknown would it?
-Daniel: Yes. I'm surprised you've heard of it. There are only a handful of copies. Most are privately owned.
-Carolyn: I know. I own one of them.
-Daniel: You're kidding.
-Carolyn: Not kidding. It was a gift to my father from a French diplomat. My dad thought I would appreciate it. We can stop by my place and pick it up.
They went to her house and she got the book for him. It was in excellent condition.
-Daniel: Carolyn you are a life saver.
-Carolyn: I'm glad I could help. Can I get you something to drink?
-Daniel: Sure, I'll have whatever you're having.
They enjoyed a glass of wine while Daniel scrolled through the book. He found the artifact he was looking for. There was a photo along with a very detailed description of the designs (symbols) on it. Daniel began to explain how the symbols could help Dr. Rush. Carolyn was impressed with how Daniel was able to figure these things out. Daniel shared with her some of his experiences with Jack and Sam during the early years of the Stagate Program. They shared a few laughs as he reminisced. Carolyn started to get up for another glass of wine and stumbled. Daniel caught her and they fell back onto the couch. Daniel wasn't sure if it was the wine or his growing feelings for Carolyn that motivated him, but he went in for a kiss. Carolyn responded and passionately kissed him back. Things seemed to be progressing well, until thoughts of Sha're began to enter his mind. He forced the thoughts away and tried to focus on Carolyn. A few minutes more into it, and suddenly Carolyn stopped. Daniel couldn't believe what had happened. He did not mean to, but he had called her Sha're. Carolyn sat up on the couch and pulled herself together. She was calm, but still Daniel felt terrible
-Daniel: Carolyn, I am so sorry. I don't know why…
-Carolyn: You don't have to apologize.
-Daniel: That shouldn't have happened. I'm really trying to move forward and make this work.
-Carolyn: I think that's the problem. You shouldn't be trying at all. You're not ready.
They sat in silence for a moment. Daniel knew she was right but he wanted to be ready. And Carolyn was perfect for him. She was beautiful, intelligent, they had common interests, and she was part of the Stargate program.
-Daniel: It's not you. You're perfect. Any guy would be lucky to have you.
-Carolyn: But I'm not who you really want.
-Daniel: She's not coming back. I know she's not. But…
-Carolyn: You know it up here (gently touching his head) But not in your heart. Your heart hasn't let go. I saw my dad go through the same thing with my mom. Only difference was…
-Daniel: That Kim is still alive. Ahh… I want to move on.
-Carolyn: But your desire to hold on to Sha're, is stronger than your desire to move on. And until that changes, you'll only be going through the motions.
-Daniel: I think I could really have feelings for you.
-Carolyn: No, Daniel. We can still be friends, but I am ready for a real committed relationship. I can't wait and take a chance on a possibility. I can be your friend, but I don't think I'm going to be the one that mends your broken heart.
-Daniel: I am sorry.
-Carolyn: It's nothing for you to apologize for. One day I hope you find someone who you will want to be with. When you're ready.
XOXOX
Cam and Carolyn
Late June 2009
Cam went down the corridors of the SGC headed towards the media room. It had been a long mission that day and he wasn't up for the drive home. It was late and he just wanted to relax. He went into the room and flipped the light switch on. He was surprised to find Carolyn there sitting in the dark.
-Cam: Sorry, I didn't know anyone was in here.
-Carolyn: (whipping her eyes) I was just leaving.
-Cam: I'm surprised you're not on one of your fancy dates with Dr. Shakespeare.
-Carolyn: (brushing past him) Not funny Cam…
-Cam: (Gently grabbing her arm) Hey, have you been crying.
-Carolyn: (sniffing) It's just been a long day.
-Cam: No, you're not getting off the hook that easy. What's wrong?
-Carolyn: We broke up last night. He wasn't ready… I wasn't ready…
Cam put his arms around her, and she let herself relax in his familiar hold.
He secretly was relieved that her relationship with the good Dr. was short lived. He looked into her eyes and kissed her passionately. She let him at first, letting herself go with the passion of the moment. But soon she came to her senses, and pulled away.
-Carolyn: No, we can't…
-Cam: Yes we can. You can't tell me that these tears are for a man that you been dating for just a couple of months.
He kissed her again and she felt her resolve weakening. But she felt something else too. A part of her coming out that she hated. There was a Carolyn that was over emotional and irrational, jealous and vengeful. Carolyn preferred to be stoic, level headed and calm. She needed control, and the balance, which at times was difficult… with Cam it was impossible.
-Carolyn: Cam, I can't…
-Cam: You can't what? Admit that you still love me… Let go of the past… Let me love you… What?
-Carolyn: All of it Cam! I can't be with you, because…
-Cam: What is it? Why can't you be with me, if I'm the one you want?
-Carolyn: Because I'm afraid of you. I'm afraid who I am when I'm with you. You make me feel like I'm loosing my mind, Cam! I don't trust you! I'll never trust you. I will admit it. I want you, and I still love you. But I will make both of our lives miserable, because I will never trust you.
-Cam: Just give us another chance.
-Carolyn: I tried Cam. It's not going to change. You have to let me go. And I have to let you go. We're over. There is no going back.
She pulled away from him and left. He was stunned. He had continued to hold out hope that one day they would be together again.
XOXOX
Cam and Vala / Daniel and Vala
Late June 2009
Cam walked grimly down the corridors back to his private quarters. Carolyn's words had hit him hard and he felt lost. Vala came out of her room just as Cam was walking by.
-Vala: Hey, the media room is that way. I was just going to join you.
-Cam: Naw, you go ahead. I'm just gonna go…
-Vala: What in the universe is wrong with you, Mitchell? We just had a great mission, now you look a little wonko.
-Cam: Look, I'm just… I don't know what just happened…
-Vala: (pulling him into her room) What's going on?
Vala pulled out her secret liquor stash, and handed it to Cam. A drink was just what he needed. They sat on the end of her bed in true pitty party fashion. He took a few swigs and handed it back to her.
-Cam: I screwed up so bad. I'm just going to keep being punished for the biggest mistake I've ever made. It's never going away.
-Vala: (taking a drink and handing it back to him) Sometimes that's the way it is. There are some mistakes that no matter how hard you try; you just can't make it right. Trust me, I know.
-Cam: I think you're probably the only one who gets it. Isn't time supposed to heal all wounds and all that?
-Vala: Is that one of the Earth sayings? I find that time can cause people to forget for a while, but eventually they remember and it all blows up again. Or time can cause things to fester and get worse…
-Cam: Yup, that's what I'm finding too. I wanted the perfect girl. And some how I turned her into a jealous lunatic. That's what happens when people like us try to be with people like … them.
-Vala: I know what you mean. I wasn't even given a chance. Mr. Perfect, didn't even give me a second thought. I suppose it's for the best. I would have screwed it up somehow. I'm not the girl a guy wants to end up with.
-Cam: Don't say that. You're fun, street smart and sexy as H***.
-Vala: You think I'm sexy?
-Cam: (Taking another gulp of liquer) H*** yeah! You're probably the sexiest woman I've ever met.
-Vala: I always thought you like the goodie goodie type… the Amy and Carolyn type of girls.
-Cam: And look where that's gotten me. Maybe I've been looking for the wrong type all this time. Maybe there's more than 1 type of perfect.
-Vala: I'm nobody's perfect.
-Cam: That's not true. You are a special kind of perfect.
Cam leaned over and kissed her. He wasn't sure how she would respond. But he wasn't expecting what came next. After they kissed she looked him in the eye. They were both silent for a moment and then Vala threw him down on the bed and jumped on top of him. She whipped off her top and kissed him passionately on the lips.
-Cam: That's what I'm talking about. Perfection!
The next morning Vala woke Cam at about 5 am. She thought it would be best if he got back to his room before everyone was up and about at the SGC. Cam quickly put on his pants and gathered his things. Vala threw on a slinky little pink robe, and checked the hall ways to make sure it was clear. Cam stepped out and looked back at Vala. She actually was blushing a little.
-Cam: (smiling) That was…
-Vala: (Smiling back at him) I know…
-Cam: Maybe later we can talk…
-Vala: Ok. You better go.
He gave her a kiss that lasted just a few seconds too long. They were both startled by a familiar voice.
-Daniel: Uh, hey guys…
-Vala: Daniel!
-Cam: Jackson: What are you doing here so early?
-Daniel: (trying to be casual in the awkward situation) Uh… rough night. I couldn't sleep so I thought I'd get up early and get some work done…
-Vala: We were just um…
-Daniel: No need to explain… I'm just gonna (pointing down the hall)…
-Vala: Uh Daniel, wait.
-Cam: I'm gonna go. I'll see you both later.
-Vala: (waiting for Cam to leave) I can explain. You see…
-Daniel: Vala, you don't owe me an explanation. You're free to be with whomever you want. If that's what makes you happy.
-Vala: It's just that, well, I'm divorced now, and then you and Carolyn seem so happy…
-Daniel: Oh, um Carolyn and I broke up.
-Vala: She wasn't the right one for you?
-Daniel: Oh, Carolyn is perfect. Any guy would be lucky to have her. I just…
-Vala: What is it Daniel?
-Daniel: I need to let go. Sha're was the love of my life, and she's not coming back.
-Vala: I'm sorry.
-Daniel: No, I'm ok, really. I'm ok. And I'm glad for you. You looked really happy with Mitchell. I think you were even blushing.
-Vala: Do you mind not saying anything to anybody. This just kind of happened, and we don't even know what it means or if it even means anything.
-Daniel: Your secret is safe with me. I'd better go.
-Vala: Bye Daniel.
She watched him walk down the hall, and her heart was a little sad and very confused. Maybe it was time for everyone to let go of the past and look toward the future.
XOXOX
Part 3 – SGU/ Pre SGN
Cam Vala
June 2009-2010
Cam and Vala had not planned on things happening. In the light of day, and without the influence of alcohol, they both seemed to rethink the situation. There was no denying the attraction between them, and they had incredible chemistry, but they were still mending their broken hearts. Their friendship continued to grow as did their feelings for each other, and on occasion they would still hook up. By late 2010 both were feeling that the friendship was truly something more than just a friendship with benefits.
XOXOX
Jack and Sam
March 2011
Sam was happy to be back on Earth. She had completed her final mission to return Rodney McKay and Mr. Woolsey to Atlantis. She was anxious to talk to Jack. He had said there was something very important he wanted to discuss with her, and she had a really good feeling about it. But most importantly, she wanted to talk to him about her own choices. While on Atlantis she had time to visit with Teyla and John. Seeing Teyla with her son had sparked a maternal desire in Sam that she couldn't shake. The joy in Teyla's voice when she spoke about little Torren John so deeply touched Sam's heart that she knew she was done. She planned on putting in for early retirement.
Jack was waiting at his DC house for Sam to arrive. He knew she would be happy to see the for sale sign in the yard when the car pulled up. The car pulled into the driveway, and the driver got the door for Sam and then her bags. Jack grabbed the bags from the driver and escorted Sam inside. As soon as the door was closed Jack dropped the bags and planted a huge kiss on Sam's lips. They both pulled away from each other unable to contain their enthusiasm.
-Jack/Sam: I'm retiring! What?
-Sam: Wait. You first.
-Jack: I'm retiring. I'm going to step down from Head of HWC and take over for General Landry back at the SGC.
-Sam: Don't you have at least another 2 years at the HWC? And where's Landry going?
-Jack: Landry and Kim are getting remarried and her stipulation was that he retires. So he put in for retirement 6 months ago and he's outta here in 2 more months. I figure with you doing 1 more year on the Hammond, I need to ease out of here and get someone else in at the HWC. I'll take over at my old job, and that will make it easy for me to retire in a year and a half. Then when you're done on the Hammond, we'll go were ever you get stationed.
-Sam: That's the thing. You don't have to follow me anywhere. I'm done. The past 25 years I have put my heart and soul into this, and I have done the most amazing things and met the most incredible people. But I am ready for the next chapter in my life. I'm almost 43 years old. There are some things that if I don't do them now, I will never get the chance. I've already put in for retirement. So with your approval, I should be done in the next 6- 12 months. And if your going back to Colorado, then so am I.
-Jack: God, I love you.
-Sam: I love you too.
He gave her another huge kiss on the lips, before something dawned on them both.
-Jack: You do realize that if we both go back to the SGC, for the next 6 months or so, I'm going to be your commanding officer again.
-Sam: Ooh, that's right. Are you going to be able to keep your hands off of me that long?
-Jack: That's going to be tough. We'd better make the most of our time here then.
-Sam: You got it.
XOXOX
Evan and Carolyn
July 2011
Carolyn arrived on Atlantis via the Stargate. The find of a few more ZPMs made travel back and forth between Atlantis possible twice a year and for emergencies. Significant power had been drained trying to use the ZPMs to dial Destiny, so the remaining power was used with caution. So when Carolyn got the call from Mr. Woolsey to come as soon as possible she knew the situation was serious. Mr. Woolsey and Col. Lorne greeted her, and then escorted her to a briefing room. Dr. Becket and Dr. Keller were waiting.
Woolsey and Becket explained the situation. It began several days before with some of the Hoffman survivors becoming ill. Soon though, others began to fall ill. As the survivors of the Hoffman drug began to recover, the others did not. 100% of the population in the effected areas became ill. The end results were about the same as the initial Hoffman epidemic, with about 50% fatality rate of the infected population.
-Carolyn- The Hoffman drug was manufactured. I'm sure Dr. Becket would be best suited to resolve this.
-Becket: We're certain that the Hoffman Drug has gone Viral.
-Carolyn: But how?
-Jennifer: We're hoping you can help us find out and get a cure before more people die.
Just then John and Teyla interrupted them. Woolsey could tell by the look on their face it was not good news.
-John: We just got word. 2 more planets are infected. Yuradis, and Glasen.
-Lorne: What? We warned Glasen days ago. They should have been safe.
-Becket: We're looking at an even longer incubation time than we thought.
-Carolyn: If that's the case, this thing could be spread all over the Galaxy already.
-Lorne: I need to get to Glasen.
-Woolsey: I don't think that's a good idea.
-Lorne: I promised those people we would look out for them.
-John: Look Lorne I know how much they mean mean to you, but there's nothing we can do for them yet.
-Carolyn: I can go with him. I need to get into the field to get a better idea of what we're dealing with, anyway. I might as well use this planet.
-Woolsey: Okay then. You have my permission.
The plague was just beginning but it was already taking its toll. Carolyn could tell Evan was looking for someone in particular. He spoke to a man who pointed to the library which was turned into a make shift medical facility, and he quickly went in. Carolyn followed and was greeted by a doctor. As Carolyn spoke with the doctor she saw Evan walk over to a little girl sitting by the bed of an elderly woman. She couldn't have been more than 5 years old with pale skin and long dark curly locks. Her large dark eyes were glossed over with tears and there was a sadness about her continence. Evan tapped on her shoulder. At first the girl seemed frightened by the HAZMAT suite. Once she saw Evan smiling she reached her arms out to him and he swooped her up into a huge hug. Carolyn focused her attention on what the doctor was saying to her, but couldn't help but be moved by what she witnessed.
They decided to set up their base of operations on Glasen, instead of putting Atlantis at risk for contamination. Decontamination quarters were set up to give the Atlantis team some time out of the suits. Carolyn worked day and night for 2 days with no success. She was exhausted and Becket insisted that she take a break. She went to their quarters and peeled out of the Hazmat suit. She barely got to sit down when Evan came in. She could tell he was upset. He had spent most of his time with the little girl, and Carolyn was curious as to his connection to her.
-Carolyn: are you all right?
-Evan: I'll be all right when we get a cure for this plague.
-Carolyn: Sorry, I didn't mean to…
-Evan: No I'm sorry. I'm just tired. Solana hasn't been able to sleep, since we lost her grandmother last night.
-Carolyn: I hope you don't mind me asking, but is she yours.
-Evan: Oh, ah no. Three years ago the Wraith attacked this planet, Solana's village. We were called to help but by the time we got there, the village was wiped out. Her parents hid her before they were culled. I was the one who found her. I stayed and took care of her until we were able to find her maternal grandmother living in another village. I visit her when ever I get a chance.
-Carolyn: I'm sorry she lost her grandmother. What will happen to her now?
-Evan: I don't know. I guess if she survives, I'll see if she can come back to Atlantis.
-Carolyn: Is she showing symptoms?
-Evan: Yes since this morning.
-Carolyn: I'm going to do everything I can…
-Evan: I know.
Several days passed and they were unable to find a cure. Carolyn would work for 48 hours strait before taking a short break. She and Evan soon began to take these short breaks together. It was a comforting reprieve in the midst of so much death and sadness. One night as Carolyn went back to their quarters, she got a bad feeling. After waiting an hour for Evan to show up, she put her suit back on and went to the triage where Solana was being cared for. She found Evan sitting next to the bed as the little struggled to sleep. She was ashen grey and struggled to breath. Carolyn picked up the girls charts and realized that her time was running out.
-Evan: Beckett says she won't make it through the night. Please tell me you've got the cure.
-Carolyn: (shaking her head slowly) I'm sorry.
Evan tried to comfort the girl, but his touch through the Hazmat suit seemed to cause her more discomfort.
-Evan: She's in pain.
-Carolyn: I'll se what I can do for the pain.
-Solana: (Whispering and struggling to breath) Evan… I'm scared.
-Evan: Hey, it's ok kiddo. I'm right here.
-Solana: I'm so cold.
-Evan: I know
He did his best to cover her up, bet she reached out to him. Carolyn could see the frustration on Evan's face. Then without warning, Evan took off the helmet of his suit.
-Carolyn: Evan! What are you doing?
-Evan: (whispering to Carolyn) She shouldn't have to die like this.
He got out of the suit and picked up the girl. He wrapped her in the blanket and sat in the chair with her. Solana wrapped her weak arms around him and rested her head on his chest. He slowly rocked her as he gently stroked her hair. Carolyn said nothing. There was nothing that she could say or do at this point. She listened as Evan sang a lullaby to the child. She girl smiled and closed her eyes. Carolyn watched the monitor as her vitals began to drop. Evan felt her slump as he held her and the monitor went flat. Carolyn turned it off.
Several more days went by. Evan spent his time helping out where ever he could, while Carolyn frantically tried to create a cure. She would visit with him whenever she got a chance, but that was scarce. By this time the entire planet had been infected and the death toll was rising. Soon Evan began to show the first symptoms.
-Carolyn: How are you feeling?
-Evan: I've been better. I know you need to rest. You don't have to come visit me.
-Carolyn: Maybe I want to come see you. What you did…
-Evan: I know, it was stupid.
-Carolyn: I was going to say, it was compassionate.
-Evan: I messed up. I got attached to these people… to Solana. We promised that we would protect them. We defeated the Wraith, and the Replicators. After everything we've been through… We let them down.
-Carolyn: That's not true. We're doing everything we can.
-Beckett: (Over the radio) Dr Lam, We need you at the gate.
-Carolyn: Finally he's here.
-Evan: What's going on?
-Carolyn: I'm not sure but I think we might have a break through. You rest. I'll be back as soon as I can.
The visitor at the gate was Aiden Ford. He and his group had been on a Wraith Enzyme supplement at the time of the Galactic Pandemic. None had previously been exposed to the Hoffman drug but they all only got mild symptoms and recovered within 3-4 days. Carolyn concluded that the mutated Virus was intended to attack Wraith DNA and destroy it. Aiden's clan had enough Wraith DNA in their system from the enzyme that the virus spent most of it's life attacking that and then died off before attacking the human cells. From this she was able to create a cure and a vaccine. She personally administered the drug to Evan.
The success was biter sweet. More than half of the known populated planets had been affected by the plague. Many that were hit early on lost 50% of their population. Those that were affected late had losses from 15% to 25%. There were no smiles on the team's faces as they returned to Atlantis. It was strange to see how unaffected their city was in comparison to the planet they had just spent the last 3 weeks on.
Carolyn showered for what seemed like an eternity. And though she was exhausted, she found herself unable to sleep. She left her quarters and went for a walk around Atlantis. It was late and not many personnel were up and about. She made her way to the balcony that Evan had told her about. She wasn't too surprised to see him there, staring off into the night.
-Carolyn: I hope I'm not intruding.
-Evan: Not at all. I wasn't able to sleep.
-Carolyn: Neither was I. You know I wish that we had made the break through sooner.
-Evan: So do I, but we can't change what's happened. We have to move on. It's part of the job. I shouldn't have let my self get attached. I'm really gonna miss that kid.
Carolyn could here his voice choking up. Instinctively, she reached out and put her hand over his. He took her hand and held on to it. They stood leaning on the balcony railing watching the stars in silence. Somehow being close to each other seemed to be what they both needed.
-Carolyn: It's easy to get attached. Sometimes it just happens, and there is no way to stop it. When you took of your suit, I was afraid.
-Evan: I didn't mean to put you through that. I did what I had to do, for Solana. She needed me.
-Carolyn: You could have died.
-Evan: I know. It was my decision. That was the hardest thing I've ever had to do.
-Carolyn: Putting your life on the line to comfort a child?
-Evan: No, that was the easy part. The hard part was having to let her go.
Carolyn looked into his Eyes and knew he was sincere. She put her arms around him and he did the same. And then, just as naturally as two people breath air, they kissed.
Carolyn woke up the next morning in Evan's arms. She couldn't believe that she was finally able to get a good nights sleep. She tried to get up without waking him, but was unsuccessful.
-Evan: Good morning.
-Carolyn: I didn't mean to wake you.
-Evan: I can't imagine a better way to wake up than with a beautiful woman in my arms.
-Carolyn: Ah, you're an artist and a poet?
-Evan: I try.
-Carolyn: (giving him a kiss) I better get going.
-Evan: No. Don't go.
-Carolyn: I have to go. Gen. O'Neill is insisting that I get back and take some time off.
-Evan: Like a vacation?
-Carolyn: (laughing) No. He means just a few days at home to rest. If I'm lucky I might catch an art show.
-Evan: Why don't you stay here on Atlantis?
-Carolyn: What?
-Evan: it really is a beautiful city. There's lot's to see and do. I have a few days off. I could show you around.
-Carolyn: You're serious aren't you?
-Evan: (leaning in for a kiss) Yes I am.
XOXOX
Cam and Vala
Sep 2011-Feb 2012
The situation with the Lucian Alliance was now out of control. The attempt to capture Destiny and their ability to get key operatives like Telford, were putting the Stargate program at risk. SG1 took the lead going under cover. The plan was to trick the Lucian alliance into believing that they ha successfully brain washed Cam and Vala. They were imprinted with false memories but with new Asgard technology they were able to retain and hide their true memories. In January of 2011 The alliance launched an attack on Earth, with more attacks to come, so Cam and Vala put their plan into action and left Stargate Command.
While under cover, they had to pretend like they did not have feelings for each other. Kiva's younger sister Kalia had taken a liking to Cam, and was not too fond of him spending time with Vala. Not everything was going well within the Lucian Alliance. There were factions that had come together that had deep seeded resentment for each other. With Kiva gone, Kalia and her Father Masim struggled to keep the Alliance together. Cam knew Kalia was the key to getting close to Masim. He mostly flirted with her, which she seemed to enjoy. It didn't hurt that she was drop dead gorgeous with sandy blond hair, tan skin and deep brown eyes. She demanded most of Cam's attention. But still he found time to be with Vala.
-Vala: What are you doing here. I'm surprised Kalia lets her little pet off his chain.
-Cam: Ouch! Is that really necessary? I never thought you were the jealous type.
-Vala: I'm not jealous. I mean you get rushed right to the top of the pyramid, while I'm down here running raids and smuggling junk with the street rats.
-Cam: We both have a job to do.
-Vala: And does that job include having sex with the daughter of one of the most dangerous humans in the Galaxy.
-Cam: First of all, I'm not sleeping with her. And second, yeah, she's my ticket to mason. So I'm gonna do what ever it takes. I thought you could handle what we're doing here.
-Vala: I can. I was running this game while you were having kegger parties with your little college boys back on Earth.
-Cam: (holding her in his arms) Hey calm down. We are in. We're close to our goal. We thwart any further terrorist attacks, take down Masim, and divide the alliance. If we can do that with out getting killed, we'll be back on Earth and we can pick up where we left off.
-Vala: I wish we didn't have to wait. Who knows how long this is going to take. Weeks… months maybe.
-Cam: (kissing the back of her neck) well nobody knows I'm here. We could take advantage of the moment.
-Vala: (smiling) That sounds like a plan.
They had been with the LA for over a month and had not had a chance to be together. This was just what they needed to stay motivated. They missed everything that was familiar to them from Earth, and being in each others arms again was a great comfort. Unfortunately it couldn't last long. Cam was concerned about being away for too long. Even though he and Vala had been subjected to torture and brain washing, he didn't want to raise any suspicion.
Unfortunately a very jealous Kalia was already suspicious of Cam and Vala. She believed that they were part of the LA but worried that they were more than friends.
-Kalia: Did you have him followed?
-Dogar: Yes. He went to visit Vala in her quarters. He was there for about an hour. Just long enough to…
-Kalia: I see. Thank you Dogar. Send for him.
Cam couldn't help but be a little concerned that Kalia wanted to see him so suddenly. He and Vala had cloak equipment that would let them know if there were any surveillance in their private quarters. He decided to just play it cool.
-Cam: You wanted to see me?
-Kalia: Where were you this morning?
-Cam: I went to visit a friend.
-Kalia: Your old partner from SG1.
-Cam: Yup. Vala… Mal Duran. Is there a problem?
-Kalia: I was just wondering if I was mistaken to trust your allegiance to us.
-Cam: Look, I turned my back on Earth and left it all behind when they accused me of knowing about the attack on Earth. They tried to execute me without so much as a trial after everything I did for them. I'm not going back. I cut off all ties to them. But if you don't want me here, then just say the word and I'm gone!
-Kalia: I didn't say that. I believe you. I guess I'm really questioning your allegiance to me.
-Cam: So you're worried about Vala and me being… together.
-Kalia: You're a grown man. You're free to be with a woman if you chose to. I just had hoped that we were getting to know each other better.
-Cam: And we are. But, a man has needs. I have needs. And I wouldn't want to compromise you in any way. If you want something from me all you have to do is ask.
-Kalia: I…
Just then Dogar burst into Kalia's quarters.
-Dogar: Sorry to interrupt, but we have a problem.
-Kalia: What is it Dogar!
-Dogar: It's Treg Farrenz. He came for the negotiations and just went into a rage.
-Kalia: What's the problem?
-Dogar: He shot 3 of our people. He's being held now.
-Kalia: (gathering her things) Why would he do this?
-Dogar: Vala Mal Duran!
-Cam: What? Where is she?
-Dogar: She and 2 others have been shot.
-Cam: I'm going with you.
Vala was rushed to the medical facility. Cam went with her, and Kalia went to find out what had gone wrong. Vala had surgery and Cam waited outside refusing to leave even when Kalia sent for him. When Vala woke up he immediately went to see her.
-Cam: How are you feeling?
-Vala: (trying to sit up) I'm ok. It's not as bad as it looks.
-Cam: You got lucky. Doc says you'll be able to get around in a few hours, but you'll have to take it easy for a couple of days.
-Vala: Are you kidding. I'm ready to get up right now.
-Cam: Oh no you don't. what happened out there?
-Vala: Oh Teg Farrenz and I go way back. We kind of grew up together.
-Cam: And now he wants to kill you?
-Vala: Just a miss understanding. I can handle him.
-Cam: He shot you.
-Vala: Yeah well. It happens.
-Cam: Fine. I'll drop it. Get some rest. I'll get you out of here in the morning.
Cam left and realized he would have to deal with Kalia. He went to her quarters and braced himself for a smack down.
-Kalia: why didn't you come when I called for you.
-Cam: My friend just got shot!
-Kalia: Right, your friend.
-Cam: We've already gone over this. Come on.
-Kalia: Well your friend is causing quite a bit of trouble for my father. Negotiations with Farrenz have not gone well he is the leader of Valtron, and his people will declare all out war on us if we keep him.
-Cam: Then let him go.
-Kalia: We intend to. He wants Vala. She'll leave with him first thing in the morning.
-Cam: What? Wait you can't do that. Vala is one of your people.
-Kalia: And Farrenz insists that she committed a heinous crime against his people and she must stand trial for it.
-Cam: Oh great! What crime?
-Kalia: He won't say. Just that it is serious and he is insisting. If you think my father is Ruthless, just know that Farrenz is equal to him in that regard.
-Cam: Vala is very valuable to the LA. She has provided your smugglers and runners with key intelligence. You know this.
-Kalia: I know. And so does my father. But, I think that he would rather see this problem go away rather than fight on this one.
-Cam: Maybe if you speak to him.
-Kalia: Why would I do that for her?
-Cam: For me.
-Kalia: I would do it for you but that would mean apposing my father.
Cam knew what he needed to do. He went right over and kissed her on her full lips. She melted in his arms.
-Kalia: You're just doing this so I will help your friend.
-Cam: (lying) This is what I was going to do, before we were interrupted earlier.
He kissed her again. He wasn't sure how far he would have to go, but he would do what ever needed to be done to keep Vala safe.
-Kalia: I will speak with my father tonight. Will you stay here and wait for me? Everything here is at your disposal. I will be back as soon as I can.
-Cam: I'll be here when you return.
Kalia went to speak with her father. Masimwas incredibly ruthless and normally would have no problem handing Vala over to Farrenz. But the loss of Kiva was hard on him. He had raised her to be just like him. Now Kalia was all he had left. Against his better judgment he decided not to hand over Vala. Instead he left the decision up to Kalia. He explained to her the possible ramifications of opposing Farrenz on this issue. It was early in the morning when Kalia returned. She was not nearly as ruthless as her father and sister, but she was conniving and manipulative, and knew how to get what she wanted.
-Kalia: Dogar, I want you to bring Vala to me.
-Dogar: Yes Kalia.
-Kalia: I will be expecting you so do not knock. Bring her directly into my quarters and wait until I am finished with Cam Mitchell before you interrupt me. Do you understand?
-Dogar: I understand perfectly.
-Kalia: Good.
Kalia went into her quarters where Cam was sleeping on a chaise lounge sofa. She knelt beside him and woke him up. He almost forgot were he was but quickly recovered and put himself back into the game.
-Cam: How did it go?
-Kalia: It was difficult. My father explained to me that it will cause great trouble to the LA if we fight Farrenz on this.
-Cam: He's going to let them take her?
-Kalia: He is leaving the decision up to me. I don't know what to do Cam. We can't afford the kind of trouble that Farrenz could bring.
-Cam: I will be here to help you deal with Farrenz. You just have to trust me.
Cam kissed her again, but this time she wasn't going to settle for a kiss. She took off her top, and Cam knew that it was all or nothing at this point.
A short while later Doger brought Vala to Kalia's quarters. He opened the door slightly and found Kalia and Cam in bed having sex. He prompted Vala not to say a word as they went in. Vala's heart sank as she realized what was happening. She took a deep breath and closed her eyes trying to fight back the tears. Kalia glanced over Cam's shoulder and saw Doger and Vala at the far end of the room by the door. Even though it was a very large room and they were some distance away, she could tell her display had the desired effect on Vala. When She and Cam had finished they continued to kiss, and Kalia waved her hand to signal Doger.
-Dogar: Excuse me Commander. It is time.
-Kalia: Yes. Bring her.
Cam turned around and was mortified to see Vala standing with Dogar. He wondered how long they had been there, even though he knew it didn't matter. He started to get up but Kalia waved for him to stay put. He sat in the bed with his head hung as she got up making sure to flaunt her youth and beauty. She put on a robe and addressed Vala directly. She was no more that 22 years old, but she carried her self like royalty.
-Kalia: You are aware that your presence here has brought a great deal of trouble to the LA?
-Vala: Yes. I do regret that.
-Kalia: Treg Farrenz is insisting that you be returned and stand trial for your crime.
-Vala: A crime for which I have already stood trial for and won my freedom.
-Kalia: So you say.
-Vala: That's the truth.
-Kalia: My father and I are willing to stand by you for now. You have been a great asset to the LA. And we believe that we at least owe you the opportunity to defend yourself. For now, you will remain with us, under our protection. Cam Mitchell has committed to stand by my side and help us fend off any backlash that we might receive for assisting you. Don't make us regret this decision.
-Vala: Of course.
-Kalia: Dogar, please inform my father that the final decision has been made. We will address Treg Forrenz and try to keep some sense of peace between our groups. You're dismissed.
She turned her attention back to Cam. She could tell he was angry, though he tried to keep calm.
-Cam: what was that about?
-Kalia: I'm sorry, but we have to move quickly on this. Forrenz's people won't tolerate us keeping him much longer. Please don't be angry. I'm doing this for you.
-Cam: I know. We must go deal with this.
Things did not go smoothly. Farrenz was furious that Vala would not be turned over to his custody. Masim insisted that if Farrenz wanted a trial it would be held under the supervision of the LA. Farrenz's security team was given back their weapons and his delegation left.
Cam didn't have much time to visit Vala over the next couple of days as she recovered. When she was well enough she insisted that she be escorted to see Masim to personally thank him for helping her. When Cam found out about this he went to see Vala.
-Vala: What are you doing here?
-Cam: I came to find out what you're doing.
-Vala: I'm getting in the game Mitchell.
-Cam: You're gonna get yourself caught or worse.
-Vala: It's already done. I'm going to see Masim today. Now if you'll excuse me, I need to get ready.
-Cam: You don't have to do this. Everything is on track. We're providing valuable information.
-Vala: We need to take them down. It's time to end this. I know you're going to miss your romps with your little girl friend, but this needs to end.
-Cam: Is that what this is about? You're jealous. I'm sorry you had to witness what happened the other day. I was trying to save your life!
-Vala: It must have been so hard for you too. Poor you forced to have sex with that gorgeous young thing. Give me a brick!
-Cam: It's break, and yes it was hard for me. I don't have feelings for her… not like that.
-Vala: Then like what? What feelings do you have for her?
-Cam: She's been forced into this life. She's Masim's daughter. We can get her out of this. She's not like Kiva.
-Vala: Why don't you go help her then, and let me do my job.
-Cam: Fine. Just so long as you know that I only did what I did for you. I would do anything to keep you safe.
He left frustrated and sadden. He didn't want to hurt Vala. She was upset too. She was angry at herself for being jealous, and hurt by the image of Cam with Kalia that she could not get out of her head.
Later that evening Vala did get her opportunity to personally thank Masim. She dressed extra sexy in a black leather ultra mini skirt, thigh high black leather boots and a black leather jacket. Her hair was pulled up in a loose twist allowing soft curls to dangle down.
A guard named Othar escorted Vala to Masim's quarters and walked her in.
-Masson: Vala Mal Duran, you requested to speak with me.
-Vala: I wanted to personally thank you for saving my life, and give you a token of my gratitude.
Vala let down her hair and unzipped the jacket revealing a black bustier. Masson waved for the guard to leave and Vala did what she does best.
Over the next several days Vala managed wrap Masim around her finger. With him distracted by her and Kalia distracted by Cam, things began to slip within the LA. Othar was suspicious of Cam and Vala. Vala managed to convince Masson to demote Othar. Some of the officers became angry at the lack of concern and passé attitude of their leaders. And Forrenz had not let it go that Masim had ignored his demand that Vala be handed over.
Cam managed to get word back to the SGC that things were falling apart among the ranks of the LA. A meeting was called for all the officers of the LA to try to resolve the growing disputes. This was the SGC's opportunity to strike. The strike came with out any warning for the LA. Nobody knew what was going on, and they began to turn on each other not knowing who was to blame for the attack. A massive bomb rocked the building that the leaders were in. Vala and Cam needed to get to the rendezvous point quickly to avoid being injured. As they were leaving Cam turned back.
-Vala: Where are you going?
-Cam: I have to get Kalia. None of this is her fault.
-Vala: What?
-Cam: Just go. I'll meet you there.
He ran back to the building and could here screams from inside. There was gun fire all around him. He made his way through and found Kalia. She was covered with dust and debri crying over her fathers dead body.
-Cam: Kalia we have to go.
-Kalia: I can't leave him. Daddy wake up! Please! Get up!
-Cam: He's gone Kalia. They're coming. We have to go.
She reached out to Cam and he helped her up. They were making their way out of the rubble when Masim's guard Othar stopped them. Cam put his hands up and Kalia hid behind him.
-Othar: You did this!
-Kalia: What are you talking about Othar! He's trying to help us!
-Othar: He brought Stargate Command here to destroy us. He and Vala Mal Duran! They divided us! They brought Forrenz down on us. And now this!
-Kalia: That's not true.
-Cam: Kalia, we did what we had to do. Now I can still get you both out of here unharmed.
-Kalia: No… I don't believe you. I love you, Cam.
-Cam: I never meant to hurt you. I was doing my job, trying to save lives.
-Kalia: This can't be true. We… AHH!
-Cam: Kalia, what's wrong?
He suddenly saw blood appear on her chest. She had been shot in the back by a stray bullet. She collapsed in Cam's arms and he gently laid her on the ground. He tried to stop the bleeding but it was a massive gaping wound. She was fading fast
-Cam: Kalia, hang on stay with me.
She tried to speak but couldn't. And then she was gone. Cam felt an overwhelming sadness come over him. He had really hoped to save her. Othar was enraged. He put his gun to Cam's head.
-Othar: See what you have done! You shall die like the traitorous dog you are!
The next gunshot Cam heard, he had expected to end his life. Instead Othar dropped the gun and he collapsed on the ground. Standing behind him was Vala with her weapon drawn.
-Vala: It's over Cam. Let's go.
He got up and through a hail of bullets and bombs they made their way to the rendezvous point.
XOXOX
Daniel and Aliana Friendship
March 2011
It seemed to Daniel that more and more frequently he was attending a funeral for one of his former professors or a senior colleague. This time the funeral was for Frederick Sinclair a renowned Historian and Archeologist and his wife Anna a former Ballet dancer and Pianist. Professor Sinclair was well known for his documentaries and for being the Producer and head Director of the Montana James feature film series. Daniel had been asked by their adopted daughter Aliana to speak at the memorial service for her father.
Daniel spoke about the words of encouragement given to him by Prof. Sinclair when the rest of his colleagues had turned their back on him. He recalled the day when he announced one of his crazy theories during a lecture amongst his peers and everyone walked out accept for Prof Sinclair.
-Daniel: I remember his final words to me that day, when I was down on my luck and had lost everything, including my pride. He said "Every man has a hope of discovering what their purpose is in this life. Be true to who you are, and seek the truth." He changed my life that day, as he did for many others. His documentaries and his films were his way of encouraging young people every where to learn, and to explore. The world has lost a truly great man. A man that I looked up to and that I was proud to call my friend.
As Daniel spoke he looked down at the sad young woman that was once a quiet and curious little girl. The few times they had met she always had her head in a book. She began attending University at the very young age of 12. Now at the age of 29 she had her Doctorate in Astrophysics, Archaeology, Biology, Fine Arts, and was most recently studying for her master Degree in Sociology. He could tell as she sat by herself, that all her 16 years of intense study had left her completely isolated.
After the funeral Aliana politely greeted the guests as the conveyed their deepest condolences for her loss. Daniel waited to be the last to speak with her. She seemed relieved that the sad ordeal was coming to an end.
-Daniel: Aliana, it's good to see you again. I'm sorry it's under such sad circumstances.
-Aliana: Please, call me Ali. It's a nickname my father gave me.
-Daniel: It suits you.
-Thank you for speaking for my father. He always spoke of you. He believed that one day the world would see you as a brilliant man far ahead of our time.
-Daniel: He said that?
-Aliana: Yes. He was a good friend of Catherine Langford. They both held you in high regards.
-Daniel: Well, that means a great deal to me. I don't mean to keep you waiting. I'm sure that there will be a family gathering.
-Aliana: No. My grandparents have all passed away and my uncle died of a heart attack last year. It's just me.
-Daniel: What about friends…
-Aliana: (trying to smile though what was turning into an awkward conversation) Most of my parents colleagues are leaving Napa Valley and where only here for the service. And um… I'm… (choking back tears) I'm alone.
-Daniel: Let me drive you to your parent's estate.
-Aliana: No, I'm not going back to the estate. It's just too…(starting to cry) I am so sorry. This is very embarrassing. I tried so hard to keep it together, but…
-Daniel: (walking her over to have a seat) You have nothing to apologize for. You just lost both of your parents. You're doing better than I did when I lost mine.
-Aliana: (sniffling) What?
-My parents died in an accident when I was just kid. Then my foster parents died in as well. I guess you could say I've walked in your shoes and I know for me it was some of the most difficult times in my life.
-Aliana: I just don't know how to get through this.
-Daniel: When I lost my parents I was young, so I focused on my studies and work. Then when my wife died, I had my friends by my side.
-Aliana: I have my housemate Elizabeth, but I'm afraid I haven't left any time in my life for making friends. All I have are my parents' old acquaintances and colleagues, like you.
-Daniel: Well, I hope you consider me a friend. Let me take you out to dinner. Where are you staying?
-Aliana: I'm at the Bardessono.
-Daniel: So am I. We can eat there and as is tradition, we will share stories about Frederick and Anna in celebration of their lives.
-Aliana: (smiling) I'd like that. Thank you.
It was the first time he'd seen a genuine smile on her face. She had a single dimple on the top of her cheek that showed clearly when she smiled. For a moment he remember the 10 year old girl that she was the last time he saw her. He was 24 then, and it was a couple of months before he joined the Stargate Program. It was hard to believe that was 17 years ago. They shared a birthday and exchanged cards every year, but he hadn't actually seen her all grown up. Somehow in his mind she had stayed that curious girl all these years.
The restaurant was warm and inviting. Aliana felt as if she had so much to say that she couldn't contain herself. Her parents had been her only confidants her whole life, so this was her first meaningful conversation in weeks. Daniel enjoyed listening to her talk about her studies, teaching at the University, and about how her parents encouraged her.
-Daniel: So how many degrees do you have?
-Aliana: I have 4 Doctorates, so far. I'm still working to acquire my Doctorate in Sociology. And I recently received my medical license.
-Daniel: How many languages do you speak now? Last time I saw you, you spoke 3 languages. Your father said you were up to 5.
Aliana: My father liked to brag about me. I'm still a far cry behind you I'm sure. What languages have you been studying recently?
-Daniel: (not sure how to answer) Oh… well the past few years I've been focusing on, um Ancient languages and other languages that are not spoken on earth… currently.
-Aliana: Sounds fascinating. Maybe after this semester I could look into your research?
-Daniel: Uh, well, you have so much on your plate as it is.
-Aliana: I suppose you're right. It just seems like whatever I'm doing now is not enough any more. I worked so hard to make my parents proud of me. And now that they're gone, I feel a little… lost.
-Daniel: You're going to sort it all out. You'll be ok. And you're not alone. I'll be in touch.
Daniel reached across the table and held her hand. He couldn't help but feel sorry for her. Her life story was as sad and tragic as his was. Frederick had confided in him how the came to adopt Aliana. They found her abandoned as a new born in some ancient ruins in Egypt. She was less than 2 days old and had been left for dead. They had searched for her mother in the neighboring villages but no one would claim the child. The Sinclair worked with the UN and the Egyptian government to adopt her. And now the parents that saved her and had loved her as their own were gone.
After dinner, Daniel escorted Aliana to her suite. He had planned to leave in the morning, but was reconsidering if he should stay an extra day.
-Aliana: Thank you for keeping me company. I can't tell you how much it means to me.
-Daniel: I don't mind at all. I've enjoyed catching up with you. You're not a little girl any more.
-Aliana: No I'm all grown up.
-Daniel: You know I don't have to go back to Colorado right away. If you need someone to keep you company…
-Aliana: Thank you, but I'm headed back to the University in the morning. Life goes on right?
-Daniel: yes it does. But It's ok to take some time to adjust to life's changes.
-Aliana: (looking very serious) Can I ask you something? I understand if it's too personal.
-Daniel: You can ask me anything.
-Aliana: (looking almost afraid to ask) Did you ever have moments when you felt like your parents… abandoned you when they died?
-Daniel: (putting his hand on her shoulder and smiling kindly) Yes. I felt all kinds of things for days… months after my parents died. Sadness, anger, fear, resentment… depression. It's normal.
-Aliana: I'm so afraid of being alone. They were all I had.
-Daniel: You're not alone. (Pulling her into a warm and caring hug) I'll be in touch. And if you need anything, call me.
-Aliana: Thank you.
Aliana felt so comforted by Daniel's kindness. It was the first real hug that she had received. Many acquaintances had given her a quick hug with a shoulder pat, or held her hand. But no one had taken the time to just sit with her and hold her until now.