Ciel stared at his reflection dumbfounded, he could barely breath the longer he continued to stare at himself. This was no doubt the transformation sequence his many books had foretold, he couldn't believe it. He had finally become a full fledged demon.
He couldn't breath, he couldn't think, all he could do was take in his new appearance. His first reaction was to immediately call for Sebastian but he didn't, he couldn't. The elder demon was less than helpful nowadays, barely speaking to him unless absolutely necessary or just avoiding him altogether . Not to mention the fact that Ciel had no idea how Sebastian would react if he found out that his young master had become a full fledged demon. Judging by his butler's prior reaction to him becoming just a fledgling, it would not be good. He would have to figure this out by himself, as he did most things now.
Pulling himself out of his thoughts, he marveled at his new appearance. Short grayish black horns protruded from the sides of his head, resembling upright ears of a cat. His hair had grown longer reaching just under his chin, the ends of his hair were touched with black. His once deep blue eyes glowed with an even brighter scarlet than they ever had before. His fingernails had become like black claws. He also had a long shadow esque tail that he flicked lazily back and forth. But the most breathtaking of all was no doubt, his massive steel blue and black feathered wings that reached to the heels of his feet and the gorgeous marking that kissed his right shoulder and reached down to his left thigh as well as a few small markings that resembled roses around the larger marking, they glittered under the light of the moon, and his wings were as soft as silk. He fancied the way he looked but it was not long lived.
Quickly thoughts flooded back into his mind, he began to feel a sense of unease. How was he going to hide this? Had Sebastian known this would happen? What on earth was he supposed to do now? Why did he look so different? Could Sebastien know that this had already happened? Surely the contract would inform his loyal butler of any changes...but had Ciel becoming a full fledged demon have affected it? How would Sebastian push him away now…?
"He'll...kill me won't he…" Ciel murmured to the night's bitter air, his heart clenched painfully. The young demon already new the answer to that question.
He let his mind wander to the elder demon. He felt the sudden urge to cry, he didn't have any doubt that Sebastian hated him nor did he doubt that if Sebastian had the chance to kill his eternal slave master he would do it without a moment's hesitation. Being a new full fledged demons made him vulnerable at least until he learned how to control his form. It was the perfect chance...
Anger surged replacing his sadness, It wasn't his fault! It was all Alois's doing! So why was Sebastian blaming him? It's not like he wanted to be a damn demon! Sebastian was just pissed because he couldn't get his food! He was the one acting like a child throwing a tantrum! Ciel growled lowly as he felt more anger spark to life, he balled his fists so tight the his knuckles became white and his face flushed with unbridled fury. Had Sebastian not thought at all about the hell he was going though?! That selfish bastard hadn't helped him at all, he had to learn all by himself, he had to deal with fact he was now a demon for all eternity by himself...he had to be terrified and lost by himself!
Without a second though, Ciel smashed the mirror with his small balled fist. Glass pieces flew everywhere projecting in all angles, cutting his face, arms and plunging themselves into his mangled fist. The mirror's metal frame broke and crumbled like brittle bone, the sound of it was almost sicking. It rang out through the clear night loudly, but Ciel couldn't hear it nor could he feel the throbbing of his bleeding hand as it made puddles of crimson one the wooden floors. He could only feel raw emotions of sadness, fury and love. He could hear the sound of his own heart breaking. He loved Sebastian with his wth everything he had but it did nothing to ease the other, his love was not enough.
Perhaps this was why demons buried any type of emotion or want. It was to strong for even them to handle, Ciel looked at himself though the broken pieces of glass that laid on the blood soaked floor, he wanted to smash the glass until they could show no more. He wanted them to stop reflecting his own hurt, insecurity and pain.
"Young master, are you alright? I heard-" Ciel felt ice flow through his veins as a familiar voice ripped him out of his daze, slowly he turned to face his butler. Sebastian's features were frozen, his mouth hung open and his eyes were wide with shock. The candle he had been holding clattered to the floor, snuffing out the flame and its light in the process.
"Leave…"Ciel whispered his voice barely disrupting the thick silence. He turned back to the destroyed fragments of the mirror, the light of his glowing eyes shone brightly in the dark and because of that light he could see in the fragments of the mirror, thick tear pour down his face. "That's an order Sebastian…"