Dear Gamzee,
I am so pale for you it hurts sometimes. I can't believe it took me this long to realize just how much I care about you. I'm really fucking sorry that it took me this long to step up as your moirail, when you were so clearly pale for me. Out of all the people I know, you were probably most in need a moirail, even before the game. I'm a huge, idiotic jack ass, and I'm sorry for that. I'm also sorry for all the times before the game when I was basically a prick. You didn't deserve that.
I'm sorry I couldn't find you in time to stop you. If I had been able to calm you down sooner, and acted like the leader I am, maybe things would be different.
I know you still beat yourself up over what happened, and I know you think you're worthless and that you think you don't deserve anything, but you're an idiot. You deserve a much better moirail than me, you deserve to not be judged and hated and feared by our friends, and you deserve to be happy. You're a really good troll, and a great friend, and the best moirail. I wish you could see that.
Palemates for life,
Karkat
p.s. I feel like a wiggler for using the word 'palemates,' but I know you would like it, so I'm trying to rationalize it to myself.