1st Nightmare: Akakuro
Kuroko awakened to the faint light of dawn brushing through the barrier of his thin curtains in the otherwise dark room. Staring at the ceiling, he expected it to be sunrise which was weird as he normally doesn't wake up this early, especially since he's on summer break right now. He normally doesn't wake up for another few hours.
Tilting his head to scan his organized room, he felt the need for sleep diminish and the want for getting out of bed and stretch grew ever more tempting. Giving in to the latter, Kuroko rose to a sitting position and then got out of his bed. He then proceeded to stretch his arms to get them to be more loose and relaxed.
A few minutes later, Kuroko exited his room to enter the kitchen in order to make breakfast. It was at this point where he finally noticed the lack of his lover's presence. Also rather peculiar in Kuroko's mind was the fact that Akashi wasn't with him in bed when he woke up. Kuroko was aware that Akashi was always the last person to wake up in the morning between the two of them, so of course Akashi would be with him when he woke up. At least that was what Kuroko expected.
But instead, he was greeted to the sight of his lover, wearing a gray button up shirt and black slacks. His heterochromatic eyes were hidden from Kuroko's line of sight, but he could clearly see Akashi adjusting his black tie. To the left of Akashi was a big brown suitcase.
Kuroko was confused. Why did Akashi have a suitcase? And what was he doing awake at this hour? Just as he was about to question the point guard, Kuroko took a step forward but lost his footing and tripped on the slippery kitchen floor, landing on his right knee.
His knee was burning with pain but never the less, Kuroko grasped one hand to his knee as if the pressure could stop the pain. He lifted his gaze and saw Akashi staring at him. His loose tie left unfastened around his neck and his eyes were wide with shock. What surprised Kuroko the most was the fact that he made no attempt to try to help him.
Standing up and wincing with pain, Kuroko spoke, "Akashi-kun. Good morning."
Akashi was silent, his expression unwavering. Kuroko continued, "I'm surprised that Akashi-kun's awake at this hour," Kuroko walked closer to Akashi, now ignoring the pain he felt in his knee when walking.
"Akashi-kun seems to be going somewhere. Where are you going?"
Akashi kept staring at Kuroko. However, those widened heterochromatic orbs that Kuroko loved so much flashed a glare at Kuroko quicker than a snap of a finger. Whether it was a glare of anger, frustration or both Kuroko couldn't tell but nevertheless, he didn't like the look Akashi was giving him.
Kuroko opened his mouth to speak but Akashi quickly pressed his finger against Kuroko's lips, silencing any noise Kuroko wanted to give.
"Your mind is in the right place, when you say that I am leaving, Tetsuya," Akashi lowered his finger. "But where I am going is none of your business."
Kuroko blinked, though his face marked a lack of emotion, his eyes were screaming with confusion.
"What does Akashi-kun mean? I am your lover, of course I have a right to know- "
"Was your lover, Tetsuya," Akashi interrupted with a tone and face cold as ice. He turns his back towards Kuroko and grabs his suitcase with his left hand.
"I am leaving you, Kuroko Tetsuya." Akashi flatly explained.
It was with those words that Kuroko's world shattered. The cage that he kept his emotions in was left loose and his face was painted in splotches of dizzying shock and dejection. What was Akashi talking about? Kuroko could easily remember the two of them eating dinner together just last night. The peace surrounding the two showed no signs of any tension. Akashi's eyes were filled with nothing but love last night that it baffled Kuroko to no end why Akashi was suddenly leaving him off a whim.
Even so, everything that Akashi did for Kuroko, all the love that he gave to him and was given back, why was he just throwing it away? What did Kuroko do to Akashi that was so terrible that he would break up with him with no signs of an explanation?
Thoughts such as these stormed through Kuroko's mind, as his body froze and his sky blue eyes were glued to the sight of his love walking towards the front door. Akashi's back stood tall and proud, almost as if it's mocking the now crippling Kuroko. Kuroko's mind was becoming dizzy with rampant thoughts and desperation but he couldn't move. All Kuroko wanted to do was yell at Akashi to not open that door. He wanted to hold Akashi-kun tightly so he couldn't get away. He wanted to confess his love to Akashi a thousand times in a row if it meant that he wouldn't leave him.
Akashi stopped walking when his foot hit the doorstep, still refusing to look at his ex-lover. That faint but fatal rejection only added to Kuroko's swarming insecurities and he collapsed to his knees due to the sheer heartache and mental exhaustion. He lowered his head to the ground for he couldn't handle looking at Akashi right now.
"…p-please…Akashi-kun," Kuroko whimpered, eyes tearing up and clutching himself for some illusion of support. "D-Don't leave me…"
Akashi failed to respond to Kuroko's plea. For instead, he clutched the doorknob. Again on cue, Kuroko felt the remaining depths of his hold on emotional stablilty fading. All of the sadness, shock, anger, frustration, dejection and fear that Kuroko felt all composed into a single tear that trailed down his cheek at a slow yet quick pace.
Hearing the doorknob click open and the sound of footsteps exiting the apartment, Kuroko faintly heard the sound of Akashi coldly responding to him for one final time.
"Such a waste of my precious time. Farewell, Kuroko Tetsuya."
The cold door of the apartment closed with a loud and terrifying thud.
Kuroko's emotion filled teardrop fell from his chin and landed on the rugged carpeting below, leaving nothing but black, heartbreaking emptiness in its wake.
And black was what not what Kuroko woke up to. Instead, he found himself being stirred from a shaking sensation the sound of someone calling his name in desperation.
Kuroko groaned, turning to his side in an attempt to see who was shaking him. He immediately saw red hair and mismatched eyes staring at Kuroko in an emotion normally foreign in those orbs.
"Akashi-kun…" Kuroko murmured.
Akashi raised his hand to gently stroke Kuroko's cheek. Kuroko blinked in surprise, his mind losing the lethargic feeling of sleep with each second as he continued to look at his lover.
"Tetsuya," Akashi's voice was no higher than a whisper though it still contained that questioning tone that made Kuroko confused.
Kuroko sat up so that he could get a better view of Akashi. Getting a closer look at Akashi's enigmatic expression, he still had no idea what was upsetting his lover. But he had an idea that it had something to do with him.
This caused Kuroko to take the initiative- ask. "Akashi-kun? What is wrong?"
Akashi's face turned somber. "I awoke to you tossing and turning in your sleep, Tetsuya. I found this to be a cause for alarm because I know that Tetsuya doesn't move an inch while he's asleep."
Akashi pressed his hand against Kuroko's cheek once again. Kuroko stared into his lover's now gentle eyes. Wait….Kuroko thought; did Akashi-kun say tossing and turning? He was about to say something but he noticed that Akashi was already beginning to speak.
"Did Tetsuya have a nightmare?" Akashi asked Kuroko while stroking his cheek with his thumb.
Kuroko blinked, trying to think back about what his dream was even about. Struggling through the blurs of his dreams, he vaguely remembered walking into a kitchen or something similar to a kitchen. Focusing even harder, he also remembered a suitcase and that someone was leaving the door with the suitcase in hand. He even remembered that he was feeling some sort of distress over the fact that someone was leaving. Kuroko looked up at Akashi and noticed his red and gold eyes were still watching him with a saddened yet inquisitive look as he was still waiting for Kuroko's answer. Kuroko thought about how Akashi's appearance right now, sad, caring and loving was so much different than the cold, distant, and unloving Akashi that left him in his dream.
…wait...what? Did he just imagine Akashi leaving him? Where did that come from?
And then it all came back to him.
The realization kicked in like a huge tidal wave. Akashi was leaving him. He said that he wasn't important, that he was a waste of time. Why Akashi? Why!?
Kuroko quivered at the flood of memories, the tears started to return with full force, plenty more spilling down than in his nightmare. He couldn't stand the thought of Akashi leaving him; he would never want that, especially without any reason.
Speaking of Akashi, where was he? Kuroko opened his eyes which he didn't realize he closed when he suddenly felt arms wrap around him and that would also pull him closer to his red-headed lover.
"Tetsuya," Akashi paused, sighing and strengthening his grip on Kuroko but still keeping the gentle atmosphere. He continued, "I don't know what your nightmare was about, but if you don't want to talk about it, that's fine. Just know that I'm here, ok? I have no intention of leaving you, especially when you're like this Tetsuya…it breaks my heart seeing you like this." Akashi finished, his voice softening with each word that was spoken.
He needed those words. Kuroko knew it and hearing it with such honesty and love that he could he lost all self-control. Burying his face into Akashi's shoulder he sobbed while tightening his hold on his lover. He let out all of his insecurities, all the fear and relief that Akashi was still there in those tears, all the while Akashi kept his hold on his lover, murmuring words of comfort and rubbing Kuroko's back. It was obvious that neither intended to leave their positions for a while.
It was about a half hour later, Kuroko's sobs died down until it was nothing more than quiet sniffles. It was at this point where Akashi finally broke the heavy silence that fell between the two, minus Kuroko's sobbing.
"Tetsuya," he whispered. Kuroko looked up at him. His eyes were bloodshot from all the crying and there were still stray tears on his cheeks. Akashi wiped them away with his thumb.
"A-Akashi-kun…I had a nightmare," Kuroko stuttered, attempting to conceal a blank face but he wasn't fooling Akashi. His face was still a bit frightened at the thought of it but it was nowhere near how it looked just a half hour prior.
Hearing Kuroko's response, Akashi chuckled. "I noticed," Akashi's light-hearted mood quickly changed back into a serious one. "Do you want to talk about it?"
Kuroko nodded. "..Yes...I like to tell you about it."
Kuroko looked down, not able to meet his lover's gaze. As much as he was a little unsure of what Akashi's reaction would be, he knew it would be for the better to take this off of his shoulders sooner or later.
Kuroko sighed before he spoke, "I-I was in our bedroom and I noticed that you weren't in bed even though it was very early in the morning. I thought that was weird and I decided to go into the kitchen to see where you were," Kuroko paused to take a breath. He refused to look at Akashi's face.
Twiddling his thumbs, he softly continued, "I saw you in the living room. There was a suitcase next to you and I didn't know why. I asked you if you were going somewhere and you said," Kuroko stifled. He could feel the onset of tears wanting to return. It took all of his willpower to prevent them from falling.
"You said, that you were, but that it wasn't my business to know because you w-were l-leaving me..." Kuroko sniffed, still not allowing himself to look at Akashi.
"You started walking towards the door and I begged you not to leave me…." Kuroko whimpered.
"You even said that you being with me was a waste of your time," Kuroko choked out, his body started to quake again with the return or excess tears. The thought of that nightmare was too heart wrenching to bear, even after he confided that it even existed to Akashi.
Kuroko's quaking died off when he felt lips touch the top of his head softly. "Tetsuya, look at me," Akashi whispered. Kuroko looked up without any hesitation. Akashi's mismatched eyes were filled with love and endless adoration towards the other.
"I would never leave you, Tetsuya. From the 1st time that I met you back at Teiko to the time we first kissed and to the present, I knew that you were the one that I would always love. "
Akashi placed his hand on Kuroko's cheek to comfort him. Kuroko leaned against his warm hand as Akashi continued speaking, "The thought of ever leaving you has never crossed my mind. How could I ever leave the shadow to my light?"
Akashi pressed his lips to Kuroko's in a soft, loving chaste kiss. Kuroko closed his eyes, letting tears of joy fall as he wrapped his arms around his lover, not wanting to let go.
When Akashi pulled away, he once more wiped away Kuroko's tears. "You are sweet, kind, and very hard-working. In my eyes, you are perfect, you are my Tetsuya, and always will be. And you know that I am always right."
Kuroko smiled, he was very touched by Akashi's words. He knew that Akashi was sincere when he said he wouldn't leave him; and that was all Kuroko needed to hear.
"Yes, Akashi-kun, you are." Kuroko replied as he gave Akashi one of his rare, angelic smiles.
Akashi nodded in agreement. He laid back down on the king sized bed that the two of them shared and motioned for Kuroko to join him, to which Kuroko did without question. Covering themselves up with the blankets, Akashi and Kuroko entangled their legs together, and held each other close. Sleep began to overtake the two but not before Kuroko, in his comforted state whispered to the sleepy Akashi, "I love you, Akashi-kun."
Akashi smiled and kissed the top of Kuroko's head lovingly.
"I love you too, Kuroko Tetsuya. And I always will."
Author's Note: Chapter 1 done!
This is a new fanfic that I'm planning to have about 20 chapters on; each will have a different nightmare about a different character/couple, and yes, they'll all be oneshots unless I say otherwise. I've wanted to do this for a long time so I'm glad that I got the 1st chapter up.
I'm sorry if Akashi is a little OOC in this chapter. I find it kind of difficult trying to describe him as being a comforting lover when he really isn't like that in the series. Anyways I uploaded this on Kuroko's birthday and since I ship Akakuro, Happy Birthday Kuroko! Here's some Akakuro as a last minute birthday present!
I hope you enjoyed this chapter and look forward to the next one!