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Bella's View

The happiness had overwhelmed me. Over waiting for so many endless months…Edward was finally there. My friends slowly had began to re-approach me seeing my brighter mood. I just about cried at that.

I had been waiting so long for him- hour after hour- and that when I saw him (which was just about all the time now) I just about cried with happiness. It seemed to unreal. Especially the part where I had figured out that he loved me.

I didn't know how all of this would turn out, but only hoped for the best. With him there, I never listened to my own thoughts. And he was here. Now he was always here.

I giggled in relief as I felt his hand rub against my shoulder.

"What are you laughing about?" Edward asked me.

"Nothing," I replied curtly.

"It has to be something," he continued. "You always seem to be doing just that."

"I'm just happy you're here is all," I told him. And it was true, I was happy.

"Bella I love you," he said. "You know that's true, right?"

"Right," I told him.

"And I would never leave you."

Perhaps.

"Right," I told him.

"Then marry me already," he said handing me a dandelion from the field.

"Edward," I groaned, "We've already been over this. To be getting married this early is a waste. Isn't it enough that I want to die and spend the rest of my life with you, without you having to be obsessed with this whole marriage ordeal which I take absolutely no interest whatsoever in- now at least."

"But," he fought after wincing slightly by my words, "when we came here the first time you were the one who suggested marriage first. And I said no- but now you've already convinced my Carlisle and everyone else- excluding me of course- that you should be changed. And now I don't have the problem of breaking your head anymore by mistake- yet."

"My words were, if I remember correctly," I told him, "'that maybe we…someday'. Someday being the key word there Edward. Why do you keep bringing this up?"

He was silent for a moment. A long moment.

"What?"

"Nothing," he told me. I turned around to face him.

"Tell me," I ordered.

"Nothing," he repeated.

"You lie to me and I'll…" I hesitated, not sure of what to say that would truly threaten him.

"You'll what?" he said, smiling with a bemused look hidden deep in his eyes.

"Tell Emmet," I pronounced.

He laughed.

"Fine," he said hesitantly. "If you really want to know then you'll have to accept my proposal."

"You're impossible," I groaned. "Okay. I will then. Now tell me."

"What?" he asked, flabbergasted. "Are you finally giving in."

"Sure. I will in ten years. But you have to tell me now."

"I should tell you in ten years then?" he asked, smiling crookedly. I turned my head to the side to stop from gasping right there.

"Just tell me now Edward or I'll get Emmet to hit you, which you know he probably might do for me." And that was true, Emmet was acting like even more of a big brother to me now that he was actually going to be my big brother or whatever, in reality.

"Okay fine then. But I'm taking your word for ten years at absolute maximum. What I was thinking was that what would your Mom think, after all since your so concerned with what she's going to think of two supposed eighteen years olds getting married, then them living together for ten years. Think of what Charlie would say to that, after all how much he's opposed to anything besides more than holding hands- and going on the occasional date. I never did tell you what he sometimes thought at the fact of you having sleep overs with Alice, did I?"

"Ohmigod Edward," I exclaimed, my eyes widening in shock, "Your totally right. We should get married then, before my graduation. And I knew the last part anyway. He always did ask what I did at Alice's house. But I'm serious…" I trailed off.

"I had a feeling I shouldn't have brought that up," he grimaced. "Bella- you really should wait just a bit longer to change. You have no idea what your giving up. I know what you make think Bella, but you'll regret this someday. Rosalie regrets this more than you'll ever know. Same with Emmet sometimes. I'm not worth it Bella," he whispered.

I turned to face him. His eyes were one of the softest shades of golden I had seen in a bit. "You're worth it enough that I would jump off a cliff, nearly drowning myself if Jacob-" he winced at the word-"hadn't have saved me- just to hear your voice," I pointed out.

"Which your going to swear to me that you'll never do again."

"Only if you swear to me that you'll never lie again- to me anyway," I replied.

"Bella- if you're ready to spend the rest of your life with me, you better get used to me lying. Isn't that what marriages revolve around?"

"Fine. Then when your hunting I'll go the cliff again- by myself- without Jacob or any possible rescuer there. Happy?" I glared at him when he laughed. "Which brings me to my next point," I continued, "I guess your right and since graduation is only about a few weeks away we can get married now. And you can go get your car and I can be living with you within three days."

"Seven," he pointed out. "I'm going hunting soon."

At his words, I didn't let me relief show.

"Whatever," I said. "You just came back a few days ago- but I do guess you need to prepare and so I'll let that go for now. And where do you want to get married?"

"Scotland?"

"Ha ha," I replied.

"But that was the first Gretna Green- or first place you could get married without any legal contract bindings. Besides, where else could I go?"

"You want to get married at midnight then- at Vegas?"

"Bella," he started, "don't you want a big wedding or something? Isn't that what most girls want? Isn't that what they plan out from when they're three?"

"I think your forgetting I'm not like most girls-"

"Thankfully," he cut in.

"Yeah okay. And my Mom ran away from Charlie, so soon after they were married- I saw how Charlie was like for those so many years. He still refuses to date, and my Mom started dating again not so long ago- and got remarried. And divorced parent's kids by the way never rush for a marriage," I babbled. "So I'm not planning for that of all things. I am planning however for-"

I stopped then. He had started laughing. And it was hurting my ears.

"Continue," he chuckled.

"Shut up."

"Okay." And then he immediately stopped. I couldn't help rolling me eyes. I didn't want to let him know however that even his grave impression- simply by looking at him gave me flutters in my stomach.

"We can get married then. Las Vegas will do just fine. I just have to make sure that Charlie trusts me enough- thank God he trusted me enough to not check up every twenty five minutes from work. Which we are just fortunate for," I said, plucking the petal things of the dandelion slowly. "because he had work."

"And you ditched school."

"I don't think you even need to graduate to enter Community College Edward. And so I don't care."

"Go to Washington University then," he said. "It's a great school. You know I could make it to Seattle and back within an hour."

"You know," I said, "when we get married-" I noticed he smiled at the word- "you're going to have to start driving slower. Now I'll be able to smack you as well- as you pointed out how lying was the basis of a relationship- and for the lady it's the hitting. All righty?"

His response was that he just laughed. I'd smack him there- but I knew it wouldn't even cause him swat an eye- and would just make him laugh even harder.

"Bella, you know in about 2 hours I'm going to start my weekend. And we should probably get you home by now."

"Okay," I said, and then smiled at him. "But we're doing that running thing again."

"You want to run?" he asked, grinning in response.

"No. You run. I create a burden on your back."

He laughed. And before I knew it, I was on his back, and within moments at my truck. And then before I knew it, I was home. Apparently not thinking gives people some time.

"Hurry," I lied to him as he was about to leave.

"Will do," he replied, his voice slightly suspicious. I was starting to turn my brain back on.

He started to turn and walk away- at human pace.

"Wait," I shrieked, running after him. He stopped. "You're my boyfriend, and your leaving and your supposed to kiss me on the front porch," I gasped.

And then I found myself on the front porch, with him smiling his crooked smile at me. And then he kissed me. And being the good girl I was, I stood still for about a whole entire second or two. And in the five seconds that passed that, he had pulled away.

"Bella," he warned, teasingly. "Wait a week. Love you." And then he was really gone.

And then I turned the knob and went inside. Charlie, I knew, wouldn't be home for about one more hour. Edward, I knew was gone. And I was relieved.

And that's when I let it take over me.

Everything I had kept inside.

Hadn't let him, nor for that matter- anyone see.

There was only so much I could handle- and this was way beyond my reach.

That very second I fell down against the door, sobbing effortlessly. I was pulling my hair, restless, trying to control my screaming. There was not much I could live up to. This happiness was new to me, this sudden fulfillment of something I had always thought I wanted. To be with Romeo or Darcy were only dreams with no means to become reality. This however, was very much a dream, with every mean to become reality.

It was what I always thought I wanted, but now that I had it- it was taking over me.

I was too happy, and I was sad. I was sad for all that life had given me and I hadn't made much of it. Sad that I would have to leave my family behind, even though I knew it had to be done. The tears that came only made me want to hit myself repeatedly, for this was stupid; I was acting stupid.

But this was what I had been waiting for. Those few days when Edward was gone, and I could truly realize god knows what. All I knew was that I needed to cry.

After so many months of him gone, this was too much. After avoiding everything that reminded me of him, even remotely, it had torn me up. It had been hard enough to create a façade to hide behind when I came to Forks. I could not just forget the crying I had done in the early days when I got here. That was crying because I was pretty much miserable in an awful looking town, and now it was crying because I was happy. Because life had given me far more than I had ever deserved, ever earned up to.

After month after month after month, I had still screamed and threw fits after he left me. And then I was at a moot point, doing stunts that reminded me of his name. And finally recovering, with Jake at my side.

It was good he had almost forgiven me. Almost being the key word.

I knew that this should have made a bit happier, but it just made me cry harder. I was leaving so much behind, for something even more. Edward was all in my life that was worth anything now. And always would be.

I didn't think I was ready though, for the happiness at least.

And that was the thing, I was happy- and that's what the tears were for.

Edward though, who I didn't know at the time was watching- thought differently. He thought those were tears of disgust towards him. He had misinterpreted, and had believed I didn't want him anymore. I didn't know he was going to leave. Again.

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