Disclaimer : Shaman King by Hiroyuki Takei

Author: I'm sorry for Incest-hater. Individually... I don't accept incest in real life, only on story.

It's like we like battle and murder story, but not in real life right?

Last but not least, Please read...any comments accepted included debat, except flaming and spaming

I tried my best to achieve my goal, my only goal. Became a Shaman King.

I trained all day and night and after everything that I've been through, I failed.

I didn't hate Yoh Asakura for getting in my way.

I just sad.

Because my only hope had shattered into pieces.

The only way to realize my impossible dream.

A dream that someone shouldn't have.

A dream that BROTHER shouldn't even think in the first place.

A dream that could bring disaster to me…to us…

I wanted my sister….exceed of sibling love among us…not in sisterly way that she used to be show to me.

Only me and my sister in my little world.

Beyond all disguise thought of other people.

If I could possess The Great Spirit.

If I could make it comes true….

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China, Tao's Resident

"Ren-sama……."

I woke up from my imagination. I was sitting on my only chair in my room.

Bason stood up beside me and looked me in his worried eyes.

"Bason, can you stay away from me for a little while? I'm sorry.I need a rest," I said clearly.

"Pardon me, my master…" he disappeared.

I sighed.

It's been four years since that…A dream that we could't fulfil would left as a dream.

I repeated it in my mind.

For now, I tried to overcome my feeling for her. My sole reason why I tried so hard back then. Together and forever with my dear older sister, Jun Tao.

I didn't know how this feeling can grow up in the first place.

She's caring sister that always support me. Keep me sane in this family. At least, that was I thought.

She's 20 years old right and several days ahead, she'll celebrate her 21'st birthday. Still beautiful…no... more beautiful that any man couldn't resist for.

The door opened.

My heart's beating fast.

It's her.

"Nee-san…."

She stood beautifully in her red Chinese kimono. RED.

My heart's pulsating even faster. It's not natural for her wearing red kimono…unless…

"Nee-san, what the….?"

Jun walked until she was only a step ahead in front of me.

"I will engage with our parent choice, my dear brother," she hugged me. "Today I'm trying my kimono for the party, how do you think?" she smiled.

I froze.

I wished I didn't hear that

Only four years since I've failed to be a shaman king and now you wanted to punish me, Sister?!

I couldn't accept that.

My inside started to bowl.

Without thinking twice I grabbed her waist and kissed her lips.

She tried to flinch but I didn't let her go. Conversely I deepened my kiss, made her difficult to breath. I kissed her passionately as if there's no tomorrow.

I forced her to the other side of the wall until her back lies against the wall. I pinned her arms with my right hand and spoke slowly, "I hate you…" my eyes burned with tears.

I hate you because you made me love you…

Confused with my lowly acts and tears, she could do nothing but slap me then run outside my room. She cried.

I could see how bad she hurt because of me. As the man that I swore to Great Spirit, loves her more than anything in this world, I simply do nothing.

I didn't have hands that make her warm or voice that comfort her.

The only thing I've learned was destroying or killing…now I've crushed my only happiness, my precious treasure that I have left.

I realized, I just member of Tao Family after all.

I cursed my self for not being a shaman king…for being her little brother.

My used to be forgotten feeling is coming back to my mind...