Disclaimer:I do not own naruto or any of its characters
(oh how I wished if I did sakura would be way strong!! Hehe…little hint there)
Ch. One:hearts wants awakended
The wind blew fiercly as if to match with my mood I shuddered as a crisp gust of wind flew past chilling me to what seemed like the bone, my eyes felt scratchy and I felt as if I could no longer cry. When I felt a presence behind me I turned shocked to see the hokage tsunade I spoke minding my manners but my vioce was sad I hoped she missed it as I focused on not stumbling "lady hokage". I bowed slowly trying to remain respectful even agianst my deepressing feelings, lady tsunade spoke her vioce strong and kind "do you wish to be strong" I gaped at her my jaw dropped. Tears welled up in my eyes but I blinked them back 'I would not cry not infront of the hokage', she stood there tapping her foot for awhile as if irritated before speaking her vioce stronger now "I said to do you wish to be strong". What she meant hit me quickly and I tried but failed uterbly to keep the pain from my vioce "I fear that is a lost cause my lady" "truly that saddens me I was rather hoping to take an apprentice this year". My eye's grew in shock and my vioce quivered "do you mean" "I mean nothing now answer me child DO YOU WISH TO BE STRONG!" . The tears fell cascading down my cheeks now "yes….yes" "why do you wish to be strong" I didn't know the response to that answer it should be clear I knew but she merely smirked "child I shall ask you this again in a week you must tell me then why you wish to be strong or remain week forever". Her words hung in the air as she left 'I heard the hokage was a drunk and rather rude woman….surely those were just rumors' I shook my head ignoring that playing the scene in my head over and over again as I walked toward my home the pain of both sauske and naruto leaving me forgotten for now.
I awoke to a bang on my door without thinking I smilled about to inform naruto to shut up when the pain hit me 'naruto isnt in konoha anymore…he left like sauske' I bit my lip refusing to break down as I yelled at the person on the other side of the door "who is it" "tenten…open up sakura I was wondering if you would train with me" I sighed inward 'she always wins she's way stronger then me'. I opened the door and put on the fake smile I had had plastered on my face since the boys 'being sauske and naruto' left, she seemed to notice and frowned slightly something that did not go well on her usually cheerful dispotsition. I motioned for her to sit "all just be a few minutes" I grabbed some cloths and ran into the bathroom shutting the door tightly behind me, I allowed one tear to stream down my face before taking the fastest shower ever and changing into my workout cloths which where the same cloths I wore everyday just a different pair. I brushed through my hair frowning at my appearance 'I hadnt done much upkeep since the boys left all I did was cry…my once short hair came down past my ears a bit but no longer shined as it once had….my cloths had fadded since I stopped taking time to properly treat them instead I threw them into the washer and drier not thinking twice about there tag's'.
It had been five mounths since naruto left and only abit more since sauske left and since then I had truly let myself go, I secluded myself into my room refusing to eat, talk, basically live for two mounths before ino finnally got me to a some what normal rutine. I had turned 13 nearly a week ago yet the birthday was not joyous I faked a smile a bit better then the one I faked usually though everyone knew the pain behind my mask. I tried to seem strong but even I knew what everyone thought and it was true 'I was the weekest of us the one that always had to be rescued…a burdan' I hated myself for it but no matter how hard I fought the others seemed so much stronger I had given up last night when lady tsunade found me, now the want was there again but the want was held stronger by the urge to first discover why I wished to be strong something I had no idea about other then it was what my heart wanted.
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I will make the chapters longer im just playing with the idea and plan on continuing if I get enough reviews so if you liked it so far plz review this is my first so I really want to know what you all think…what you really think… lol