Why I live
Everything went black again but this time it was for real. I forced my eyes to open again and I could see the ground getting closer and I wanted to move, to protect me from the impact of the ground but I froze. Every second felt like a year, a year in pain. I wanted everything to end.
Finally I hit the ground. I didn't felt the pain of the cut anymore, slowly everything became black again.
With darkness all around me, I thought it was over, that everything was finally over. But then a little bright light lighted up, it started to change in something humanlike, but it had winks. Could it been an angel? Perhaps.
The being came to me and looked to my harmed body, he saw the cuts on my wrist and sighed. He kneeled next to me.
"You know if you keep doing that you might actually die" he said on a sad tone.
I tried to move but to my surprise I clouded move. I wanted to ask this angel why I wasn't death but I clouded not even move my lips.
He came closer to me end looked me straight in the eye. "Why do you do this" he said while he lifted my arm slightly. "does your life hurt that much?" he sighed.
"you know, you're not only hurting yourself by this, there are people out there that love you and care for you, and is this how you thank them?" another sight escape from the angels lips before he continued.
"this is your last chance to become happy again. I know it'd hard for you and I know what happened to you,.."
"But if you kill yourself, you 'll do the same thing they done to. You 'll abandon the once how need you as well. Do you think your little sister can live with that?"
"You know she needs you now, She needs you to be the parents she lost, that parents you lost."
"If you end this now your little sister will be left abandoned, there is no one to care for her. So please stop doing this and try to help not only yourself but your little sister and everyone that care for you."
He stood up and walk away. I wanted to scream, I wanted him to stay, to help me, to help rescue my little sister from a life full of pain and loneliness. I don't want to her to life such a life. I wanted to life again, to protect her from such a life, to make sure she becomes happy again.
He looked at me once more. "I know you can do it, you just need to try that's all". He smiled and then vanished. Suddenly the black around me started to light up again. I could feel something pressing on my stomach. It was moving. I wanted to see what it was, I opened my eyes from witch I didn't know that they were closed.
Then I saw it. My little sister crying over me cover in blood. My blood. I tried to move my arm to comforted her, but then I felt the pain ,the pain I coursed myself. I bit trough it and grabbed my sister's hand. She looked at me with shocked eyes but then she smiled. "you not death." She said happy and then she hugged me and from that moment I knew I was never going to hurt her and myself again.