How could Edward leave me all alone? I miss him so much, but apparently he doesn't care. If he did care he wouldn't leave me all alone in this world without his protection. At least I have Jacob to help me get through this; I feel bad about using just to make me feel better. Maybe I'll even learn to love Jacob and we'll live together forever and ever, but a life without Edward seems lonely and boring. What am I saying to myself? I don't need Edward if he doesn't need me. I love Jacob, he's my heart and soul. I'm doing it again…I love Jacob, but more like a brotherly love. I need Edward to come and wake me up from this terrible nightmare!!!