A/N:

Okay, primarily, this is my first EVER fan fiction and I would very much appreciate positive feedback, but also constructive criticism, please. Suggestions and additions to my chapters will be taken. Now, I get writers block VERY badly sometimes so it could be days, maybe even weeks, at a time before I actually post ANY chapters. I apologize for any discomfort at this and I realize that maybe I should think things through before I write, and I do, trust me, but I have difficulty with it.

I do not own any characters in this fan fiction. They completely belong to Stephenie Meyer. I simply bend them to my will.

This is a Blackwater fan fiction. I became a hard-core Jacob/Leah shipper after a fan fiction that I read called Fatal Imprint. It was a one shot that brought me to tears. I was definitely not expecting the ending, but it also got me to wondering…what would have happened if Bella had died…and there was no Renesmee? What would happen to Jacob and Leah…would they heal from their lost loves or would they continue in pain and suffering alone? So I decided to try something…get my brain working and try this.

Chapter 1: It's Just Our Time

Leah's POV

Jacob was still in the bloodsuckers'—he had been for the past two days. Seth was in there too, so I was left outside in the almost twilight to watch the house as my pack hung with the leeches. I was somewhat disgusted at this point to call them my pack, to be honest. However, as much as I hated the Cullen's, I hated being a part of Sam's pack and remembering what he'd put me through more. My first true love and my best cousin…they'd left me for each other and all I could do was sit back and have my heart broken.

It wasn't Sam's fault…I knew that, nor was it Emily's but…as much as I told myself that, I couldn't stop thinking that I'd been betrayed. Imprinting (damn the name itself) was involuntary, not something that our kind could stop, but…I feel like Sam should have tried. Tried to keep himself from falling for my cousin. I felt somewhat responsible…and so it was my fault. I had brought them together. If I'd never told Emily that she could meet Sam, he never would have fallen for her. My fault. My entire fault…

I remember the day that Sam told me he was leaving me for Emily…I couldn't understand why and I could not stop screaming. I was not always hard and cynical; I was made that way when he left me. It started that day. I remember yelling…a lot of yelling. My voice was absent for almost a week after that. He apologized repeatedly and all I did was make sarcastic comments about how I did not believe him…

A large tear rolled down over my snout, but I snorted and shook it away. Tears weren't my thing. I tried to keep from crying as much as I possibly could. If people saw weakness in me, they would attack me for it for the rest of my extended life. I don't like sympathy, especially now. I was the she-wolf…good for nothing else. A genetic dead end and we all knew it; whether either of my packs wanted to admit it…I wasn't meant to be.

I heard a deafening scream from the bloodsuckers' home, breaking me from my reverie, and I bolted for it as fast as I could. I jumped onto their porch and looked up through the window, still in wolf form staring in at the macabre scene that was taking place. Bella's hand was being held by Rosalie who looked so scared she might piss herself is she could, Edward was frantic in his actions as he pulled up Bella in his arms and flew her upstairs. Rose followed as quickly as she could and Jacob immediately after her.

The ba—spawn, I thought. I had been so caught up in the bloody terror that I had just witnessed that I had almost called the demon spawn an actual baby.

Seth was staring open-mouthed at the spilt blood on the couch. That must've been the blood that Bella had been drinking. I wondered why it had been spilt. I reached a paw up and tapped the glass once gently to keep from breaking it. Seth looked slowly over at me, his whole frame shaking in fear. His face fell into an expression of quiet recognition, trying to hide his fear, I assumed. He stood up and came to the door, his body still quivering. I made a familiar motion for him to phase.

The air made a shimmering effect as he went from a tall, lanky boy to a horse like wolf.

What the hell happened?! I exclaimed, gesturing with my head to the house.

Bella…the baby is coming….Her placenta…it detached when she reached for the cup of blood that she dropped…she reached too quickly and…all you could hear was a rip and…then she was screaming. Leah, it was the most frightening then in the world, he panted out. Even his thoughts were slow.

The spawn is coming. Now? I asked in a flat voice

He nodded, unable to form coherent words in his thoughts.

Shit…I muttered.

Leah, do you think you could stop worrying about you for one minute and think about the people around you? Do you realize that if Bella dies in this process, Jacob is going to have to kill Edward? They made a promise to each other, Lee. If Bella's heart stops beating, Edward is gone and so is Jacob.

Jacob would…do that. He would kill himself over something as insignificant as Bella Swan. Of course, I knew he loved her; she was, to him, almost what Emily was to Sam. Of course, the level of adoration was nothing close to that. I wanted to cry again…Jacob could not leave. He said he would stay with me. He promised.

If he ends up having to kill Edward, after all they've been through together, I doubt he's going to keep that promise, Lee, Seth interjected.

No, was my only thought.

I brought myself back to human form and slid on my t-shirt and shorts, taking the string that I used to keep them around my left arm, and tied my hair up. Seth phased back, too and pulled on some cut-off shorts.

"Seth…he can't leave us," I murmured.

"That's what he'll do if Bella died, Leah. There's nothing we can do about it."

Maybe not you, but I very much plan to hold him to that promise, damn it, I thought, glad Seth couldn't hear my thoughts. You can guarantee that Leah Clearwater does not give in so easily to bull crap like this. I sighed and shook my head to keep up the pretense. "I hope she makes it then."

Seth was not listening to me, though…he was focusing on something much more important to him. A heartbeat was stuttering to a stop. Each beat, fumbling over itself as it finally stopped.

We were silent.

"What are you waiting for?!" we heard Jacob scream.

Bella's heart gave an unwilling beat. Jacob was trying to save her; doing compressions. We heard no reply from Edward…all silent.

"The baby!" Rosalie exclaimed. Now I saw what Jacob had meant about the blond being so superficial of Bella's illness. She did not care. She was in it for the kid.

"Is dead! Try to get Bella back, damn it!" Jacob shouted, still doing compressions.

"Get the venom! Alice?" Edward murmured.

"NO! SHE CANNOT LEAVE! SHE PROMISED ME!" Jacob was falling over in hysterics; we heard his large body hit the floor. "No," he sobbed out.

Edward obviously took Jake's place. I heard soft flesh tearing…and knew it was a lost cause. Bella was gone. "Alice, will she be okay?!" Edward demanded.

I heard another person entered the room. "I'm sorry, Edward…she's gone." Alice sounded like she had been crying as well.

"NO!" Edward roared. "NO! BELLA COME BACK, PLEASE!" Edward was crying tearless sobs that I could hardly distinguish from Jacob's. Both of them were screaming out her name and Alice was crying softly, too. I even heard Rosalie sniffle a little.

Therefore, this was it. We were going to lose our pack over this. Jacob would be gone and I would be forced to go back to Sam. To face the pain of losing an Alpha and a true love. I may as well just kill myself along with Edward and Jacob.

Seth busted into sobs and I brought him into my arms, letting a few tears escape as I breathed in his familiar, homely scent. So much loss, and how could life be considered "worth it" after this? How did Fate think it was funny to mess with us in such a screwed up way?!

"She's gone. He is gone. They're all gone, Leah!" Seth sobbed into my shoulder.

"I know, baby. I know, I'm so sorry," I choked out.

YOU THINK THIS IS FUNNY TO TOY WITH US THIS WAY? YOU THINK IT IS OKAY? YOU HAVE MESSED UP ENOUGH LIVES, JUST GO TO HELL! I thought at whoever was making this happen. I had to admit…I was even going to miss Bella a little… I cried harder.

"Jacob," we heard Edward mutter in a hard voice. We quieted our sobs to listen. Edward was going to ask now. He was going to make Jake kill him.

"Edward, no! NO! I won't do it!" Jacob yelled.

"You promised," Edward growled.

"I'm breaking that promise!" Jacob whimpered. "Edward, you can't leave me, too. Please, Edward. Please."

"Jacob Black, do it now," he demanded, his voice pure fury.

"NO! Go to those damned Italian killers Edward, I won't do it!"

Edward moaned out a sob and Jacob whispered. "Edward…we can make it together, man…please. Don't do this. Bella would have wanted you to…"

"DO NOT SAY HER NAME. DO NOT EVER!" Edward yelled at the top of his lungs.

Jacob had obviously touched Edward in some way because you could hear a smack as Jake groaned, but he obviously didn't let go. "Edward, it's okay," he soothed. "Please, man. You're the only thing I'm going to have left of her. And more than that…I would miss you, Edward. Please."

Edward was struggling. "Let me, go, Jacob…" And he sobbed one more time before falling under and giving in. You could hear muffled sobs so I assumed that Jacob was hugging him.

I ran inside and up the stair. It was spontaneous, but I did it anyway. I could feel Seth following me. I ran into the room I thought I'd heard the sobs from and looked in the middle of the room. A large spotlight pointed out Bella's torn, mangled body that was bent in weird shapes. Alice was angled over her, sobbing over her lost sister. Rosalie was in the corner, half-glaring, and half-sobbing at Bella's body. Jacob was a few feet from her with Edward in his arms protectively. Had I been feeling like my normal self, I would have thought to call them both gay.

"Jacob, Edward," I murmured, walking to them. They both looked and I let out a tear to let them know that I was so…so sorry. I walked to them and enveloped them both into a hug and they hugged back. Seth got it and so did Alice…even Rosalie. We all cried together…well the ones that COULD cry, cried and the others made sobbing noises. We all murmured "So sorry" to each other, trying to calm.

Alice walked back over to Bella's body. I expected Edward to follow, but he completely ignored the fact that Alice was there.

"Edward," I choked out quietly. I had a hard time saying his name without spite. It felt strange. "Please. You can't kill yourself. You can't let all this go. You have a family and friends that love you…even I would miss you a little. You can't leave," I muttered, truly meaning. Since when did I get all mushy and lovey? I guess I'd done it unconsciously.

Edward looked at me and then pulled me into hug him. I have to admit, the smell was wretched, but it was somewhat comforting. "I'm so sorry," I murmured, kissing his cheek. He flinched and I apologized again.

"I love you, Leah. I love you, Jake. I love you, Seth…" he whispered so quietly, that no human would ever have the chance of hearing if one had been near.

Seth went to hug Edward, sniffling. "I love you, too, man."

Jacob nodded feverently, holding back sobs.

"I'm going to try," Edward whispered again. "I will try to live this out with you guys, but I'll need your help. No leaving me."

We all nodded in agreement. "Of course," we said simultaneously.

"Thank you," Edward sobbed.

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Yeah, so that's how it goes, and I cried while writing this. As much as I really hate Bella, I would hate to see that much pain. I bet you didn't see all the bloodsucker love from Leah, did you? Well, even she feels remorse sometimes! I love this story so much. Reviews are very much appreciated. Thanks.

Terra xxx