PJPrincess: This is really just a prologue, and it has a LOT of my thougts
about love. So, ignore them. This is just like, the basis. I'm hoping I've
reached Rory's mind correctly. Tell me what you think, guys!
-^- Title: True Love Rating: PG/PG13 Summary: Rory's reflecting. She realizes, now, that Tristan was something special that she missed out on. What can she do about it? Read and Review! -^-
It's tiring to think that the only chance I had with someone was lost before I even discovered it was truely there. A year of being annoyed and called a consistent nickname that could only make me feel irritated is now some of the only memories of someone that are the only things left I can cling to. Only memories..
Yes, Tristan and I hadn't exactly hit it off. He was infatuated with me, in love with me, but I was ultimately annoyed with him and in love with Dean at the time. How loosely we use those words now-a-days. "In love" has been perveted and misused to such a thought of real infatuation and lust, which blinds people into believing that their inlove because they get an emotional butterfly in their stomachs when they think of a certain someone. But, no. That wasn't how it was supposed to work.
Love is something special. Something that you don't just base on a flutter in your stomach, or a wave of emotion that passes over you when your hand touches that certain someones, or that rush of bashfulness when look into their eyes. No, that's false emotions. Real love is being able to look into someones eyes and know that as they're looking back into yours, all they can think about is you. True love is knowing that you don't have to be giddy or flirtatious around them. You don't have to be comprimising and try to fit their standards. You're good enough, if not better, the way you are when they first seem to love you.
Now, whether it's their personality that grows on you or their clothing style, it's something that just seems to captivate you. Something that takes you in lets you realize that it really is love, and this person means business. It's not just a thought or idea that someone makes up to pass the time. No, it's something that deserves well thought-out plans and deeply sought out discussions of truthfulness and devotion with that certain someone.
Wait, I'm sorry. I just let off onto a tangent. Back to what my original topic was. Tristan and I hadn't really gotten to know each other in the common way. I would try to ignore him, and he would pester me in ways that could only be deemed as flirtatious and infatuation at the time. But, now I see. He was always there, not because he wanted me to turn to him instantly and just say something profound in why I should love him or not, but merely wanted me to turn to him and tell him that I enjoyed his presence. He would have been happy enough knowing that I loved having him just around me, even if at the time it was meant only for friendship.
But, now? Now that chance is lost. I've lost that chance to tell him that he deserved my attention, and more! Oh, and so much more. Going to Yale has opened my eyes. Guys don't just fall at my feet (not that that was the way it was before) or see me down the hallway and automatically start calling me a nickname like "Mary" or "Virgin Mary" at that. No, it's hard to get a guys attention. Such a prestige school, it seems hard to even gain attention from people I could deem worthy of friendship.
I wish Tristan were here. I wish he were able to come to Yale and I could open my arms wide and he'd run into them and we would never part again. But, how is that possible? He's at Military School, although I think by now he's graduated and gone to another prestige college where he'll meet and torment another "Mary", and for her sake, I hope he wins her affection back, or else she'll be missing out on something truely great. Something that I wish I hadn't ignored.
Just, something.
-^-
PJPrincess: Perhaps, it is possible? Or will something ELSE happen to enlighten this story?! Who knows! (Who Cares?!) What do you people think I should do with this story? This is really only the first chapter/Prologue. Depends on what people think!
JunoTechnoKid: PLEASE REVIEW! She accepts anonymous ones. And she REALLY needs people to review. So, please? ::puppy dog pout::
PJPrincess: ::whack:: You'll scare 'em away!
Out.
-^- Title: True Love Rating: PG/PG13 Summary: Rory's reflecting. She realizes, now, that Tristan was something special that she missed out on. What can she do about it? Read and Review! -^-
It's tiring to think that the only chance I had with someone was lost before I even discovered it was truely there. A year of being annoyed and called a consistent nickname that could only make me feel irritated is now some of the only memories of someone that are the only things left I can cling to. Only memories..
Yes, Tristan and I hadn't exactly hit it off. He was infatuated with me, in love with me, but I was ultimately annoyed with him and in love with Dean at the time. How loosely we use those words now-a-days. "In love" has been perveted and misused to such a thought of real infatuation and lust, which blinds people into believing that their inlove because they get an emotional butterfly in their stomachs when they think of a certain someone. But, no. That wasn't how it was supposed to work.
Love is something special. Something that you don't just base on a flutter in your stomach, or a wave of emotion that passes over you when your hand touches that certain someones, or that rush of bashfulness when look into their eyes. No, that's false emotions. Real love is being able to look into someones eyes and know that as they're looking back into yours, all they can think about is you. True love is knowing that you don't have to be giddy or flirtatious around them. You don't have to be comprimising and try to fit their standards. You're good enough, if not better, the way you are when they first seem to love you.
Now, whether it's their personality that grows on you or their clothing style, it's something that just seems to captivate you. Something that takes you in lets you realize that it really is love, and this person means business. It's not just a thought or idea that someone makes up to pass the time. No, it's something that deserves well thought-out plans and deeply sought out discussions of truthfulness and devotion with that certain someone.
Wait, I'm sorry. I just let off onto a tangent. Back to what my original topic was. Tristan and I hadn't really gotten to know each other in the common way. I would try to ignore him, and he would pester me in ways that could only be deemed as flirtatious and infatuation at the time. But, now I see. He was always there, not because he wanted me to turn to him instantly and just say something profound in why I should love him or not, but merely wanted me to turn to him and tell him that I enjoyed his presence. He would have been happy enough knowing that I loved having him just around me, even if at the time it was meant only for friendship.
But, now? Now that chance is lost. I've lost that chance to tell him that he deserved my attention, and more! Oh, and so much more. Going to Yale has opened my eyes. Guys don't just fall at my feet (not that that was the way it was before) or see me down the hallway and automatically start calling me a nickname like "Mary" or "Virgin Mary" at that. No, it's hard to get a guys attention. Such a prestige school, it seems hard to even gain attention from people I could deem worthy of friendship.
I wish Tristan were here. I wish he were able to come to Yale and I could open my arms wide and he'd run into them and we would never part again. But, how is that possible? He's at Military School, although I think by now he's graduated and gone to another prestige college where he'll meet and torment another "Mary", and for her sake, I hope he wins her affection back, or else she'll be missing out on something truely great. Something that I wish I hadn't ignored.
Just, something.
-^-
PJPrincess: Perhaps, it is possible? Or will something ELSE happen to enlighten this story?! Who knows! (Who Cares?!) What do you people think I should do with this story? This is really only the first chapter/Prologue. Depends on what people think!
JunoTechnoKid: PLEASE REVIEW! She accepts anonymous ones. And she REALLY needs people to review. So, please? ::puppy dog pout::
PJPrincess: ::whack:: You'll scare 'em away!
Out.