That's the third time.
The third time he's asked me why I saved him. But I can't answer because I don't know.
Why?
Why in all the hells did I?
Haku could've killed me. I have a dream, things to live for! But… the possibility of his death doesn't exist for me. He must live. I would give my life for him! Again, why? But I DON'T LIKE NARUTO!
Right? Right? Maybe I love him... Wait WHAT?
No way. No way. Nowaynowaynowaynoway. Because it impossible.
It has to be. But it isn't and I'm lost. Truly, desperately, lost. What now? Where do I go from here? Keep seeing him every single day and die a little inside?
"Sasuke?"
my heart skips a beat.
"Oh. Naruto. Hey." I don't show my emotions. He moves closer and must be tired since he's moving slower.
And I can't help it, I smile.
"Why are you staring out the window?" he says and smiles sheepishly and gets a pinkish tint. I sit back and drink in the feeling of...happiness.
"Dobe…I'm looking at the sea. We'll go home soon and, well, I like the way it looks at night" I say and I know I must have a pinkish tint too. This feels...great. The warmth, the familiarity, the comfort. Like we've done this all out lives.
"Sasuke...Sasuke I don't want to annoy you" a smile "Ok maybe I do but why did you save me?"
I start to answer but I pause. I'm thinking.
"Naruto, I don't know. I couldn't abandon you, I..." Silence. He's looking at me. My body is moving on its own, closer to him. My fingertips are barely on his thigh. I look up in horror, my breath fast and ragged. I'm trying to stop this.
To stay quiet and aloof.
But the words are fighting back and they can't be stopped now. "But also because of this"
I kiss him.
God he tastes good. Everything I've ever wanted is in this moment. He's so warm. My hand is somehow on his.
Wait! This is wrong! It's Naruto, Dammit! In a snap i can control my body. I pull away in absolute terror.
How the hell did we end up on the floor! And he's looking at me in fear.
Fear and shock and confusion. "I'm sorry. I'm really sorry" I babble. Then I bolt.
I've never moved so fast. the wind is slapping my face, my legs are a blur, my heart's pounding in my ear and all I can think is what did I DO? Over and over and over.