Title: Regrets, Memories and Healing.
Author: AntiLupinTonks
Beta: N/A
(A/N: Okay. I am just starting this fic...it just sort of came to me out of no where and I don't really know what will happen since, well...I don't know. But I do know this will end up being a Romance since, well...I LOVE ROMANCE. Anyways...I would really really really appreciate reviews and you guys could give me suggestions on the final pairings. -wink- This is AU and there is no magic. Usually I am not a fan of non-magial Fanfictions but this can't have magic since they would be in Hogwarts and that just screws this up BIG TIME.
Another thing...THIS WILL BE SLASH SO IF YOU DON'T LIKE GUY/GUY RELATIONSHIPS I SUGGEST YOU WALK AWAY NOW. and i'm not even going to tell you not to flame since...i honestly don't care what you think. I'm writing this for me and so you can keep all your negative comments to yourself because I'll just laugh at you while I write the next chapter. Forgive me for spelling mistakes...I don't have a Beta. . )
Edit: I am an American writing a story about people in England. So if I make a mistake on the currancy or if I use a phrase wrong or if I have them eating something that they wouldn't eat in England then please tell me!!! I don't have a Beta yet but if someone wants to be mind then tell me! I only ask that if they want to be my beta they have a pretty good idea about British Culture. Okay okay! I wrote alot for the A/N this time and I promise you that this will be the longest!!
DISCLAIMER: I do not own Harry Potter or any themes connected to Harry Potter...that would be JKR. I do own this plot though. D
NOW...TO THE STORY:
Chapter One:
Air is being pulled into my lungs in steady gasps as I sprint down the deserted street. The only sounds are my beated up sneakers hitting the pavement and the steady hum of my thoughts whirling through my brain.
Will he understand? Does he know that you're doing this for him? So he can have the bit of bread that you need to take from him in order to survive? Will he forgive you for not being there to take the lashings for him when he crys? He needs to be tough. Will he understand that you still love him? Even while he's being taken away to be sold to the men when you're not there to stop them? Of course he will...You're still his brother...his big brother, Sirius. Some big brother you are...leaving him in a whore house while you leave to start your life somewhere else.
I grind my teeth together and make a sharp veer off the main road and into an ally.
He'll forgive me...I'll be back. I think before the shadows engulf my body and carry me away from Regulus and that Whore house and into the unknown.
Sirius Black, age 17 walked into a small and quaint motel and strolled over to the desk. A boy greeted him with warm hazel eyes hidden behind round, wire-framed glasses and messy raven-colored hair.
"How can I help you?" The boy asked and pushed his glasses up onto his nose. His eyes flickered over Sirius' appearance. His Onyx hair tangled slightly and falling in waves to his shoulders. Guarded, grey eyes stared out behind longish black eyelashes that caressed his tanned cheeks. Sirius cleared his throat.
"One room, for one night...please." His voice was deep and slightly gruff and he reached into the pockets of his black jeans and pulled out a smallish black wallet.
James nodded and typed a few things into a computer to his left.
"Name?"
"Sirius Black. Spelled S-i-r-i-u-s, and Black like the color."
James nodded and continued typing, his pale fingers flying over the keys.
"Age?"
"Seventeen."
"Choice of Payment?"
"Cash."
With a final tap, James looked back at the teen in front of him and smiled brightly. "Alright, you can pay when you leave. Thank You." He handed Sirius his key and waved toward the stairs, leading presumedly upstairs.
Sirius forced a small smile at him and walked up the stairs and down the narrow hallway of doors. Checking the doors every few seconds he came to his room. Room # 13. Sirius quickly unlocked the door and stepped in, closing the door with a soft click.
The room was small, but Sirius didn't expect it to be big. It was done out with warm browns and deep blues. A four poster bed took up one side of the room and a small wardrobe was set across from that. Underneath a large window sat a writing desk, stocked with paper, pens and pencils. Sirius toed off his sneakers and stepped toward the bed, enjoying the feel of the warm carpet underneath his bare feet. Sighing he flopped down on the bed and stared at the wall next to him.
Thoughts of his younger brother floated into his concious and he pushed them down forcefully. Now was not the time to think about his brother and how he would soon 'become a man' as the boys used to say. Tomorrow he could do that, but for now, he was too tired.
The next morning Sirius woke up confused. As last nights events slowly came back to him he sighed and rubbed his eyes with the back of his hands. Deciding to get an early breakfast Sirius got out of the warm bed and redressed into his clothes from yesterday. Wrinkling his nose he decided he needed new clothes and was for once glad he stole Hank's money. Running a hand through his hair he jogged down the stairs and walked to the counter. After a few more minutes of taking time to tell James that he would be staying for an undecided amount of time he walked out into the bright street. Squinting he looked to his left and saw a sign that made his heart flutter. Diagon Ally. He had always wanted to go to Diagon Ally when he was a kid but those dreams were crushed when his father sold Regulus and himself to Hank.
Sirius decided that a trip for clothes should be first on his agenda. He looked around for a clothes shop and found one with a sign reading: Madam Malkins. Sirius stepped in and waved back to the friendly lady at the store counter and started browsing the clothes. Sirius knew that black was the color he looked best in, and also for some unknowned reason it kept away unwanted people from engaging him in a conversation so he chose several pairs of black jeans and a few black tee shirts. He also chose a silver shirt with a black dragon on the front, a black blazer and a pair of sturdy black boots. Satisfied he paid, left and headed back to the Motel to change.
After changing into a pair of black jeans, stuffed into his black, mid-calf high boots, and a black tee shirt with his old black leather jacket on top he stepped back into Diagon Ally in search of a place to eat.
As he searched the streets for a small diner or a restaurant of sorts he bumped straight into a warm body. A small 'oof' sounded from the boy as he fell straight onto his butt. Sirius looked down and had to hold in a laugh at the sight of the poor teen. Reaching out a hand, Sirius helped him up.
"Sorry, Mate. Didn't see you there."
"That's...quite alright." The boy was carrying a large stack of books in one arm and his baggy white tee shirt was all wrinkled from the fall. Looking up he caught Sirius' eye and held it. The boy was thin but still had muscle on him. He had sandy blonde hair that fell wispy to the tips of his ears and that fell slightly into his amber eyes. He wasn't short but was shorter than Sirius who had a 6' 2" frame and was petite with slim, girlish hips. Sirius handed him the last book and smiled brightly, revealing rows of pearly white teeth. He looked down at the hand that was still connected with this stranger's and he lifted them up, shaking them both together.
"Sirius Black."
The boy blushed and pulled his small hand away and shook the hair out of his eyes. "Remus Lupin." Sirius winked cheekily and side-stepped so he was standing directly next to this Remus character but facing the opposite direction.
"Well, Mister Lupin...Do you know any good Diners?"
TBC
-deep breath- Done. This chapter was actually very easy to write...and I know it's super duper short but it's just an introduction!! Maybe if your all really good I'll write a long chapter next time...what do you say?? huh? huh? Next chapter you will meet Lily and maybe Peter. I don't know yet!!! Don't hit me!!!! I actually planned on making you just meet James this chapter but while I was adding more to make it longer I just had to put Remmie in there too!! Isn't Remus just adorable? -giggle- Okay...REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW. That is the first and only time I shall yell at you to Review. From now on...I will casually suggest it. XD. Until then...
Anti Lupin/Tonks