Troy,
I don't know how to start this letter. Well I guess saying that started it, but I don't know I am going to be able to tell you this. I should just come out and say it. Here goes.....I like you. I like you a lot. I've tried not to, I've tried not to get the butterflies in my stomach when I see you, but it doesn't work. I'm falling for you. And it scares me. I don't want to allow myself to feel this way for you. I can't. It will cause me too much hurt when I can't see you again, when I'm not able to hear you laughing, see you smiling. I won't allow myself to go through that. I won't be able to handle it. I don't want to be hurt.
I never intended to fall for you. I didn't even like you like that when we became friends, but over the time I began to see the person that you were. Cute, funny, sweet and you were nice to me. I began to fall to you, I couldn't help it. The more I saw you, the more my heart would pine for you, to be able to be in your arms, to fall asleep with you next to me. But it wasn't going to happen. There was no way that I could tell you how I feel. I was too embarrassed, afraid of what you would say. Would you laugh? Would you say no? But what if you said yes? That scared me the most, that you would feel the same way.
I'm sorry I couldn't tell you this to your face and that I had to write in a letter. I don't think I could see your reaction, least with a letter I can just try and avoid you. Like the coward I am. I am just so scared. I have never felt this strongly about a person, and its a shock about how much pain there is just falling for someone. I don't know how you will react to this letter, I'm not sure if I'm ready to find out yet, but I guess I am going to soon. Thanks for being such a great friend Troy, and I hope that this won't ruin the friendship that we have.
Ryan