A/N: WARNING THIS DOES NOT HAVE A HAPPY ENDING.

Everything has frozen. She can't see, she can't hear, she can't think. All there is, is Robin's body hitting the floor.

There's not even any pain. Not at first anyway. And all she can do is try to remember how to breathe. She doesn't remember falling, though she will have a bruise to prove she hit the floor. She doesn't remember Zelena killing Hades. It's all gone. All there is, is the numb realisation that the man she loves is dead. Her Robin. There will be no daring rescue mission to the underworld. No afterlife. He's gone. And she can't save him.

So much for the hero's journey. So much for 'true love' and happy endings.

It is the evil queen who picks her up from the floor. The evil queen who shrugs it off and allows her to walk out of there and survive the funeral. Because she is the one who doesn't care, who thinks death should find them all and that Robin made Regina weak. But Regina doesn't care either. In fact she almost relishes in letting the evil queen take control because it means that she doesn't have to think. She just lets herself be pushed into the back of her own head and mourns.

At first people don't really notice the difference, Regina is still there after all, she just isn't really paying attention to any of the going-ons around her. Everyone just leaves her alone, they let her stay in her crypt and mourn, because they think that's exactly what she needs- time.

'Don't worry,' The Charmings say, 'she'll come round, after all it's not like she's the queen she used to be.' But mourning isn't exactly she's doing. The queen doesn't care much for that and eventually people start to catch on that something isn't quite right. But it's not until she starts throwing Henry out that people begin to worry. People didn't exactly expected her to let the Charmings in, nor the Saviour once Regina found out that Hook had returned. But they all had their hopes pinned on Henry. After all he needed her as much as she needed him.

But the queen wasn't having any of that. She didn't buy their sob story. She just wanted the heroes to pay for Robin's death.

Regina sat in the back of her own head and cried. She knew that people were calling for her, that they were trying to help. She knew that they cared but she didn't. She couldn't. She had lost too much. All she had wanted was her happy ending. She had come so far, so far. She had tried so hard to be a hero and to see the good in people including herself. But in the end it hadn't seemed to matter, it had all come to nothing. So she ignored them all and went back to numbly counting the minutes as they passed as tears slipped silently down her cheeks.

Regina isn't sure how many days into her silent vigil she is when the memories begin. She can't exactly escape them, perhaps if she had hidden somewhere other than inside her own damn head she could have done but here they surround her. They overwhelm her. And it certainly doesn't help any to hear his voice taunting her with declarations of love from the past. She covers her ears and sobs louder, trying in vain to drown out the dead man she loves.

The queen isn't idle in the time she has, as Regina retreats further back into her own head, she prepares for the show down that will finally show the heroes exactly where they can shove their happy endings. Though for the sake of her plans, she learns how to keep up appearances. She joins the Charmings for dinner at Grannies' with their infant, another unnecessary product of true love. She picks Henry up from school and cries with Little John and Roland over the symbolic arrows on Robin's grave. But all the time she is looking inwards, keeping an eye on Regina. Through her tears she is rebuilding her powers and preparing to rip out of all their hearts.

If the villains can't have happy endings even when they try so hard to be the goddamn heroes, then she's going to destroy the happy endings of those lucky enough to have them, right along with her own.

Let them suffer like she has. Let them know death.

Except that suddenly, out of nowhere, there's a new voice in her head, a new presence that has seated itself right next to the sobbing Regina.

'I was a hero for you milady, just as you learnt how to be a hero for me. We both learnt the difference between what was right for us and what was right for everyone. My life was ended by someone who was unable to tell the difference. He had love but he still choose hate. Don't choose the same, don't destroy the lives of others the way mine was.'

The queen leaves her fellow mourners in a tell-tale puff of smoke. She goes back to her crypt and paces. Regina, she hopes has noticed nothing, but this, new development, might start to bring her out of mourning, if she finds out. Just in case, she leaves a false trail for her to find inside their mind and starts throwing memories at her instead.

She was weak the last time she allowed Robin Hood to get inside her head, to make her 'good.' But no matter. She will not make the same mistake again. She is almost ready. She only needs Regina locked away for a few more days and then she will take her vengeance on anyone and everyone who ever touched the people she loved.

'You love these people.'

Not anymore.

'You're letting your anger blind you, your majesty. Look around again. These people love you, they want nothing more than for you to be happy.'

No they don't, otherwise they would have found a way to save Robin, instead of celebrating Hook's return. Or better yet, Snow White would never have ratted out a different love. She could have been a hero from the start. But the people who call themselves as such ruined it for her, so now she plans on returning the favour.

She is almost, almost ready. As much as it pains her, she will have to use Henry as bait. She still loves the boy, that is almost the only thing her and Regina have in common anymore, so she has to keep him safe, but he's also unfortunately very necessary to lure the heroes into her trap. He is the key to bringing the rest of them down.

Regina startles when she feels someone take her hand.

'Regina, look at me.'

He's here. How is that possible? It can't be but right now she isn't sure she cares because he's here. Somehow he has a way to return to her. And he's telling her how much he loves her and she never wants to hear anything else again. She will stay locked inside her head forever if it means being with him.

But that's not what he wants.

'Regina, my love, your friends are in trouble. You need to save them.'

But all she wants is five more minutes with her love, five more minutes to drink him in before he is gone again forever.

'I love you so much.'

'I love you too.'

'I'm so sorry this happened to you. Why didn't you just let me go Robin? You could have had a life with your daughter.'

'Regina, we both know this world needs you far more than I. You are going to save the whole world one day my love, but for now, just start with saving your friends.'

'Robin, I can't, I can't lose you again.'

'My love I'm not going anywhere I will stay right here with you, but Henry is danger too Regina, you need to save them all from yourself. The queen has been allowed out for far too long.'

He's right of course and the truth is like ice water in her veins. In her mourning for the man she loves she has allowed a villain free reign to hurt everyone else she has ever cared about.

Her world is in danger.

She has to go and save it.

'Regina! Regina? Wake up!' 'Regina, please, please don't do this!'

The calls are coming from all around her, they echo and bounce from both outside and within her head. At first she is disoriented but slowly she breaks through the final walls she used to lock herself inside her head. Finally, finally she surfaces and with a rush of horror takes in the carnage of the scene around her.

She stumbles, at last in full control of herself again and the defensive position she was holding falters, the fireball in her hand going out.

It's what is in her other hand that has her heart racing though.

Dust.

As she stares at it, maniacal laughter begins to ring out inside her head.

What has she done?!

The defensive position makes sense as she takes in Henry in a cage behind her and the saviour lying at her feet with blood in her hair. Charming is frozen magically in place next to Henry's cage with a look of horror on his face. He has what looks like guyliner's hook clutched tightly in one hand, though the man himself is crouched beside Emma. Snow is nowhere to be seen, which to Regina seems strange. Until with a jolt of horror she realises where exactly Charming is looking. Not directly at her, no, he's looking straight at her hand.

She was too late.

Please direct all shock and hate filled comments towards the review section, it is well deserved and I apologise, this was supposed to be fluff. I promise that is coming, next up on A One Time Thing Killian and Emma's wedding vows.

Outlaw Queen fluff to follow and I promise Regina will not be killing anyone. Minty xx