I pushed my legs faster, letting Jacob Black disappear behind. I didn't know where I was going and I didn't care. I just kept running, running until I forgot everything; the pain, the bloodsuckers, and most importantly her. I ran until I couldn't see her face in my head, until I couldn't remember that she had chosen the disgusting bloodsuckers over me and that she was choosing to become one of them.
I finally stopped when I reached the Canadian border and took a couple laps from a nearby stream. I could hear Seth asking me when I was coming home. I ignored him; I didn't want to think about going home, heck I didn't want to think at all. I sniffed the air, and caught the scent of a nearby deer. It wasn't a gourmet meal, but it was food and I needed to refuel. I crept quietly through the trees and leapt, the deer didn't even have a chance to react. This was disgusting, I have never eaten a raw animal before, but like I said its food. I let my animal instincts take over and my humanity take a back seat for once. After I refueled on deer, I took off again hearing nothing but my paws hitting the ground.
A few months later…
It has been awhile since I had any contact with Sam and the rest of the pack. Seth keeps bugging me about when I'm going to come home. He keeps mentioning her and how she really misses me. I just ignore him; she chose the bloodsucker over me, she's choosing to become like them. So what if she misses me? I don't care.
I've been letting my wolf instincts take over more so I don't have to think about anything. It feels good not to have to hear the guys in my head constantly and not have to think. I can feel my humanity slipping away slowly. I start thinking about how if I stayed here forever I wouldn't have to think anymore. How I wouldn't have to worry about her and the fact that she was becoming one of them. I knew the only way to do this was to give in to my animal instincts. I hear Sam and the guys start talking to me all at the same time. Begging me to think about what I was considering, to calm down and think it through. Telling me that I had a responsibility and duty to the pack to not give up, that if I surrendered it wouldn't be right. I was tired of having to think, I had thought it through and I was tired of the pain and seeing her face in my head. I shut out the Pack's voices and focused on letting my instincts take over. Before my instincts took over completely, I took one last look at her face. Then I slowly gave into my wolf side and felt Jacob Black slip away… forever.