Prelude
It was funny.
This was what I had wanted right? I wanted the life of freedom, a life that only I could control. I wanted to be myself, leaving all restraint behind, loving whoever I wanted to love with no one to tell me otherwise. I had wanted this…right?
As I looked back to the gleaming gold sunset reflecting off once familiar walls, I felt a sense of dark moods settle over me. I never realized what I really had before it was taken away from me in less than an instant.
Freedom did not taste so sweet anymore.
My eyes stayed fixed on the sunset, realizing the person who I once was also was drawing to a close. I found a dark humor in this.
I had always imagined me leaving with my loved one beside me, whispering sweet reassurances in my ear. I always wanted my love beside me, giving me courage to walk away from everything we had once known. Together, I knew we could have done it.
And now, I was alone. Leaving everything I had once known with no one to murmur comfort to me. No one to help me soldier on with courage to a new life.
I was alone.
I could place the blame on those who had put me through this, but really the only person I could find blame for was myself. I was the reason everything happened the way it did, and it was no one's fault but my own.
Abruptly, I felt a strong link through the Force emerge into my senses. The connection was thick with an unbearable emotional pain and suffering. My eyes overflowed with tears that stung my face. The emotion was quickly renewed with thirst for revenge. My palm gripped my illusory lighsaber hilt, letting adrenaline and vengeance pulsate through my veins.
It took me a moment to comprehend that they were not my own. My love was in terrible pain on a planet far away from my comfort. I cut off the connection, as a single tear leaked from my eye. I could not help my lover this time, no matter how much it hurt me to leave my love behind.
I watched the grand sun gradually descend behind the building that still held my old life. As the last golden-orange ray of light disappeared, I found myself consumed by a new feeling, a new person, a new life.