Na na
Na na na na na
I miss you
Miss you so bad
I don't forget you
Oh, it's so sad
I sat on the forest floor as I watched Edward's disappearing form. It vanished so quickly, yet I stared at the same spot, almost as if he was still walking away; almost as if I could still see him. I needed to pretend he could turn around and come back to me; that hope wasn't lost; that love wasn't destroyed.
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day
I found it won't be the same
I sat there for hours, and eventually, I moved. I curled myself into a ball on the floor and just lay there. Soon, the rain started to fall and I felt it splatter against my skin, but I couldn't make myself cover up. I couldn't move. I couldn't cry. I couldn't scream. I couldn't do anything. I was emotionless. I was empty.
Na na
Na na na na na
I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't
I was never going to see my life again. The love of my life – my entire existence – just told me he didn't love me anymore. He kissed my forehead, said goodbye, and walked away. I knew it would happen. I always knew he was too good for me, but he insisted it was I who was too good for him. He insisted that he loved me. Now he doesn't want me. I guess I believed him so much that I just…just let it go. I didn't think it was possible that he could leave me. I was wrong.
I hope you can hear me
Cause I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day
I found it won't be the same
I sat up on the floor of the forest and blinked my eyes. Realization dawned on me. I loved Edward with every piece of my heart and every bit of my soul, but I was only 18-years-old, and I had to let him go. If he didn't love me, I needed to accept the fact that I would never see him again. My solitude and emptiness would not bring him back. He was gone and he would stay gone. He wanted a normal life for me. I had to do it. I had to try and be normal for him, if anyone. I had to move on for him.
I kept asking myself why he would do it though. He knew how attached I was and he promised he'd never leave me. He told me he'd stay until I wanted him to leave. I never wanted him to leave me and he did anyway.
I've had my wake up
Won't you wake up?
I keep asking why
I can't take it
It wasn't faked
It happened;
You passed by
In a swift movement, I was back on the floor, but this time, I could feel. This time, I cried. This time, I could feel my heart being ripped apart and my chest being opened up like a festering wound. I couldn't let him go. I would never let him go, and he was stupid to think I could. He wasn't coming back. He was never coming back. The tears kept pouring down like rain.
Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere
I can't bring you back
Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere
You're not coming back
My heart shattered into a thousand little pieces that day. I was found on the floor of the forest by the people from the reservation and taken home. I went catatonic and I stayed that way for months. I had lost my life. I had lost my love. I had lost my Edward.
The day you slipped away
Was the day
I found it won't be the same
I never came out of my state. I had heard that Edward wanted me back; that he was sorry, but no matter how much I wanted to believe it, he told me with complete sincerity that he didn't love me, he didn't want me, and I should move on.
The day you slipped away
Was the day
I found it won't be the same
It would never be the same.