Dear Diary,

It's been three weeks since I've been out, and my life is still as dull as yesterday, and the day before that, and the day before that… Mom is on my back about getting out more, and when I brought it up in session today Kester agreed. But what they don't understand is I'm fine, I'm getting better. I got Tixie who I visit just about every day, and I do go to the record store occasionally, sure my life is dull, but it is comfortable.

I could call Chloe, but what good would that do, we weren't the closest of friends before I went in to hospital, and frankly I'm scared what she would say if she found out, I know she'd treat me different, and see me as this fragile pet she would force herself to take care of. We haven't talked in almost 5 months, but I still care what she thinks of me.

Kester says that's my problem, but it's normal to care what other people think. I. AM. NORMAL.

"Oh bollocks even I can't believe that" Rae mumble as she slammed her diary closed.

She let out a long sigh before she jumped up from her desk chair and walk across her room to her mirror she paused for a moment staring at her own refection, before quickly flipping it over so she couldn't give herself a chance to register her reflection.

Rae smiled looking at the other side of the mirror which had a picture of Damon Albarn taped to it.

I mean it is time Damon, I'm going to do it, it's time to get out there and meet real boys

Coaching herself, she was determined as she turned her head to looking over at her phone on the nightstand by the head of her bed.

All I have to do is call Chloe and I don't even have to tell her I could just run with that France thing mums been telling people.

"Nope" Rae mumbled as she fell back on her bed, she couldn't do it.

She reached over her head grabbing a pillow behind her and put it over her face, muting her grumble.

"Rae" her mom called from the hallway

"Yah" she called back muffled from the pillow, hearing her mom enter the room.

"Rae, can you-" her mom heisted "Rae what are you doing?" she asked

"I'm tricking my brain into thinking its night so I'll fall asleep and wake up tomorrow with it being one less day of the world saddest summer"

"Rae stop that," her mom hissed "I was wondering if you were doing anything?" Rae sat up throwing her pillow back behind her.

Rae looked at her "What do you think?"

"No" her mom answered

"Ding Ding Sherlock"

"No need to get snippy young lady, I need you to run down to the shop and get me some red cabbage"

"Now?"

"Yah if it pleases you, now would be nice" she persisted.

"Sure" Rae huffed.

"Perfect, grab some cash from my purse, its in the kitchen, she informed her as she left the room.

She threw on her leather jacket and black converse. She grabbed her book bag before she headed down stairs.

Rae run in the kitchen, getting the the money from her mum's purse.

"See you" Kareim said from the kitchen table causing Rae to jump. She kept forgetting he was here. When he wasn't all over Rae's mum, he just sat around it was sad, and the fact that he knew little to no english didn't help the fact she wasn't putting a effort to get to know him. Rae knew aha ever her mum and Kariem had would be over soon.

"See you Watson" she laughed to herself as she left the kitchen.

The store was only a couple blocks away, so it was a relatively short walking distance, she knew where to go it the store, she made it her mission to get in and out as quickly as possible, and was already heading to the check out. When it happened.

"Sorry" a voice apologized for doing nothing wrong.

"No I was my bad, I had my head down," She laughed as she raised her head apologizing to the stranger she knocked into and just about ran over.

Oh. My. God.

Her eye's just about exploded when the met his. To describe this guy as sex god would be an understatement. She certainly didn't think they made it like him here in Lincolnshire. This guy was the fittest lad she's ever seen, he looked about her age, but she's never seen him before.

"You go before me" he gestured her to go first shaping her out of the trance he unawarely had her under.

She managed to get her feet to work, giggling like an idiot unable to conform if she said thank you or not since her brain has turned to mush, but didn't want to risk saying it twice so she stepped in front of him, nodding her head like a freak.

Pull it together Rae!

She continued to look back at him periodically, and it was clear he was staring at her, and she could now feel the heat traveling up her neck, as her cheeks burned. This was not something she was use to.

He is looking at me. ME. I have no idea why, but I welcome it. Just say something. You can do it. Hi I'm Rae. Say it.

The cashier handed her back her change, and she turned to face him "Well, bye" she choked, she turned back around in horror, grabbing the grocery bag of the counter and slowly headed out the door.

Smooth… really smooth.

"Hey" she turned, and saw the guy running after her "This might sound weird, but do you want to go out sometime?" Rae looked at him then around her to make sure he was actually speaking to her.

"Sorry, I should probably introduce myself first" he held out his hand "I'm Archie" He smiled.

"Hi, Archie" she grabbed hold of his hand "I'm Rae."

Well this definitely wasn't dull