Forgiveness Works Both Ways
Chapter 1:
Memories and Moments
She found herself in the memory which haunted her almost every night since the incident had occurred. Her eyes had burned like fire due to her tears running down her face in rivers. Her throat felt raw and swollen from screaming and feeling the canines puncture her flesh over and over again. The silver long hair she had loved for so many years, now hung like a veil shutting out the world around her. The seemingly sharp, harmless claws that use to gently tickle her into a submission were now digging into her wrists, causing deep crimson streams to flow and cover the snow beneath them.
"Please," she whimpered hoarsely to the figure holding her down, stealing her innocence from her as she cried. "Please stop…"
The boy looked at her smugly, and his eyes were still the blood red they had been merely an hour before. They no longer soothed her in the warmth they had had since they had been children. Now they only showed pure evil and hollowness. His lips were coated heavily in her own blood, and when he smiled at her menacingly, her tears blurred her vision once more.
As she cried, the boy bit her neck once more, but this time, far more fiercely than he had before. She screamed, but nothing came out short but a whisper.
She must have passed out soon after, because the next moment, she had awoken in the forest, all alone. Naked, beaten, bruised, and bleeding everywhere. Especially between her legs and her wrists.
As she looked down her body, she winced. The snow around her was red from all of her blood she had lost. And was deepest around her midsection. Looking to the right and left slowly, her neck throbbed in pain as she discovered only light droplets around her head.
She wanted to let herself die in that moment, and found herself now only glancing at the red large sweater only a few feet away from her. The wind picked put slightly, chilling her skin into numbness sharply. Looking up at the stars as they danced in the sky, she smiled an empty smile up to them.
With her will to live completely gone, she found herself wondering how long it would take before her heart stopped in the frigged cold of January. Her mother had warned her not to go out tonight. Even if her intentions HAD been good. She couldn't help but care for the boy who had done this to her.
All she had wanted to do was help him. And this was what she had gotten in return.
Raped. At the age of thirteen.
If she could have shed anymore tears, she would have. But her silent sobs only caused her eyes to burn further.
Freezing the small amounts of salty liquid to her eyelashes and cheeks.
Rolling over, she reached for the large red sweater. Her hand shook as her fingers lightly brushed the thick fleece. It was hard to believe she could actually move after everything that had happened to her. And this sweater, it was his.
Not only had he taken something from her, but had left her something so she would survive the night.
Typical.
As she wrapped the long warm jacket over her broken body carefully, she curled into a ball and looked at her ring on her left hand.
It was only a simple little ring from a quarter machine. But it had meant the world to her. He had given it to her only a few weeks ago, saying it was her engagement ring. The thin, fake gold band shined in the light. Unlike the plastic pink stone heart in the center, which was saturated in her own blood.
A single tear fell from her eyes. And as she looked up at the sky, she wondered what was going to happen now. Yes, she loved him dearly. But this had always been her mother's main concern about him. And her reasons to keep them apart after they had gone to middle school together.
Flashback
"He's not dangerous, mom!" she shouted at her mother as the older woman shoved her into her room. "Inuyasha would never do anything to hurt me! You don't even know him!"
"I don't care Kagome! He's not human, so you can bet on never seeing him ever again!" she answered slamming the door and locking it from the outside. "You even think about leaving this house, " she stated from the other side of the door. "And I swear, you will never set foot in it again! Now go to bed!"
End Flashback
For once, she almost wished she had listened. But Inuyasha would have most likely been hurt if she hadn't come. Now, looking around her in the blood soaked wetness of the freezing snow, she drifted off to sleep. But all that met her were the red eyes of her hanyou, stealing her innocence away…
4 Years Later…
Kagome awoke after her memory of haunting finally faded from her mind. When she looked down at her body, she no longer felt the cold of the snow or the pulsing pain in her wrists. But after a moment of looking far more closely, she found the tiny scars along her wrists and the inside of her arms. Some had been from him, and over months after the incident, she had added a few of her own.
Upon hearing the light flutter outside her window of rain falling, she sighed.
' I still can't believe I agreed to this,' she thought to herself with a groan.
After being out of school for four years, she would be going back today. For the first time in four years since she had been thrown out of her home, found her guardians, thrown into DSS and an unwed mothers home, and then back into the care of two flamboyant men she thought of now as her best friends.
"Mommy?" a small female voice called from the doorway. "Are we going to the park today?"
Kagome smiled as she looked at her daughter. Her long, black hair hung loosely and all over the place like it normally did, forming thick ringlets as it reached her elbows . And her purple t-shirt she used constantly for a nightgown was showing a lot of wear and tear. The little girl was merely only four years old, and holding her favorite stuffed animal, Mr. Bubbles. A ratty, old, blue cat. It had seen better days when the little girl had been born. But her daughter's other features made her smile as she looked at her. Her tiny little fangs trembled over her small yet full lips. It was almost shocking to her how much this child resembled her. But her blue and violet eyes held a piece of her father in them that always made Kagome want to cry. But it was her ears that mostly did it everytime. On the top of her head, were two white dog ears.
"Do you remember what mommy's going to be doing today, Kaiya?' she asked her daughter sweetly, patting the bed lightly. Knowing full well that the thunder and lightening had woken her up.
Kaiya jumped on and into the bed with her mother, giggling as her mother tickled her lightly.
"Mommy?' another small voice called to her from the door. " Uncle Naraku said we aren't going to the park today. How Come?"
When Kagome looked up, she smiled once more at her other four year old daughter, Amaya. She still wondered how she had two such well behaved twins. Luckily at least they looked nothing alike. Even though her younger sister had Kagome's blue eyes and her father's human form eye color mixed together, Amaya's eyes were purely gold. Just like her father's were. Her hair was silvery white, and rested mostly straight against her back. She was the tough, older sister. Even if she was only older by a few minutes. And her ears were just like her sister's, only hers were black instead of white.
Kagome smiled at her other child and coaxed her to join them on the large fluffy bed. Since they had only just recently moved back to Tokyo with Naraku, and his boyfriend of almost twelve years, Jakotsu, Kagome had needed to make a 'deal' with the two gay men whom she thought of as her best friends. Naraku, no matter how flamboyant he was, told Kagome she needed to go back to school like a scolding father would have. Since he was working on his night club during the day and no longer able to be her tutor, she needed to go back and get her diploma.
Jakotsu had agreed, and had even told her that he would watch the girls for her until she came home. Seeing as he was running his own beauty salon now only a few blocks away.
"Because your uncle's have decided to force your Mommy to go back to school," she sighed as the playful mood died down, causing her girl's to look at her with puppy dog eyes.
"But I thought Uncle Naraku was your teacher?" Amaya asked. It was amazing how smart she was.
Well, those genes must have come from Kagome, she at least had a good feeling that was the case at least.
"He was, sweetie. But do you remember why we moved back to Tokyo?" she asked her white haired little girl kindly. Even though she was only seventeen, Kagome was an amazing mother to both of these little girls.
"Well, I think so…," she said trailing off.
"It was because they got those pieces of paper in the mail about their buildings. Right Mommy?" Kaiya asked sweetly.
Kagome smiled and pulled her little angel's closer to her.
"That's right baby. And your uncle's have been waiting a very long time for this to happen. So, that's why mommy will be going back to school. At least it'll only be for this year and next year," she said smiling at them both. "Then I'll be able to stay home with you two all the time."
Kaiya smiled brightly at her mother and hugged her tightly around her neck. Amaya laughed and joined in on the 'dog pile' forming over their mother. Knowing full well that if they were too loud, one of their uncles would come in looking silly and tell them to go back to bed.
So, both girl's grinned at one another and started to lightly tickle their mother with their small claws.
"Hey!" she laughed trying to jump away from them. But it was no use. Both of those little hanyou's of hers knew her weak spots. Tickling her feet and sides, she jumped around on the mattress and giggled, laughed, and screamed.
That is until Naraku marched into the room sporting a pair of large pink curlers, a purple bathrobe, and some weird green paste all over his face. He tapped his foot and screwed up his face as he stared at the scene before him.
"Excuse me?" he said in his very deep voice slowly. "But it's 6am girls. Some of us are trying to sleep."
Both of the little hanyou's stopped tickling their mother immediately as they held back their giggles.
"What's on your face?" Kagome asked in between breaths. "You look like you were diving into the green icing in the fridge once again."
Naraku raise a perfectly tweezed eyebrow at her and glared. But it seemed as though the movement had not been a very good idea, since some of the green flaky stuff crumbled and fell to the floor.
"Well, excuuuuse me little miss 'perfect skin'," he hissed. "Some of us need to actually work hard at making our skin nice."
"Naraku?" an odd, yet very feminine voice called from the other room sluggishly. "What are you doing up? It's 6am honey. Come back to bed."
A moment after the voice stopped, loud snoring could be heard from the room down the hallway.
The twins smiled at one half of the only male guidance they had ever known and jumped off the bed. When they reached his form, both girls hugged each of his legs, giggling as he smiled shaking his head at both of them. Looking back at Kagome, he found himself smiling even more.
Even though he was beyond gay, he still thought she was the most beautiful woman he had ever seen. Her long midnight hair trailed down her back until it pooled and hit the crème colored sheets of her massive, queen sized sleigh bed. Her skin, which he had always been super jealous of, was almost the color of snow in the winter, it was so fare. Her lips were full, and mostly set in a slight pout. But it was her eyes that drove all the straight men into a frenzy, at least besides her perfect body. They were icy ocean blue. And no matter what way you looked into them, they shined and sparkled in the light.
He had wanted to send her back to school right after she had come to live with them. But she had been terrified of something. And, well, judging by the thick scabs on her wrists and neck, he knew she would most likely scare herself to death if she went back at all.
Then, they had found out she was three months pregnant. At first, they both had been in horrified shock. But Kagome had merely turned to stone once the words had been spoken.
Kagome's mother had battled them in court for her daughter to be placed into an unwed mothers home. The woman had been spiteful and held no remorse for her daughter. Calling her a whore and everything else in the book after she had brought her home with her mere days later.
Once she had been taken away, Naraku had used every powerful influence he possesed to get her back. The courts had found some bruises along Kagome's spine and her cheekbone had been shattered from a blow from her mother's fists when they had picked her up to take her to the shelter. And right then and there, Naraku, along with Jakotsu, were her soul guardians.
After she had recovered, Kagome had asked if she could keep her child, not knowing at the time she was caring twins in the least. At first, Naraku had been taken aback by her soul request. But in the end he had told her she could have whatever she wished for.
And she had been an amazing mother from day one. Those two little rug rat's ( as he called them lovingly) had been very good as well once they had been born. He had no idea why, since most babies usually cry in the middle of the night, but these two usually slept through everything and only awoke once Kagome had. It was strange from day one, but it fit their lives very well and had made things much easier on all of them.
"Hey, what are you four doing up?" Jakotsu asked walking in wearing his stylish pink and green bathrobe and his semi long hair in a high braid. He rubbed his eyes as he yawned, and stretched right before the girls ran at him and tackled him to the floor.
"Uncle Jako!" they both yelled in unison as his eyes shot open as he hit the floor.
"Hey, what have we all told you about knocking people over like that?" Naraku scolded lightly.
"It's okay honey," Jakotsu laughed hugging the two little girls to his chest. "It's usually how they wake me up anyways. I'm just happy they didn't do this on the stairs like yesterday."
Naraku smiled a his partner, and found his way down to the little girls and picked them both up. They turned in his arms so they could face him and giggled at his face, which made him merely roll his eyes at the both of them.
Kagome smiled as she finally stood, wearing her usual nightgown which mainly consisted of one of Naraku's old button down white shirts. Both men looked at her and sighed, knowing full well the look in her eyes was not a happy one about their agreement.
"Now sweetie, " Jakotsu said in a warm voice. "You know very well at least our intentions aren't out to hurt you. We know you have some reason you don't want to go back to a public school system, but what else can we do?"
Kagome sighed and shook her head in understanding. But she hated the idea. If she was at least somewhat lucky though, he would not be there. If she were lucky, he had left Tokyo a long time ago like she had.
It was hard for her to hate him even today. And everytime she looked at her girls, she did think about him. But she had always loved Inuyasha Taishio. Never had the thought of a doubt crossed her mind. But her scars were a reminder that he actually could be dangerous. So she had always been too scared afterwards to approach any man she had come into contact with. Well, except for these two. And they had made living with guys take on a whole new prospective for her.
When she had first met them, she had been afraid of them. That is until she had caught them hugging and kissing against the kitchen sink one morning.
She had never truly known what other types of relationships existed in the world. Her mother had been very secretive and somewhat crazy about anyone who was different from the rest of society. Kagome had never cared though. Her theory was simple and yet complicated once she had thought it through. But you should be able to love anyone freely. Be it another guy, another girl, or even… a half demon.
Her heart clenched as one of their happy moments filled her head, and she turned away to walk over to the window. Luckily her girls were still developing, so they most likely wouldn't smell the tears flooding her eyes.
Flashback
"Come on Inuyasha! Everyone is at the beach waiting for us, how long does it seriously take you to put on a stupid bathing suit?" she yelled into the large cherry oak wooden door.
"You do realize I have to find my hat right? My ears will get a sunburn if I don't!" he growled.
Kagome heard another shuffle of whatever he had been throwing around fall to the floor. She cringed only imagining what his large room looked like right now. The Taishio Mansion had always been a second home to her since they had become friends way back in kindergarten, but the one room that had always managed to make her squeamish, was his.
She couldn't remember all of the times she had cleaned his room for him, and even though their maid and Inuyasha's former nanny, Kaede , had laughed at her as she cleaned the room in vein, she still did it.
Since her mother was a complete and utter nutcase even back then, Kagome was use to seeing everything in order. And she liked to clean. Inuyasha would often tease her about it and had said on many occasions that she should just move in and be his personal cleaner.
She wasn't all too keen on the personal cleaner thing, but she would have loved to live here with him and his family. Even his older brother, Sesshomaru, loved her. But she merely kept her own livelihood a secret so her brother, Souta, would be kept safe.
Turning her arm over without realizing it, she saw the large bruise from earlier that morning forming it's ugly purple mass. She lightly poked it, just to check if it did indeed hurt like all the others, and sure enough, it did.
"Damnit! Where the hell is it!?"
Kagome rolled her eyes and stood up, finding the doorknob out of sheer memory, she opened the door and walked right in.
She had been right about the destruction level she had feared, seeing cloths, old toys, and even his bed sheets on the ground.
"You really do destroy everything you touch," she laughed lightly as she noticed his hat peering out slightly from it's hiding spot under one of his pillows. "I mean, come on, I cleaned this place yesterday."
"Yeah, so what?" he said as he crossed his arms over his chest. "I need that hat!"
Kagome laughed, and jumped on his bed, pulling the hat out and placing it on her own head. She smiled smugly at her best friend she loved to death and folded her hands behind her head as she took in his look of amazement.
"How the hell did you know where it was?"
But Kagome didn't answer him as he jumped onto the bed and laid down beside her. He smiled at her mischievously as he went to grab the hat. But she held it down on her head and laughed as he tried to lunge for it again.
They continued this little game until Inuyasha wrapped his arms around her and tickled her. She laughed and laughed until she thought her lungs were going to explode.
"Okay, okay. I give, I give!" she laughed as he reached around and went for her stomach. "Inuyasha!"
"This is what you get for taking my favorite hat," he said smugly as he began his assault on her once more.
This continued on like it always did for a while, until Kagome's stomach was twitching from her laughter so much it hurt to continue on. Inuyasha wrapped his arms around her, slowly taking the hat off her head. When she turned in his arms, he placed it on his head backwards and smiled at her.
"I knew I would get it back eventually," he said shrugging at her.
Kagome laughed as she breathed heavily, still trying to catch her breath. But in that moment, Inuyasha looked at her with his golden eyes and continued to stare at her. She felt her heart rate increase once more, knowing full well something was happening in those eyes of his se almost couldn't identify.
Without any warning, his lips descended on hers, and stayed there for a long time. Kagome smiled against his lips, feeling her heart jump in her chest as it often did when she was around him. But this was the first time he had ever done this. It was a simple first kiss. And Kagome pressed her full lips against his in the same fashion, finding the fireworks bursting behind he closed eyes.
Inuyasha pulled away after a moment and smiled at her.
"I thought you were gonna hit me for that. But I had to do it," he said with a lazy voice.
She laughed lightly at him, knowing full well how he felt for her and in the same way, how she felt about him. They had decided to try dating a few months before hand. But this had been their first kiss, in his messy room, looking at each other like the world would mean nothing without the other.
She snuggled next to him, breathing in his scent of pine trees and of something else entirely. Ever since he had asked her out, she could never get enough of his scent or him. It felt weird at first, having these feelings at only thirteen, but she found herself feeling happy.
Inuyasha hugged her against him, feeling relieved that she hadn't beaten him to a bloody pulp like she had way back in kindergarten for even trying to kiss her. When he saw her wince lightly in his arms, he sighed finally seeing the large bruise on her arm from her mother. He hated knowing that she wouldn't allow him to help her out of this situation. Mainly because that was how she was. But it hurt him to know end knowing what was going on in her home, and he couldn't do anything about it.
"Kagome, have you ever thought about leaving your house?" he asked her innocently. "I mean, I have a feeling your mom hurt you again, and I know you don't deserve that. Why don't you at think about leaving?"
She sighed, mentally kicking herself for forgetting about her arm. Some days she actually felt like the oldest person in the world. And today was one of those days.
"I can't. I take all her crap so she won't hurt Souta. You know I have my reasons for staying there. And it's only until I'm sure Souta can defend himself from her. Just give it a few more years and everything should work out fine."
"But Kags-"
"Come on!" she said jumping up suddenly. "Everyone is waiting for us at the beach. Lets go before Miroku comes snooping around for us like he did last time."
He sighed, knowing that the conversation was over, or at least for now it was. He still found it hard to believe how strong she was. After everything she had been going through for years now, she could still find a way to smile and actually mean it fully.
"Fine, but don't think we're done just because you say so," he said grabbing a red towel off of the floor and rolling it up under his arm. "We need to talk about this. So don't shut me out."
Rolling her eyes, she nodded, but knew she could find a way out of talking about it no matter what. After pulling down her pink t-shirt, Kagome walked outside of the room and picked up her own neatly folded pink towel and sunglasses. When she started to walk towards the door, Inuyasha grabbed her hand, holding it carefully as not to hurt her with his sharp claws.
She smiled and kissed him on the cheek, and giggled at seeing the deep red blush creep into his cheeks as he smiled at her.
"I love you," she whispered to him, already knowing what his answer would be.
"I love you too," he smiled. "But if that pinhead comes looking for us, we'll never hear the end of it. So lets go."
Nodding her head, she waited for him to open the door. And as the sunlight touched her fare skin, she smiled to herself. How could things ever go wrong for them?
End Flashback
Kagome wiped the stray tar as it fell from her eyes. Finding it hard to believe how much life really had changed in only four years. After her mother had thrown her out, she had tried getting a hold of her hanyou, even if it were only to hear his voice on the phone. But his personal advisor, Myoga, had told her that he was no longer living at home. Something had happened and that he would most likely not be back for a while.
Then she had found out that she was pregnant, and had completely stopped trying to find him.
Looking out the window once more at the rain, Kagome smiled thinking of more of her better memories. Sure, she wanted to at least know where he was and if he was okay, but she was too scared that if he did know about the girls, that everything would just implode like everything else had.
Despite what had happened, she still loved him, and naturally, always would. But it still hurt her when she had realized that he had never tried contacting her as well.
"Mommy? Are you okay?"
Kagome looked down and smiled at seeing her little Kaiya looking at her with a worried expression on her face. As she clutched the ratty old cat to her chest securely, Kagome picked her up and hugged her tightly.
"I'm okay baby," she whispered. "Just daydreaming."
She only wished none of it was a dream anymore. And that the pain would go away.
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Not bad for a first chapter huh?
Well, if you guys like it, lemme know.
Toodles,
Me
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