So this is my first Story, I hope everyone likes it. So I have been hearing a lot of speculations about the new character for the second half of season 10 named Jess. A lot of people have speculated that she is going to steal Eli away from Clare (Doubt it). I had my own speculations and theories about this girl Jess. The ideas and theories I started thinking about inspired me to write this story.

*** DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN THESE CHARACTERS or DEGRASSI. ***

-Eli Goldsworthy's POV-

"NO!" I screamed but it was too late. In that split second she was gone…

"Eli?" Clare said while shoving my shoulder. "Huh? Uh, What is it?"
"Nothing just you seem zoned out." Clare answered. She was right I was zoned out. I have been thinking about Julia lately. I don't know if it is wrong or if it is bad. " You want to talk?" Clare asked. I didn't answer. I just picked up my bag and grabbed my apple and walked off. I could feel her beautiful blue eyes burning holes in my back. I didn't want her to know what was going on. What she didn't think I loved her?
"Eli." Whispers a soft toned voice. I turn around there is no one there. I keep walking. The halls are empty and cold. "Eli…" I heard it again. I turn around once more. Nothing. I was not paying attention to what was in front of me and I run right into someone I didn't know. "Watch where you're going!" they said with an angry tone. "Sorry." I replied. Everything was on the floor scattered and my head started to spin. "Eli." I finally figured out the soft toned voice, it was Julia. I dropped down to the grown in shock. I turned my head in every direction and all I saw was the crowd of people walking, stepping on my papers. I couldn't find her. WHERE WAS SHE!
"ELI! Hi! I am talking to you." Yelled a familiar voice. I couldn't put a face to it until the face came down to my level. "Do you need help?" said Jess. "

"No, I am alright." I replied.
"Sure? You look a little distressed."

"I am okay." I answered once more. "So, how have you been? Since…" she asked me. I didn't know what to say. " I am alright." My hand started to tremble; I started to have cold sweats. It felt like withdrawal. It got awkward between Jess and I. The last time I saw her was at Julia's funeral. "See you around?" She said.
"Sure." My hands were not steady enough for a hug; they were not even steady enough for a handshake. "Okay… well bye." She said with an awkward smile. "Eli…" I heard the soft tone of Julia's voice. The voice faded and another familiar voice was calling my name. "Eli. Are you okay? Why are acting so weird?" Clare said in a concerned tone. " I am just … I can't…"

"No, need to explain." She looked at me in that instant and I knew she knew what the charade was about. She continued on, "Who was that? I never had seen her before."

"No one." I said.

I was in a trance all day. My eyes kept watering up every time I zoned out…

"Elijah! You are acting irrational!" She said.

"Irrational? You don't understand! YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND!" I shouted. Julia started crying. " You won't let me understand Eli!" I was sitting in the middle between Julia and myself. I just watched his all happen all over again. I looked at myself yelling at her and her hysterically crying. I looked into my eyes. I didn't see myself; I saw a monster. I turned around, and she was about to open the door and I tried to grab her while the other me, this monster, just let her leave. I couldn't get a hold of her. She got out. I started to scream at myself. " WHY? WHY DID YOU LET HER GO! DO YOU KNOW WHAT IS GONNA HAPPEN?" I just stared at me. I had this angry look upon my face. My eyes stayed shut for three seconds as I heard her slam the back of Morty. I started to tear and so did the monster next to me. She hopped on her bike pedaled away. At the red, she turned around, looked straight at me and just stared. Green light, she started to pedal away.

I looked into my eyes some more and I started the car follow her. Red light. "Eli, I don't have anything to say to you! Leave me alone!" I stayed parked, she pedaled off not paying attention to the light and then Faster than she was pedaling, she was gone. Instantly. "JULIE!" … Then I woke up. " I made you coffee." Clare said in a soft tone. I started to drink it. "I know why you are acting so weird." She started to say.

"You do?"

"I do. Julia? I mean it was pretty obvious. When you walked into my house you sat on the couch and fell asleep. I thought maybe you were not feeling good so I just let you nap and I went upstairs to change. When I came back down, you kept yelling Julie. You can talk to me Eli. The grieving process is long but I hope I could help."

"No, No Clare, I can't. You wouldn't understand!" I started to shout. Clare looked at me, "Well you're not really giving me a chance to understand."

" I am really messed up! You will never understand! I won't let you understand!"

" Are you not over her? Do you not want to be with me anymore?"

"Clare, really? Like I said you won't understand." I got up off the couch and grabbed my things and left. I slammed the door behind me. She opened the door as I got into Morty, "Where are you going?" she asked. I didn't say anything. I raised the volume so I can drain out her voice. I honestly did not know where I was going. I just did not want to talk about it with her, anyone but her. I got out of Morty and went up to the door. I rang the doorbell. The door opened. "Eli, longtime no see." Jess sarcastically said with a smirk. I just broke down at her doorstep. The waterworks were on and wouldn't let out anytime soon. She gave me a hug and she let me inside.

"I just need someone to talk to." I said.
"Doesn't everyone?" She smiled and replied.