Sorry for taking so long.
Own anything I do not.
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Sadness is a feeling not describable by mortal words, it's a thick sludge of despair trapped in the human soul, a lead weight on the heart, a mist of uselessness over the mind. It's causes are many things, but the most prominent cause is the loss of someone closes to you, a friend, a parent, a girlfriend/boyfriend, anyone as long as they're close to you. At first the pain feels like it'll rip you to shreds, but it slowly fades from the mind, that thick curtain of mist becomes the steam coming off a pot of water on the stove.
Natsu knew sadness because he knows loss, the feeling of hopelessness that comes with the thoughts that they're never coming back. The first time despair touched him was when he lost Igneel. He was seven when his scaly father disappeared nearly without trace, this was an impressive feat assuming Igneel was a giant dragon, only leaving behind his scale muffler.
Over time the wounds had scabbed, and faded, this was all with the help of her, his first friend. Over time as they played house he forgot about Igneel and focused on her, how she constantly teased him about becoming his wife when they were older, the way she made him feel happy, something he hadn't felt since Igneel died, the tenderness in her words, the way she was always ready to deal with his antics, how she never falcon punched him out of her bed, but most of all how she was like a mother to Happy, his constant, and best friend.
As he thought of all this, he remembered the ring in his pocket, the shiny blue stone that so reminded him of her eyes, it was now his constant companion, the same ring he racked up the nerves to give to her on the worst day of his life, that one mission had ruined his life in one fell swoop. He was a slave to her memory clinging to what little he had of her, everywhere he looked, every scent he smelled, they all reminded him of one thing.
One day he took a mission in the port town of Hargeon, there he thought he smelled her the smell of lilacs and cats, but it was just a blond girl being spell charmed by some creep calling himself "Salamander" he barged into the scene, then he said something or other to get all those girls to destroy his family jewels, but those are protected by scales too.
As it turned out her name was Lugi, or Luigi, or Louie, or whatever and she was really nice, eventually the memory of Lisanna scabbed, but it never faded from his mind. Time passed and Lucy took Lisanna's place but she could never even compare to her, she was basicly Lisanna lite, none of the sadness, but none of the sweet either. Everything was good for a time, but after a while she became a walking, talking reminder that his ignorance killed his best friend.
So Natsu the bubbly, over excited, gluttonous dragon slayer that we all know and love, cries himself to sleep each and every night, hoping for release from the blackest pits of his heart, escape from the iron shackles of Lisanna's memory, but the lead weight of her presence on his mind was forever.
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Is it a second, or an eternity?