Don't Leave Me Alone
Hey everyone ^.^…
Nice to see you again
I don't know why I wrote this but it is really bugging me since the first time I saw the twins' awkward meeting
This fiction is somehow answering that stupid question I always have while watching digimon frontier "What if Kouji rescued Kouichi without Takuya's help and What if Kouichi was really broken after everything what if there was a dark,evil force stronger than Cherubimon and was hidden in the dark till its time came?
The story's plot line is after purifying Kouichi. It is gonna be similar somehow to the original time line but with slight difference however the time line will kinda change completely in coming chapters.
BTW:It is Kouji's P.O.V for now but I will move to others' P.O.V depending on the events.
Oh well, enjoy!
Disclaimer: I don't own them, I love them ^. ^"
It is over!
I desperately tried to convince myself with these three words which you would hear or even see after a random game . It wasn't a game, though,for I know very well that it is only the beginning.
Two meters away, he sat there trembling and maybe crying. I did not know what to do or how to react .Obeviously,I am not the most social person around,actually,it is Takuya and the other's game not mine.
Heck! Where are they when I need them ?
Taking a long,heavy breath,I decided to say something ,anything at all to the broken child in front of me ,to my long-lost twin .The only problem is I don't know what to say exactly. Each word has weighs now and I really don't want to make thing worse.
My twin,Kouichi,wrapped his arms aroung his body shivering as if he was frozen.I could feel that chill sneaking to my body but I know that this cold couldn't be compared to his.
My heart ached when I realized that he started to look at me fearfully giving me a chance to look at him or rather to examine him.
He was simply my opposite ,polar, despite being twins I could see the differences between us .He is pale,tired,cold ,sick and drown in is everything I don't need or didn't want to have.
Tears ,which I would never allow myself to shed ,were tip-toeing on his flushed cheeks _from crying maybe_ towards his trembled lips.
Our eyes met for a second but it was enough for him to lower his head and cry harder in guilt …or even hatred and more than enough for me to look away.
Those idiots!
I didn't need him to tell me anything for Ophanimon told me or more accurately showed me .His grandmother's death and last wish, My mom's pain ,him chasing me and finally his fall down the stairs _ into darkness.
"W…what will you d…do with with me?" he sobbed stuttering , trembling and in a way… begging for what I didn't know then.
What does he mean? I though in confusion .
Actualy , I don't know.I wanted to discuss this situation with my friends .
"Yes, me the calm cool Kouji dose not know what to do in a personal issue and waits his so-called friends to help him dealing with his twin!" I mentally screamed sarcastically.
Hesitantly .I took a few unconfident steps toward him wishing that at least I would decrease the physical distance between us.
"N…No"
Kouichi screamed tearfully hugging himself tighter
"Do n…not co… come any any clo…closer"he begged
My heart clenched and I stood frozen looking at him in disbelieve .
"Why?"
The first word I uttered since purifying him
"You will hurt…hurt m..me!"
I blinked not being able to interpret his words as my mind refused to understand.
He explained without even looking at me in eye
"li… like them …all of them…hurt me…used me…even kaa_san Wh…What make…you…dif..different? . onegai I couldn't take …it anymore… "
I saw him holding his head in his hands and breathing painfully as if he is remembering what "them " caused him.
I know that he is suffering. My dad left him behind killing him by denying his existence .His grandmother destroyed his blessed illusion not even considering the pain he will go through. Even mom was sad despite his presence and wanted to see me giving him unconsciously the feeling that he isn't important or wanted as me. She caused him pain by being sad and sick around him as if he was the one to be blamed. That's why he wanted me to go home just to make her happy because he simply couldn't .
I don't know how but I could feel his pain
Even here, In completely different world Cherubimon took advantage of him and Duskmon used his body to destroy the Digital World.
"What about me?I caused him enough pain by my mere existence".
"Would I hurt him even more than them"
Would I force him to tell us everything about cherubimon or to lead us to him despite his fear from that monster.
I bit my lip anxiously .He is right .Even if I sent him home,it would be like killing what was left from his soul.
I would end up hurting him
A faint whisper escaped my lips unintentionally
"Nii-san "
The shocked look on his face matches my wide open eyes after simply realizing what I had said. Nevertheless, it feels right and comfortable unlike what awkward I though it would seem.
Seconds later, few yards were the physical distance between us.I breathed heavily and put the best smile I have to comfort him . I kneeled in front of him so I could capture his eyes with mine .For unknown reason ,I wanted to comforthim .He shievered but didn't try to do anything except looking at me with silent tears on his flushed cheeks.
"let's get out of here," I told him calmly offering my hand for him to take .
He looked at me and blinked asking like a lost child,
"W…why?"
"We shouldn't stay here .It is dangerous "I answered quietly.
He whispered faintly,
"You …don't have…have to t…take me."
"Huh"
He looked at the ground
"I am …useless… you couldn't even use me …you will hurt…hurt me .Just go .See mom... please go…I know ... nothing...if… if they came I won't be…"he swallowed a sob "his… his slave again"
He couldn't even think coherently and just said what came to his mind .The only thing I understood very well that he is… afraid of me.
I gritted my teeth
"Am I that heartless and terrible monster to prefer being killed by cheburimon rather than coming with me"
I wanted to shout at him but I couldn' has enough already,no need to be mad at him .He is just well…confused.
Without a second thought ,I grabbed one of his hands gently pulling him up. He tried to resist but was too weak to do so .I could feel that something was wrong ,though. His hand was warmer than normal. His heavy ,tired breaths ,his flushed cheeks,his abnormal worm hands_they all make sense now .I slapped myself mentally for being blind.
"I should have understood!"
I released his hand and put my hands on his shoulders shaking him worriedly,
"You are sick, don't you? "I hissed in frustration.
He shook his head weakly avoiding any eye contact which only frustrateed me more ,
"Why?"
"I don't deserve…this …look… I am fine"He murmured
"That look! My concerned and worried look. But why? I am the one who don't deserve him…he deserves a better brother than me"
I stepped back ,shocked, I don't know what to do. He was in pain and I was frozen.
"Yes. let us get… get out of here. Find them. They would help while I couldn't!
His breaths became faster and harder as he fought with every breath. He kneeled in front of me and let a few painful gasps while hugging his body and shivering.
"I should do something . Calm down, Kouji! "
I took off my jacket and put it around his shoulders and assured him as his gasps became quieter
"It is O.K .Trust me ,please. I won't …won't hurt you. I promise"I amost begged but it doesn't matters .What matteres me now is him …I really don't know from where I got this desire to tack care of him and to protect him but this feeling comforted me a little bit.
He hesitated but nodded and gave up giving me a tired ,shy smile .However ,I didn't know that his trust then meant his really giving up everything .He went limp as he lost conciosness.
I pulled him to my chest preventing him from hitting the ground and letting a sigh of relief which later turned into a frown after feeling how bad his condition is.I hugged him gently not wanting to disturb him .I blushed faintly,it is the first time I hug someone .That one happenes to be my twin_not bad,I guess.
I put him on my back quickly and started walking as fast was very fragile and thin which makes my mission easier.
"Trailemon !I could hear its it be them"
The sound became louder but at that moment nothing was louder than Kouichi's hot breathes on my neck .
"Oi!Kouji !"Takaya's cheerful voice reached me as I am now able to see the train and them waving to me .
"Kouji-kun! We were worried .You shouldn't do tha-"Izumi said in half concerned, half angry voice but seeing a child on my back shut her ,for her shook was greater than concern or anger
"Kouji-nii who is he?" Tomoki concluded their thoughts in his innocent question.
No matter how simple his question was,I couldn't answer.I don't know what to say .They felt my anxious when I looked at the ground refusing to even look at them and hold their tongues.
An awkward silence controlled every thing except Kouichi's moans .
Out of sudden,I discovered that my friends have such common sense ,for Takaya helped me in carrying my twin to the train and the others followed us silently inside.
We laid him on one of the benches beside me and Izumi got a wet cloth from one of the train cars and put it on his forhead .She looked at me and something in my face made her to step back handing me another wet cloth.
"Try to caress his arms and chest with it .It will help him," she whispered with a faint blush on her cheeks.
I did what she told without uttering a word. Nothing was said and I covered his chest with my jacket –I don't have the strength to put his clothes on him right now .I was too occupied by my own thoughts till Takaya woke me by his sound
"Kouji,"he said as all the patience he has left him allowing his curiousity to take the best of him.
"Yes,"
Silent.
I sighed and looked at the sick child beside me.
"My twin, Kouichi"
I swear my cold voice terrified them that they regretted even being curious and in that situation they were occupied by trying to make sense out of what I said however I didn't give them a chance
"I didn't know about his existence. Our parents divorced when we were young and each one took one of us not telling the child with him about the other half of his grandmother told him the truth and he tried to talk to me but couldn't"
I took a breath and continued with the more problematic part keeping my calm voice as if I was talking casually,
"He fall on Shibuya Station while chasing me .Somehow, he found himself in the Digital World"
They gasped.
"Wait till you know who he was a few hours ago"
"Cherubimon found him and gave him the corrupted spirit of darkness"I looked at Kouichi whose breathes became crazily auiduble .
"In other words, he was Duskmon"I sneered spitting that awful name and ending the story.
No one uttered a word except Neemon who said something stupid as usaual and bokomon hit him angrily.
I could listen to their whispers but didn't care to hear them.
"It is scary!"Tomoki said in verge of tears looking at my brother as if he is going to wake up and attack him
"so …so Duskmon is Kouji's brother. Man,I can't believe"Junpei mumbled in confusion.
"He was Junpie …I mean Kouji- kun purified him so he isn't evil … I mean he is Kouji kun's brother…so he isn't…I am so confused," Izumi repliedin worry and tried to understand but couldn't.
"I remember seeing him at the station but I forgot that ,How can I be such an idiot!"muttered Takaya to him self while punching his head with his head.
"He is in is suffering,"patamon whimpered.
His innocent words made them to look to my twin who was struggling to breath
We should find help,his condition became worse"
"What can we do? We are in the continent of darkness .How can we possibly find a doctor let alone a doctor who can treat human and besides we don't know what's matter with him",Junpie stated
I don't need their brilliant advice or their stupid interpretation. I had enough.I don't even want friends any more. I don't need a brother.
Shouldn't I took benefits from Kouichi's experience . He cared about his family and he is suffeing now because of them, because of me. I was right when I detached myself from social life. I do not need it .And now I don't need them or him.
N…No!
A gasp , a muffled sob then a loud scream.
Kouichi,my own twin, hysterically pleaded raising his arm as if he is tring to reach someone.
"Do not …go …Kaa-san ,Otou-san,Obba-chan .Come back ,Kou Kouji!"
"Onegai,Don't leave me alone…not again …it hurts" another cry
My heart screamed in agony.I couldn't see him like this .This was because of his family,because he trusted them .
No one deserves your trust or sacrifice ,Kouichi.I am the cause of your pain and all what can I do is just watching you helplessly "
"No… stay away…please,don't hurt me…please…Kouji help me Ko…kouji!"He wept ewakly till his body gave up and slumped again in a restless sleep gaining nothing but sympathetic looks from my friends.
"What was that?"Is he speaking in his sleep"Junpie asked blinking
"If mama or papa left me alone,I would be really sad."Tomoki fought his tears back.
I was done!
The train stopped suddenly causing takuya who was standing to jerk on the opposite bench
Hey!What's wrong with that train"
"He is hungry,I guess"
I pitied him . He is alone,sad,sick and broken but they didn't care .They hurt him,used him then throw him away.I wonder which would I do to him:huet or use or maybe both.I wonder if he would live to see what I could do to him !
I couldn't bear their pity or sympathy or even their looks between me and him .Wthout thinking,I found myself running outside the train not caring about their call after me or even kouichi's pleads in his asleep which begged me not to leave him alone.
Yay! Yukata !
I did it...finally
So what do you think?Let me know!
Creepy ?
Onegai,read and review and while doing both enjoy!
Arigato ^^"
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Kaa-san:mother
Nii-san:Older brother
Otou-san:father
Obba-chan:grandma
Onegai:please
Oi:Hey!