Scars
Prologue
You finger the angry red lines
Trailing your arms
A story
Engraved in your skin
Written in blood
Forever told
Love lost
Friends gained
This is your story
My story
We share one beginning
One ending
Part I:
Him
"I love you" he said
"Always" he said
"Never forget
That I love you" he said
Lies that bind
My heart unwind
Caught in assurance
Bound by the hurt
Belief never ending
"I trust you" you said
"Forever" you said
"Always be here
and I'll trust you" you said
wounds deeper than imagined
done by his hands
"I'm sorry" he said
"Forgive me" he said
"It will not happen
Again" he said
Believing in him
A web of lies
Ensnaring
Captivating
Again
He hurts you
Your heart broken in two
His words sting
Salt on your heart's wounds
"I'm sorry" he said
"Forgive me" he said
"It will never happen
Again" he said
So you trust him again
He will be better
You know he will
You love him
Kisses sweet
Punctured
By angry words
Wounds of the heart
Reopened
"I'm sorry" he says
"Forgive me" he says
"It will not happen
again" he says
You turn around
Walk away
Does he ever have
Good things to say?
Part II:
Her
"BFFL" she texted
"For life" she texted
"Never forget
that I love you" she texted
emotional scars
you share with her
Tell her everything
Hide nothing
"I trust you" you texted
"Forever" you texted
"Always be here
and I'll trust you" you texted
Somehow they know
When you only told her
Rumors
Lies
Spread around
Whispers behind your back
"It wasn't me" she texted
"I didn't do it" she texted
"You said forever
you will trust me" she texted
Believe her
You think she tells truth
No lies again
Friends forever
Again
More lies
Scars reopened
Emotional pain
Never-ending
Over again
"It
wasn't me" she texted
"I didn't do it" she texted
"You said forever
you will trust me" she texted
Another chance
She won't screw up
Never again
Healed wounds
Deny it
It isn't happening
But it is
You can't ignore them
Whispers
Rumors
"I hate you" you say
"Always" you say
"Stay away 'cause
I hate you" you say
No response
Speechlessness
Surrounding her
You turn away
Walking
Never
to return
Never to trust
Never again
Part
III:
Physicality
Wounds inside
Emotional pain
Never healing
Loneliness
Endless Darkness
Will
it ever heal?
It can't
The knife touches your skin
Cold on your wrist
Blood trailing your arm
Mingling with tears
Angry tears
The pain
But it takes all the emotions
Pain
But these wounds will heal
Eventually
Unlike inside
Feeling faint
Lightheaded
Lay your head on the ground
A voice
You don't know her very well
"It will be okay"
Darkness envelops you
Sweet darkness
Precious escape
Part IV:
The Other Her
"I know what you're going through
I did it before"
She holds you kindly
A
real friend?
No, no wishing
No dashed hopes
"I'm here for you"
Walls come down
Slowly
Hesitantly
Rebuilding trust
Discovering truth
Seeing love
For the first time
It's real
You see her scars
A kindred spirit
She knows
She's been there
"He
hurt me, too.
She lied to me, too"
Alike
You're not alone
Never alone
Let doors open
Let new friends come
Letting her in
She sees
She knows
Someone understands
Someone gets it
Someone loves you
Part V:
The Other Him
"You
promise me!
You swore you wouldn't!
He sees the scars
You told him you wouldn't
You swore
Broken promises
Fractured trust
But none of that matters
"I'm here.
Always here"
He listens
He cares
Unending trust
Beautiful trust
What to believe?
"You can trust me
I'm not like him"
He holds you tightly
Never to let go
You slowly trust again
Learnt o love again
No more horrors
But the ghosts don't go away
They never go away
But he won't let them
They won't control you
Regain order
Peace of mind
He takes your fears
"I won't let it happen
Not again
Never again
No more hurt
No more scars
I love you."
Part VI:
Ghosts
Haunting you
You see the scars
Remember
Pain
Hurt
Agony
Tearing at your mind
Bursting through your head
No rest
"I am evil
I don't deserve them
They
deserve better"
You shut them out
They need someone else
You don't want to burden them
Add to their pain
The ghosts are back
Eating at you
Now
what?
More scars?
More
pain?
More never ending hate?
Desperation?
Set you free
Someone set me free
Set us free
Part VII:
Forever
They see you
He holds you
She hugs you
"We love you
Don't
shut us out!
We care
We know!"
You can't
"You deserve better!" you say
Tears flow
Unstoppable
What can you do?
"We love you
let us help"
You let them in
Carefully
You don't want to hurt them
They are your everything
You love them
Epilogue
You
finger the angry red lines
Trailing your arms
A story
Engraved in your skin
Written in blood
Forever told
Love lost
Friends gained
This is your story
My story
We share one beginning
One ending