Chapter 1: Hidden Feelings
She knew better, she learned her lesson. But every time she saw Inuyasha with Kikyo it didn't mean it hurt any less. She would go back to the camp undetected; sit down in a corner in Kaede's hut staring blankly at the wall. Sango looked over at Kagome worriedly, she was concerned about Kagome, who had an emotionless expression on her face. Her eyes were as cold as a frozen over ocean. Sango knew that Inuyasha was the cause of her friends depression. Growling to herself, she set out to find Inuyasha, leaving the hut, she saw that Inuyasha was back in his favorite tree. She growled louder as she glared at him from her position on the ground.
"You fucking mutt! Why can't you think before you see Kikyo? Have you seen what it does to Kagome every single time!" Sango yelled at the hanyou in the tree. Inuyasha looked down, and raised an eyebrow. 'Something was wrong with Kagome? How could that be? She was fine when I left.' He thought to himself then jumped down landing in front of Sango.
"What do you mean? Kagome was just fine when I left," Inuyasha replied calmly, he stared at her with a bored look on his face.
"You are an idiot. Kagome hasn't spoken, or eaten anything since she came back to came after looking for you. She stares at the wall blankly with no expression on her face. I know she's suffering because of you. I can't take this! I hate seeing her like this!" Sango said with a frown.
'What?!' he thought as he ran to Kaede's hut to see what exactly Sango was talking about. When he walked in, he noticed Kagome leaning against the wall, looking blankly at the wall across from her. There wasn't a single emotion on her face, her eyes were cold, emotionless, her arms laid limply by her side. She sat there as still as a board, not moving, not doing anything. When he looked closely, he noticed her chest wasn't moving as if she wasn't breathing.
"Kagome you need to snap out of it! Come back to us Kagome!" Inuyasha yelled as he shook her, Kagome didn't respond she just sat there and let him shake her back and forth. He was really worried now; he knew she was alive because he could hear her heartbeat. But with every beat it sounded irregular, it skipped beats, the beats were uneven.
"Why are her heartbeats uneven?" Inuyasha asked as he looked at Kaede hoping she'd give him an answer.
"Aye, Kagome is in shock. Her heart beats skip two beats a minute. Ye shouldn't worry too much about her, Inuyasha. She will be fine, once she gets over the shock of ye with my sister," Kaede replied, she had a deep frown on her face to show her displeasure when she mentioned her sister.
"No. She won't be fine." Sango said softly as she bit her lip. "I've seen this happen before, with my cousin Mira. She was so heartbroken when she saw the love of her life with another woman, that soon enough she would sit in the same place for days, staring blankly at the wall but not really seeing the wall. Soon enough her heart starting skipping beats. A week later she went into a coma. She never came out of it. Two months later she died." Sango said as she started crying.
"What! You mean that Kagome could die?" Inuyasha said now really worried for Kagome. Now he was feeling guilty; he should of never went and seen Kikyo that night, it's been four hours since he was with Kikyo. He knew he smelled something in the trees. He decided to ignore it, as he made love with Kikyo but never made her his mate. He didn't want Kikyo for that reason, he just needed a release. And now here he was worrying over Kagome's health because the truth was he didn't want her to die. He loved her too damn much to let that happen. He needed to do something, something that would save Kagome's life.
"Yes, that is exactly what I'm saying. If you don't find some way to bring Kagome out of it, she will die. I'm sorry Inuyasha," Sango said as she cried harder. "This is your fault! All because you were with Kikyo a few hours before!" Sango yelled.
'This is my fault. I did this...I don't know what to do. If I lose Kagome, I'd die.' He thought as a tear fell from his eyes.
"Aye, Kagome will be fine. I know of a way young Kagome will live. There is only one way," Kaede said as she looked intently at Kagome still unmoving body.
"What is it!? Please, tell me!" Inuyasha said frantically, he felt like he was hyperventalating. He couldn't take knowing that if they didn't find a cure to Kagome's shock that he'd lose her for good. He didn't want that, he needed to tell him that he loved her, loved her so much. She was his everything, he got him to trust again, to love again. She was always there for him, just like she promised, he knew she loved him. He could see it in her eyes every time he looked at her. And when she saw Kikyo's soul collecters in the sky, he could see the pain in her eyes as clear as day. It hurt him to see her in pain, so now for as long as he lived he would always love her. He would always be there for him as she was for him. He felt bad, always running off to Kikyo because he believed that Kagome would never love a hanyou. Oh how wrong he was. And because of his mistake; Kagome could die.
"She'll have to become a youkai," Kaede said. "Mizuru get me my potions." Kaede said as she gently placed Kagome on a silver table. Kagome blankly looked at the cealing, still not moving. Her eyes were dull, but emotionless, so cold it made him shiver.
Moments later, Mizuru, Kaede's assistant came back in the room with a box filled with glass bottles. The bottles smelled of herbs and other unknown things. In minutes, Kaede whipped up a potion, it was a dark purple and smelled terrible. Inuyasha gagged when his nose caught the scent of it. So he left the room to get away from the scent that humans couldn't smell; it was so strong. Kaede tilted the bottle to Kagome's mouth as she started pouring the potion in Kagome's mouth. As the purple liquid entered Kagome's mouth, Kagome swallowed little by little, she started caughing and gagging. It seems she didn't like the taste of it but soon enough the bottle was empty.
"Good. Now it's only a matter of time before the potion takes effect." Kaede said as she left the room. Everyone followed Kaede out of the room as well. When they closed the door, that is when the potion given to Kagome started to work. Her hair grew until it reached the back of her knees, silver and red streaks appeared in her natural black blue hair, her body matured as she gained curves that put other woman's bodies to shame, her boobs grew from a C cup to a double D cup, she grew a couple inches, her ears pointed, two dark purple stripes appeared on her cheeks, wrists, waist, shoulders, upper and lower thighs, ankles and back. A long black blue tail tipped in silver and red appeared, claws formed where her human nails were and fangs replaced her human canines. Dark purple appeared on her eyelids much like Sesshomaru's, and a dark purple rose appeared in the middle of her forehead. The rose was a symbol that she was a powerful miko, then an amethyst crescent moon appeared around the rose looking like it was holding the rose. The crescent moon was a sign of what kind of demon she was. Kagome the human miko was no more, and in her place was a black inu demoness miko.
Kagome's eyes opened once the transformation was complete, she looked around curiously trying to figure out where she was, when she noticed she was in Kaede's potion room. She raised her delicate black eyebrow she raised her hand to run through her hair when she noticed the silver and red that now ran through her black blue hair, she pulled back her hand and noticed the claws.
'What happened to me?' Kagome asked herself she felt something brushing against her ankles, looking down she saw a fluffy silky black blue tail tipped in silver and red. Sighing getting up off the silver table she had been previously laying on, and walked to the mirror on the other side of the room to see a demoness looking right back at her. Kagome sighed, she was not human anymore that was for sure. She didn't know how she came to be a youkai, but she found that she didn't mind the new change.
'This is different. I wonder what happened.' Kagome thought to herself as she looked herself over.
'I can tell you that.' A voice in her head replied.
'Who are you?' Kagome asked the voice.
'I am you, well the demon part of you. Kaede had to change you into a youkai because if you had stayed in shock from seeing that hanyou with his lover Kikyo, you would have died. No one wanted that for you, and so they saved your life.' Her beast replied.
'Do not mention that name to me.' Kagome snapped coldly at her beast, as she growled to herself.
'Whoa, whoa, I'm sorry. I'll never talk about her again. You need to go see your friends. They are worried about you, including that hanyou.' Her beast said as it mentally waved it's hands back and forth trying to get Kagome to calm down.
'Inuyasha was worried?' She asked, then scoffed. 'Why would he be? He'll never know my love for him. I will keep these feelings hidden until he has proven to me that I could trust him.'
Yes, she would keep these feelings hidden.