Author: theshinykitty

Warning: Angst, Shounen-Ai, Death, Dark-fic

Disclaimer: Naruto ain't mine.

…D'oh! How did this get deleted? (coughsistercough), Okay, well, I'm reposting it now…

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Autocracy

Au-toc-ra-cy, n.; pl. (autocracies); 1. Independent or self-derived power; absolute or controlling authority; supremacy.

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It was... it was... dark.

It numbed my senses, the shadows bound me into their false embrace.

Darkness.

What hollow joy managed to slip through the umbrage was quickly swallowed by my merciless self-loathing.

That is, until I met You.

You were a single bright star in the dim recesses of space. No shadow could come near You. You were... as cliché as it sounds, You were my light.

Every time I saw You, my shadows seemed to recoil; if not only just a little bit.

But when night came, and You were away, they preyed upon me more viciously than ever. Taunting my dreams with the kind of joy I knew I could never have, terrorizing me with relapses of the night when I lost everything I loved, made me toss and turn, sweating, grasping at the sheets as if it were a life preserver, tossed at me as I drowned in my own sea of despair.

But I kept reminding myself, that when day came, I would see You again, and everything would just... fade away, while I basked in Your luminescence.

I vowed to make You mine. I wanted that light. I wanted it more than I wanted vengeance for my family. I wanted to devour that light, and keep it with me; forever.

And, it started with a kiss. A casual thing.

We were painting a fence for our mission, and I went up, and kissed You. Right there. In front of the amused eyes of Kakashi-sensei, and the repulsed eyes of Sakura. And to my surprise, You kissed back.

The sunbeam was within my reach.

It was slow work, but soon, I had You within my arms completely.

We spent nights together, so the shadows seemed to have disappeared, little by little, and fragments of happiness lingered in me long enough to enjoy them now.

I became addicted.

I had to have more. I had to have that brightness. I was soon dissatisfied with simply being near You, I wanted you all to myself.

Your hugs with Iruka-sensei seemed more apparent now, and every word with Your little... friends made me jealous to no end.

I had to own You completely, keep Your heart clutched tight within my iron fist. I had to chain You up, and throw away the key. I wanted Your everything.

Give it to me!

Give me Your heart, Your soul! Give me everything!

I have to devour each and every part of you, suck your bones dry!

Soon, happiness became clouded over with jealousy.

No one deserves You but me!

I won't let them!

You.

Are.

Mine!!

I became disgusted with myself. I rule Your heart as an autocrat, I have what I want, but I can think of nothing but how sickening I am.

I wanted to destroy my sickness.

I want, no, I NEED to destroy You!

And so, as I sit here, telling You this story, my hands wrapped tightly around Your delicious throat, You can finally know, that destroying You, is the path to my own

salvation.

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Creepy…

…Should I write another chapter and make it a… Two-shot?

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