Dear Alphonse
I left you for a reason, because I cannot hold back the guilt. I cannot take that innocence away from you. Your are to damn important to me, I can't taint you.
I have done so much to you and I hate it. I fucking hate what I have done to you. You have no idea what I have done. I took your body away from you. I lost everything, you lost everything. I cannot look you in the eye and say I don't love you.
I love you with all I have, my heart, soul, and everything in between. I hurts to be so far away from you. When ever I take a step farther. My body feels like it is going to fall any moment.
You are the one that keeps me going. You keep me up on my feet, moving forward. You are what keeps me standing tall. Through everything, everything was for you. Fuck... I died for you...I wanted you to be free and to be able to feel, taste, hold, laugh, breath, and love. I wanted you to finally to be able to have Winry's Apple Pie.
Fuck, I wanted to hold you...I still do, even after we sleep. I watch you. I cannot get over the fact that you have a body. It is so unreal. It brings me to tears, to see your eyes light up, and your face glow whenever you smile.
I left because I love you. You need to grow and you cannot when I am around. I'd shield you from the world. No one would even know your name, no one would touch you...
You'd be locked away from what I want you to see.
I love you too much that is my problem...
I'll see you again, so don't worry, I am only gone for the moment. I'll send letters every three days.
So don't wait up, because when I come back you wont be able to walk for some time. I promise you that.
I will always love you and only you.
Love Always
Edward Elric.
P.S.
Only one cat. Any more then that I'll make you sleep alone.