I have no idea how to actually do this so I'm just going to wing it. First fanfic so it's most likely going to be terrible. While listening to lady gaga's paparazzi I got a thought what if Yamato let fame rush to his head and forgot about Taichi leaving him to be a stalker or paparazzi. So ya… I don't even know if I can upload this lol… I hate typing and I'm not all that good so please be easy on me:D Alright then here we go! Oh and I don't know If using song lyrics is permitted or not… So if the story can't be uploaded… Then I'll assume that mistake!

"We are the crowd; we're c-coming out got my flash on its true,

Need that picture of you it's so magical, we'd be so fantastical"

What it's all become, this is the only way to be close, to even see him to be near him. It's a sad truth really trapped feeling like a stalker just to see him in person. And why do I still want to? After he casts us all away for the fame, the taste of money and everyone knowing you, And after all the things we went through as a family he still leaves and does not look back. So here I wait for him to step out camera ready to grab many pictures but still never saying a word. I always thought we would be fantastic… But it can't even happen when you lose all contact. It became a barrier between us. His band I mean, After all the practices and concerts he finally makes it goes to make a record and then he's gone. We all tried to make some contact but he was always busy with some other junk. Why do I even care anymore, why do I still long for him?

"Leather and jeans garage glamorous not sure what it means

But this photo of us it don't have a price ready for those flashing lights cuz you know that baby I"

That's what they wear… Just tiny leather cloths and ripped tight jeans all for the fan girls. It's a sad fate to wait for your old best friend to come out and leave you alone. Oh who am I kidding…? He was always more than a best friend… He was my crush… Still is. I guess this is the real reason I go after him so just the want of him to really be mine… I need him… I long for him.

"I'm your biggest fan I'll follow you until you love me your papa-paparazzi baby there's no other superstar you know that I'll be your papa-paparazzi. Promise I'll be kind but I won't stop until that boy is mine. Baby you'll be famous chase you down until you love me papa-paparazzi"

I guess I really am his biggest fan… And yes I would follow him until he loves me but that changes nothing. He would never love me, how could he if I'm not even seen by him? He is the only one I snap pictures of because he's all I even care about. I can't sleep because I'm haunted by his always shimmering deep blue eyes. I can't tear myself from the image. He won't ever be mine so why do I bother?

"I'll be your girl backstage at your show velvet ropes and guitars ya cuz you're my rock star in between the sets, Eyeliner and cigarettes shadow is burnt yellow dance and we turn my lashes are dry purple tear drops I cry they don't have a price loving you is cherry pie cuz you know that baby I!"

The roar interrupts my thoughts and there he is. His pale skin getting covered by the girls and boys that wish to touch him but can't have him… No one can. They may not know it and he may not know it… But he is mine. My tears fall as I see him get into the limo alone. He never sees me anymore… I've always been there and I'm still a ghost to him! Why can't he see me! Why am I so alone! Why does he not care anymore! The tears flooded my eyes uncontrollably as they slid down my cheeks to hit the hard cement sidewalks. I said it once I'll say it again… He'll never be mine it's just a fantasy. A lie that I tell myself to make all the hurt and pain go away. I'm not even whole anymore… A lie of what I once was. No longer am I that goofy courageous leader that they all looked up to. No now I am gone not being seen by any of them because of how I lash out over him. I can't be whole without him, His friendship and the truth in maybe he loved me as well. I always wonder if everyone knew I loved him more than a friend. No one thought of me to be gay out of the group. It was always him who we all thought would. He was always more feminine then masculine unlike I was much more masculine. My own sister was not close to me anymore. I even drove away the only thing that could somehow make some of the hurt go away, my light in my darkest hour which I caused to flicker out. The tears still falling I walk away not knowing to where my destination is. I all but stop looking and break into a run, trying to escape my feelings. I can't be near you any longer! I will never be with you! Is all my mind screams this is just the sad truth of it all.

I walked with no destination for what seemed like hours. The chill of the night slowly setting in on me I makes me open my eyes. Here I am at the bridge from long ago… The event that brought us together happened right here. It was all odd being here alone for once. I always had some member of the team with me, but here I am alone to weep about loss of something that never was. I'll never talk to him and hell I'll never be with him… So why do I still exist? I slowly reached into my pocket to pull out a small sharp razor. I slowly tested it on a couple fingers. It sliced clean through and stung letting crimson blood flow from them. I looked at the blade and thought shall I really let it end this way? Upon this thought I hear his music blasting in a car going right under the bridge. Tears explode from my eyes again and I shout "I'll never have him! I give it all up! My suffering ends here and now! This is what you've made me come to Yamato Ishida! This is what I've become! Hopeless and alone!" With shouting this I slashed my wrists with the small razor many time praying that I made clean mark and it would be over for me. Blood began to gush from my wounds and I cried harder than ever upon what I'd done. I fell over in a fetal position and finally I hear something that I'd longed to hear for sometime… The sweet angelic voice that I knew and loved so very much.

"Taichi? Oh my god Taichi! What happened to you! Damn it! You won't be killing yourself over me! I won't let you!"

His voice was all I heard. Why now in my final moments do you come to me…? Why now do you listen? My final glimpse was of him dialing franticly on his phone to get an ambulance… But inside I hoped it would all be too late for me… He will never love me. Darkness finally swept over my eyes and I fell into a slumber that I wish would last forever.

So what did you think! I hope to add more to this very soon! Sorry If it's short as I said I hate typing! This will get an add on to it and sorry if it sucks! Please do review!