Years ago

Chapter 1-Knowledge

"You gave me everything I asked for because one night I gave you everything you…" I had to make him stop. Knowing him, I don't think he would had had any trouble finishing his sentence, although at times I think both him and I have buried certain things in the past, if not, we are succeeding on our act. This is our life now, back then even when not many things were different, I believe he used to make it a bit less difficult for me to figure him out, although there's no figuring House out.

So I interrupted him. Acting careless regarding his comment I said: "stop staring at my ass when you think I'm not looking, showing up at restaurants where I happen to be on a date and fantasizing about me in the shower. That ship sailed long time ago House. Get over it." Not that any of the above had ever bothered me, even then I knew what he wanted. He would never hide it, not even from Stacy, which made it awkward at times.

After that, I just turned my back on him and waited for the next joke, the classical come back that didn't take long to hit my ears. As I walked away from him, I had a smile on my lips; his remark on our past, that night that we both locked deep in our memory, had pushed the play button for that chapter of my life.

He was nothing less than extraordinary, yet he wasn't a person you would trust with much; he would use your schedule to mislead you on your professors' teaching methods, your dorm extension to wake you up in the middle of the night, and your roommates to sleep with them and then make them hate you for it. However, he was and still is the only doctor in this world to whom you would trust your life. Because of that, I always had my doubts, I still do. In any way, whatever he did annoying or not he was admirable.

This man had managed to get half the teaching staff against him and yet to be respect by them, he wasn't charming and still most med students wanted to get in his pants. His ego could barely fit inside the walls of UM and probably that was what made his sexist remarks about me so interesting that I actually enjoyed them and didn't mind if they were public, I was always ready with the perfect comeback believing it would make him respect me more, the same that I thought when I took this job.

Eventually, the jokes began to fade, never completely disappeared but the meaning behind them did for five years. At the beginning I didn't understand, however I could imagine why. It wasn't easy and it used to drive me crazy, but seeing how much he loved Stacy gave me comfort as irrational as it sounds. For me it was the knowledge of him being able to actually love another human being , what was valuable.

Stacy was made for him. She wouldn't take any of his shit, always would let him know what was on her mind, strong but flexible when necessary… In a way I hated that. I was her in that aspect and he wouldn't see it. It must had been weird for her having me around him, since she knew what had happened between us, but she was strong and even let me know that she knew about it, and because of that I always had a high regard for her. The way she is, so honest , is weird for a lawyer, being this a quality that most of them lack of.

The few times we have gotten to see each other and House is in the room, I still get the feeling from that day when we bumped into each other at the university. There she was, patiently waiting for him to come out of class so they could have lunch together and as I passed by waving hello she said to me: "he admires you, and that's a lot coming from him. I think you should know that." After that day somehow I started to see her as a friend, it was funny to see how awkward that was for him at times, including that day. When he was walking toward us and saw that it was me who she was talking and sharing their meal with, his face changed. Immediately he turned to his jokes saying "Stacy… you know you are not supposed to feed them, they will always come back for more". She smiled and rolled her eyes at him and I stood up and left it wasn't the comment that made me leave but the fact that I really didn't want to be there and see what the rest of the day would be like for them. Besides, there was no point in torturing myself if I was about to graduate and I was sure I might never had to see him again. If only I had known…