(1)
My eyes flicker open and alight on a vast, white expanse, that could be a
ceiling, or a floor, depending on which way up I'm lying.
Which way up *am* I lying?
Oh, it's a ceiling. Wait, the whole room's white. At least I think it's a
room. Lots of white, as far as I can see. This is probably what the fitting
rooms in Macy's are going to be like after the new modern upgrade. In fact,
this could be the fitting room in Macy's after the new modern upgrade, and I
fell asleep while I was getting changed. Only I can't see the door, or a
curtain, or any mirrors, and I'm fully clothed. So maybe I'm asleep and I
fell into a Gap advert. Wait, wait. Cordelia Chase does *not* dream about
Gap. In fact --
Oh. Oh, God, I -- I --
"Sure did, honey."
Okay. Someone who sounds like the male version of Megan Mullally is in my
dream? I mean, I died already. This is the worst nightmare ever. Then
again... I haul myself to my feet, dusting down my shirt and skirt. Icky
white dust clings to me. Euuww. Whoever is in charge of this place should
look at the price tag of my outfit before they destroy it. Well, at least
someone's talking to me. That indicates that my previous suspicion was
wrong. I turn around and see Mr Mullally. A guy with long, greasy black
hair, wearing a white Japanese robe thing (Prada's latest collection, if I'm
not mistaken), filing nails painted black (or maybe just really dirty) and
sitting on a white breeze block. Oh, I see what's happened here. I'm awake,
but I somehow passed out in Buffy's Mom's art gallery. Only that art gallery
doesn't look like this, and there's not another one in Sunnydale. And I
*know* I would've remembered passing out in the Tate Modern. What the heck
is going on here? Have I gone crazy and nobody thought it was important to
tell me? Yeah, that'd be typical of Willow, and Buffy, and probably Oz with
all his stoicy -- stoicness.
"What's going on?" I demand, hands on slender hips, full on pout. "And for
the record, you're a leather man. No Hell's Angel has ever been able to
carry off white Prada, especially not with a complexion like that."
The guy looks at me lazily for a moment before breaking into a laugh. "Oh
dear, Cordelia," he rumbles in a voice that sounds like oil on gravel, if
you can imagine that. "You haven't got it yet, have you? This isn't a
promotion for the Prada Spring/Summer collection. This is God's fashion
show. God label. Don't you know where you are?"
I frown. "Does Stella McCartney design for you? I don't think I've heard--"
"Take a look around," he suggests, and goes back to filing his nails.
I spiral slowly, trying to take in all my surroundings. It's not hard. The
color scheme is pretty much... well, white, as far as I can see, and there's
something pretty disconcerting about it. I mean, you can't see where the
floor turns into the walls and the walls turn into the ceiling. A girl like
me could walk into stuff. "God's fashion show. God label," I repeat
thoughtfully. "Some kind of weird art gallery, right? Or am I having a
really awful dream?"
"Your dreams are usually worse than this," he tells me bluntly. Which I
already know, but I don't get how he does. I mean, he couldn't know that I
dream about Willow being turned into a test tube and Xander bursting into
flames. That one's more recent. "You're wrong on both counts. Did you ever
see the film Ghost?"
"Oh, please. Just because one nerdy guy cheated on me does not mean that I
have to surrender to complete unending geekiness. I do *have* a life."
"Not strictly true," he replies, and I wish that he'd be a little less blase
when talking about my whole entire existence. "Allow me to introduce myself.
I'm Azrael. Official title, Angel of Death. And you, Cordelia Chase, are
currently in what I like to call Halfway House."
I roll my eyes. "And I guess that has some dorky official title too. Who do
you think I am? Did Xander put you up to this? I'm not stupid, you know."
"Official title: The Stopping Point Between The Gutter And The Stars. But
that's irrelevant. And I can assure you that a), I know exactly who you are,
b), Xander did not put me up to this, and c), your intelligence is currently
debatable." I continue to glare at him, and he sighs. "Cordelia, must I
spell it out?"
"I guess you must," I retort.
"You're dead."
*
When my eyes flicker open (again), I'm still trapped in the Gap advert, and
Azrael (stupid name, stupid haircut) is standing over me, still filing his
stupid nails (I hope the polish chips) and looking amused. If I wasn't so
pissed off I'd take back the comment about his complexion. He actually has
pretty great skin.
"How's the view from down there?" he mocks me, then laughs hoarsely. Ugh,
he's so irritating!
"Listen, you," I say crossly, clambering to my feet (thank God none of
*them* can see me now). "One, I cannot be dead. I'm young, I'm healthy, and
most of all, I'm pretty. I should be in hell, okay? It's a sin to look this
good. And two, the view from down *there* is exactly the same as the view
from up *here*, get it? So I think that maybe I get the right to laugh at
*you*, seeing as how you're stuck in this same boring place for your whole
entire -- forever, and at least *I* am going to get a change of scene!"
"Rant all you like, honeybunch," Azrael says smoothly. "But get used to it.
You. Are. Dead. No if's, but's, or refunds. D-E-A-D. And as it happens, I do
get a change of scenery. Once a month, I get a weekend in my Hawaiian
penthouse. So, nerr."
"Oh, penthouse schmenthouse," I say childishly, and slump onto another
breezeblock. "So, I'm dead. Explain. Defend. Since when, and how? 'Cause I
don't remember a thing, and before you say anything stupid, I bet girls say
that to you *all* the time."
Azrael ignores my newfound immaturity (damn Xander ! I knew there would be
some effect from hanging with him!) and replies, "A couple of vampires got
you, in your high school library. About an hour ago, allowing for your
fainting fit. Do you black out often? Just so I know whether to get smelling
salts in."
Now it's my turn to block out his immaturity. "In the library? Vampires?
This is like the wackiest game of Clue ever. Read my lips: Buffy -- you know
about Buffy, right? -- Buffy makes sure that vampires don't get me.
Particularly in the high school library. That's like Slayer central. So why
don't you toddle off and recheck your file and I'll wait on the breezeblock
looking smug."
Azrael raises his eyes heavenward and gets ready to reply when a high pitch
beep starts emitting from the pocket of his robe. "Excuse me," he says,
pulling a beeper out.
"Oh, what-*ever*. Now I know you're kidding me. Am I supposed to believe
that angels -- even ones that want to be the Fonz -- have beepers? Does
Xander know how deeply unfunny his practical jokes are getting? Tell him
from me: as the scale rises, the humor fades. Okay?"
"If I were you, I'd step back."
"What? I'm trying to argue with you! Look, the joke's over, okay? So I don't
have to step--"
"Cordelia, if I were you, I'd just do it."
Despite everything, I'm about to move when I'm knocked to the floor by
something extremely heavy. I shriek and drop to the ground. Winded, I shove
at the dead weight in an attempt to get it off me and grab a handful of hair
in my eagerness to be freed from this lump -- and scream again. It's blonde.
"Ewww! Ewwwww!" I squeal, crawling away from the body quickly and staggering
to my feet. "Azrael! You let a corpse drop on me! Do you know how much this
skirt *cost*?"
"I warned you," he says, uninterested. "You should have a closer look,
really examine this 'corpse'. You might understand something about your
earlier comment."
"What? What comment?" I poke at the corpse gingerly with my toe and then
dance back as the corpse sits up.
It's Buffy.
"Cordelia!" she yells, jumping to her feet.
"Buffy!" I shout back. "You're -" I look at Azrael. "Her too?"
He nods gravely. "'Fraid so. Oh, and another thing. Your fault."
"My fault? I didn't kill her!"
He sighs. "It's a long story. Let me explain..."
My eyes flicker open and alight on a vast, white expanse, that could be a
ceiling, or a floor, depending on which way up I'm lying.
Which way up *am* I lying?
Oh, it's a ceiling. Wait, the whole room's white. At least I think it's a
room. Lots of white, as far as I can see. This is probably what the fitting
rooms in Macy's are going to be like after the new modern upgrade. In fact,
this could be the fitting room in Macy's after the new modern upgrade, and I
fell asleep while I was getting changed. Only I can't see the door, or a
curtain, or any mirrors, and I'm fully clothed. So maybe I'm asleep and I
fell into a Gap advert. Wait, wait. Cordelia Chase does *not* dream about
Gap. In fact --
Oh. Oh, God, I -- I --
"Sure did, honey."
Okay. Someone who sounds like the male version of Megan Mullally is in my
dream? I mean, I died already. This is the worst nightmare ever. Then
again... I haul myself to my feet, dusting down my shirt and skirt. Icky
white dust clings to me. Euuww. Whoever is in charge of this place should
look at the price tag of my outfit before they destroy it. Well, at least
someone's talking to me. That indicates that my previous suspicion was
wrong. I turn around and see Mr Mullally. A guy with long, greasy black
hair, wearing a white Japanese robe thing (Prada's latest collection, if I'm
not mistaken), filing nails painted black (or maybe just really dirty) and
sitting on a white breeze block. Oh, I see what's happened here. I'm awake,
but I somehow passed out in Buffy's Mom's art gallery. Only that art gallery
doesn't look like this, and there's not another one in Sunnydale. And I
*know* I would've remembered passing out in the Tate Modern. What the heck
is going on here? Have I gone crazy and nobody thought it was important to
tell me? Yeah, that'd be typical of Willow, and Buffy, and probably Oz with
all his stoicy -- stoicness.
"What's going on?" I demand, hands on slender hips, full on pout. "And for
the record, you're a leather man. No Hell's Angel has ever been able to
carry off white Prada, especially not with a complexion like that."
The guy looks at me lazily for a moment before breaking into a laugh. "Oh
dear, Cordelia," he rumbles in a voice that sounds like oil on gravel, if
you can imagine that. "You haven't got it yet, have you? This isn't a
promotion for the Prada Spring/Summer collection. This is God's fashion
show. God label. Don't you know where you are?"
I frown. "Does Stella McCartney design for you? I don't think I've heard--"
"Take a look around," he suggests, and goes back to filing his nails.
I spiral slowly, trying to take in all my surroundings. It's not hard. The
color scheme is pretty much... well, white, as far as I can see, and there's
something pretty disconcerting about it. I mean, you can't see where the
floor turns into the walls and the walls turn into the ceiling. A girl like
me could walk into stuff. "God's fashion show. God label," I repeat
thoughtfully. "Some kind of weird art gallery, right? Or am I having a
really awful dream?"
"Your dreams are usually worse than this," he tells me bluntly. Which I
already know, but I don't get how he does. I mean, he couldn't know that I
dream about Willow being turned into a test tube and Xander bursting into
flames. That one's more recent. "You're wrong on both counts. Did you ever
see the film Ghost?"
"Oh, please. Just because one nerdy guy cheated on me does not mean that I
have to surrender to complete unending geekiness. I do *have* a life."
"Not strictly true," he replies, and I wish that he'd be a little less blase
when talking about my whole entire existence. "Allow me to introduce myself.
I'm Azrael. Official title, Angel of Death. And you, Cordelia Chase, are
currently in what I like to call Halfway House."
I roll my eyes. "And I guess that has some dorky official title too. Who do
you think I am? Did Xander put you up to this? I'm not stupid, you know."
"Official title: The Stopping Point Between The Gutter And The Stars. But
that's irrelevant. And I can assure you that a), I know exactly who you are,
b), Xander did not put me up to this, and c), your intelligence is currently
debatable." I continue to glare at him, and he sighs. "Cordelia, must I
spell it out?"
"I guess you must," I retort.
"You're dead."
*
When my eyes flicker open (again), I'm still trapped in the Gap advert, and
Azrael (stupid name, stupid haircut) is standing over me, still filing his
stupid nails (I hope the polish chips) and looking amused. If I wasn't so
pissed off I'd take back the comment about his complexion. He actually has
pretty great skin.
"How's the view from down there?" he mocks me, then laughs hoarsely. Ugh,
he's so irritating!
"Listen, you," I say crossly, clambering to my feet (thank God none of
*them* can see me now). "One, I cannot be dead. I'm young, I'm healthy, and
most of all, I'm pretty. I should be in hell, okay? It's a sin to look this
good. And two, the view from down *there* is exactly the same as the view
from up *here*, get it? So I think that maybe I get the right to laugh at
*you*, seeing as how you're stuck in this same boring place for your whole
entire -- forever, and at least *I* am going to get a change of scene!"
"Rant all you like, honeybunch," Azrael says smoothly. "But get used to it.
You. Are. Dead. No if's, but's, or refunds. D-E-A-D. And as it happens, I do
get a change of scenery. Once a month, I get a weekend in my Hawaiian
penthouse. So, nerr."
"Oh, penthouse schmenthouse," I say childishly, and slump onto another
breezeblock. "So, I'm dead. Explain. Defend. Since when, and how? 'Cause I
don't remember a thing, and before you say anything stupid, I bet girls say
that to you *all* the time."
Azrael ignores my newfound immaturity (damn Xander ! I knew there would be
some effect from hanging with him!) and replies, "A couple of vampires got
you, in your high school library. About an hour ago, allowing for your
fainting fit. Do you black out often? Just so I know whether to get smelling
salts in."
Now it's my turn to block out his immaturity. "In the library? Vampires?
This is like the wackiest game of Clue ever. Read my lips: Buffy -- you know
about Buffy, right? -- Buffy makes sure that vampires don't get me.
Particularly in the high school library. That's like Slayer central. So why
don't you toddle off and recheck your file and I'll wait on the breezeblock
looking smug."
Azrael raises his eyes heavenward and gets ready to reply when a high pitch
beep starts emitting from the pocket of his robe. "Excuse me," he says,
pulling a beeper out.
"Oh, what-*ever*. Now I know you're kidding me. Am I supposed to believe
that angels -- even ones that want to be the Fonz -- have beepers? Does
Xander know how deeply unfunny his practical jokes are getting? Tell him
from me: as the scale rises, the humor fades. Okay?"
"If I were you, I'd step back."
"What? I'm trying to argue with you! Look, the joke's over, okay? So I don't
have to step--"
"Cordelia, if I were you, I'd just do it."
Despite everything, I'm about to move when I'm knocked to the floor by
something extremely heavy. I shriek and drop to the ground. Winded, I shove
at the dead weight in an attempt to get it off me and grab a handful of hair
in my eagerness to be freed from this lump -- and scream again. It's blonde.
"Ewww! Ewwwww!" I squeal, crawling away from the body quickly and staggering
to my feet. "Azrael! You let a corpse drop on me! Do you know how much this
skirt *cost*?"
"I warned you," he says, uninterested. "You should have a closer look,
really examine this 'corpse'. You might understand something about your
earlier comment."
"What? What comment?" I poke at the corpse gingerly with my toe and then
dance back as the corpse sits up.
It's Buffy.
"Cordelia!" she yells, jumping to her feet.
"Buffy!" I shout back. "You're -" I look at Azrael. "Her too?"
He nods gravely. "'Fraid so. Oh, and another thing. Your fault."
"My fault? I didn't kill her!"
He sighs. "It's a long story. Let me explain..."
