Everything Was Perfect

Things had begun to finally look up for me

I had a job as an officer of the best line in the world

I got along with my fellow officers

I worked for money and made and honest living

A few of my fellow officers and I even befriended each other

We worked as a team, knowing one another's strengths and weaknesses

Looked out for each other, making sure everyone aboard was safe

It was the way the life of an officer should be

Until she struck the iceberg.

Then it seemed as if our captain and chief officer

Had mentally shut down and didn't know what to do

Or how to face such a dire prospect as the unsinkable ship going down

Perhaps that is why they were unable to take charge when we needed them most

And that is why our First Officer has stepped up to become the person

Who is responsible for saving as many aboard as possible.

He will be one of the last to get off, he wants to make sure

Everyone else that can be saved is safe, that's just who he is.

Now everything seems to be going wrong:

People are panicking, not that I blame them,

The ship is sinking faster than we can load people on the boats

Passengers are refusing to leave

Refusing to listen to the officers who are trying to save them, thinking they know better Than the officers whose jobs it is to keep them safe while traveling

Oh God what is happening here?

I just heard gun shots and people screaming.

Only the Chief, First, and Second Officers have guns, aside from myself, please tell me None of my fellow officers have shot one of the passengers or themselves!

None of them are that cowardly!

Maybe they were just trying to prevent the passengers from rushing the boats!

It wasn't Murdoch I can see that now, he's still loading the lifeboats

Lights wouldn't shoot himself or the passengers, he might threaten to but he would never Shoot one of them or himself, that's not his way.

But our chief officer might have shot himself, just not being able to take the strain that The sight of panicking passengers any longer.

Please don't let that be the case! We are already going to lose enough good people this Night, there is no need for anyone to take their life.

Do they know that there isn't much time left?

Is that why they are ordering me to man this lifeboat?

Does Murdoch know that he won't survive? Does Moody?

Is that why they are bidding me goodbye and good luck?

None of us deserves this!

We all have people back home who are waiting for us.

People who in only a few hours will be widows, widowers, orphans.

None of these people should have to die this night.

I have to return and save as many as I possibly can, if I can save even one life, it will be worth the horrors I may see and won't ever forget.