Prologue

People don't know what I am.

In fact, I'm not entirely sure how it's possible to be what I am, which is precisely why I do what I do.

I hide. I'm good at it, too. Hiding in plain sight. Sounds ridiculous I know, especially for a 16-year-old to be doing this, although I've certainly seen it in on the telly enough times. I've been doing it so well for so long it's kind of become second nature.

But all this is neither here nor there, is it?

Let me explain then, I'm a wizard. Which would be perfectly fine, there's plenty around, even have their own classes in school. I'm mates with several of them myself. Granted, I only started befriending wizards because I wanted more information about being a wizard, seeing as I couldn't come out with it like everybody else, and now some of them are really good friends and I don't regret that decision at all.

Honestly, if I was just a wizard, I would've gladly announced it to the world and joined them in the classes. There's no fear in being a wizard. IF you're just a wizard. That's where my trouble really begins, you know? Because I'm not just a wizard. I'm a guide, too.

And, yes, I know, now a days being a guide isn't so bad. Nobody forces bodings anymore and there's so many around that it's really no big deal and once you've found your bond-mate or whatever you can go to school like everyone else. You have laws and rights now. Not really free though. Not my definition of freedom anyway, to be bound to someone your entire life and never allowed to really tread too far away from them. Heaven forbid you want to go to school out of the country. If your sentinel doesn't agree, then as his or her guide you're not going anywhere, but still they all look fairly happy. I have plenty of mates who are guides and sentinels in school too. Befriended them for the same reasons as I tried so hard to be friends with wizards. Lack of information drove me to them.

None of them seemed to mind so much though. All my questions I mean, or lending me their books on the subject. Of course, I was clever about it, least I think so, I told them all I wanted to be a doctor in the future. A well rounded one that could work with all types. Surprisingly enough, they all seemed to agree that there was lack of non-magic, non-sentinel doctors that were truly empathetic in their treatment of both. Magic could do wonderful things for healing, but sometimes a regular doctor was all that was available or needed and half the time the sentinels and guides could be a bit too sensitive to magic. Could have adverse effects, but if the wizard is especially trained to handle them then it certainly assisted their cause.

Still, it was fairly easy to get close to all of them and in some odd ways, I've bridge the invisible gap that existed between the sentinel, guides, and wizards in my school. Mostly, I think the guides never minded magic, but their sentinels are more sensitive about it, possibly due to lack of information as well. They all seem to get on well enough now. Least the ones I'm mates with do.

Sorry, I've gone quite off subject, haven't I?

I ramble sometimes, especially when I'm nervous and today I'm truly, truly nervous.

I'll get to that in a bit though, for now let me get back to my subject.

Never.

Never ever.

And, believe me, I have researched the shite out of this.

Never ever, in the history of all guides, sentinels and wizards has there been a wizard guide. There's never been a wizard sentinel either, but that's not the point.

Lucky, lucky me, that I'm both.

Of course, because I'm not odd enough, I had to present as both, right? Right?!

So lucky, lucky me.

At first, when I found out I was a guide. I was quite upset about it. All guides are taken to the "specialized" guide training schools until their sentinel is found and only after are they able to have a semi-normal life. As normal as a life you could have when being bonded to a sentinel. Which like I said, isn't really bad nowadays, but still, even at such a young age, I couldn't imagine having myself attached to one person for the rest of my life. Making decisions for my future based on their needs. I wanted to make my own decisions for myself. If I want to leave the country or move or anything, I didn't want to have to ask for permission.

So when the day came, and the day always comes when they tested you, I hid it. I put up barriers and made myself seem as much of a mute as I could possibly be, which I might say at the age of 8, was quite an impressive feat to be able to find out how to do. Especially seeing as I had no prior training, but I did it and I was smart enough to realize that if I didn't want to be carted off to guide school that I needed to keep it up. Not just for the test. Everyday. No one could notice, and I definitely had to stop reading others emotions, they influenced me far too much and someone might notice that too.

So while I was living with my aunt Claurice and uncle Teddy, I was unendingly grateful that my uncle worked as a scientist with guides and sentinels. He was helping develop medicine and calculate proper dosages for them. This lead to him having loads of books on the subject and I studied them endlessly. Which, if you knew me, you'd know that was quite unusual for me to do. My aunt had even asked me, "What's gotten into you all of a sudden?" I told her I was just curious and luckily enough she let me be (it wasn't until later I came up with the doctor excuse).

Then, a year later, and purely by accident, I found out I was a wizard as well. It was kind of silly actually, I'd gotten into a fight with my cousin and accidentally managed to push her into mud at the park. Except, I hadn't touched her, wasn't anywhere near her. My aunt had thought she'd fallen, but I remembered thinking about it so hard and then it happened. I wasn't sure how, but I knew I'd done it.

And after some research, I found out exactly how. Magic. So I was in an expedition to learn all about that now, too. And then, because I had to, I started asking questions.

"Uncle Teddy, what is it like for guides who are wizards too? What do they do?"

My uncle chuckled, "Merlin, there's no such thing."

NO. SUCH. THING.

Of course, he was apparently wrong. Because clearly there is such a thing if I'm here now, right?

What he said scared me to death. It scared me because if I was ever found out, what would happen to me? In accordance to him, there's no place for someone like me in the world, is there? What would they do with me? There isn't a guide-wizard school. Just a guide school. Wizards just get extra classes or can go to an all wizards school if their parents are willing to pay for it.

So I made the decision to hide that too.

Hide it all.

If I was a mute, a normal, nobody would bother with me at all. No one would ever pay me any mind. I could find ways to learn about both things. Strengthen my empathetic shields and my magic and find a way to always, always keep it to myself and no one would take me anywhere.

People don't know what I am. Can't know. Won't know.

And that was most definitely that.

Author's note: Spur of the moment sort of thing. May not continue. Although, I'll be honest, if I have someone help me with it I might be more willing. I'm in that kind of a mood.