Disclaimer: I don't own Maid Sama.

I was writing this while listening to Supermodel by SZA. She gives me such feels. Check her out. And make sure y'all review and favorite.

I wish I was pretty. I wish I was good enough. And most of all, I wish I was comfortable with myself.

How is it fair that you get everything? That you're perfect in everything you do? It amazes me and infuriates me at the same time. Even in high school, I was always competing with you. Whether it came to sports or test scores, you always had an upper hand.

And I hated it.

But what I hated the most was how much I needed you. It pains me to say it, but it's true. I couldn't have gone through high school without you. You saved me from people finding out my secret. You saved me from Kanou's hypnotizing. You saved me from Igarashi Tora. I always carried myself as an independent girl to hide up the ugliness, but that was far from the truth. I needed you.

One thing I never understood is why? Why would you fall in love with someone so ugly? Someone so messed up? Someone clearly not suited for your perfection? You were perfect in every way - from your shiny golden hair, your smoldering forest green eyes, your beautiful nose, your sharp jaw line, your physique - you were the epitome of beauty. So how could you settle for me?

That's right. You couldn't settle for me. Because now you're getting married to someone else.

Am I that easy to forget? Did I really mean so little to you that you could simply discard me and marry someone else? Was I really that much of a burden to you? You probably grew tired or bored of me. After all, those "cute expressions" could only provide so much entertainment.

How I wish I was the one who would wear that white dress. I wish I was the one who would walk alongside those aisles with you. I wish I was the one you would call beautiful. I wish I was the one who would spend the rest of my life with you.

But no. You left me for a prettier woman. You left me for someone who could finally walk alongside you, instead of running and trying to catch up to you. You left me for someone better. And although my heart is breaking while writing this, I have to get this out of my heart one last time before I never see you again. Before you leave for England - this time forever.

Thank you. Although it was for a short time, I wanted to thank you for making me feel loved and special, like I was good enough. They were lies, but they meant so much to me. So thank you, because I don't think I'll ever feel that way again.

I promise I'll cut off all ties with you. I promise I won't ever try to contact you. I promise I won't interfere in your perfect life with that perfect woman. Although it'll kill me, I'll do it. I promise. But let me say this one last time before you leave me forever - I love you. I've loved you from the moment you saw me in that Maid Latte alley, no matter how much I tried to deny it. And the truth is, I will always love you. Even when I'm old and gray, I'll never forget the man who once made me feel loved.

You were once mine. I had the chance to make you happy, but I couldn't. I hope you have a blessed life. Take care of your lucky wife. You deserve all the beauty and happiness in the world.

And maybe I'll finally find happiness someday...or maybe I won't.

All I know is that I love you, Usui Takumi.

Sincerely,

Misaki Ayuzawa

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