This Gift I Give to You: Summoning the Ghost

by The Poly Lama

My name's Jace. My girlfriend recently had to kill her own brother. Granted, he was a demonic megalomaniac, obsessed with her and with ruling world, but still. The point is, she mourns him. It pains me to see her hurt. What if, there is a non-demonic version of him, from another AU I can find and bring back to her, should I? Would you? *Warnings: Smut, Gay/Bi/Poly, Language, etc.!*

1. Introduction

What Would I Give for Love?

Jace Herondale couldn't sleep again. He hadn't been able to sleep very much lately at all. Sebastian's last words to Clary kept echoing through his mind. 'If there are other worlds, then maybe there is one where I was a good brother and a good son.' He had said. Oh how Jace wished Clary could have had that, a real brother. Not some demonic monster bent on razing the world to the ground. If there was one thing that Jace wished he could give his beloved Clary, it was that. For just a moment it had seemed like, maybe Jonathan would survive the heavenly fire. For just one moment he was, the boy he should have been. And that had only succeeded in making his death even harder on Clary and her mother.

Jace had hoped things would be better after Clary had the chance to scatter Jonathan's ashes, and really, she seemed to be handling it okay. It was he himself who was having the most trouble. He would toss and turn at night, hearing Jonathan's words over and over again.

'If there are other worlds,'

'Maybe, I was a good brother.'

'If there are other worlds,'

'If there are other worlds,'

'If there are other worlds,'

But wait! There are other worlds! Jace bolted out of bed at the realization. The inter-dimensional apartment Jonathan had used of Valentine's was proof enough that there really are alternate dimensions. Surely, in some other dimensions, there must be alternate versions of us? He thought. And if that's true, then maybe I can find a dimension where Jonathan really was a good brother to Clary, and not tainted by demon's blood. Maybe there is a way that I can give Clary her brother back. Maybe I can find a way to take this loss from her. But even if I can, do I want to? And what might it cost me if I do? Should I do this? He wondered. Should I try to find a way to bring back Jonathan, the real Jonathan? And what if I get her hopes up, only to find out it can't possibly be done? No, I'd have to keep it a complete secret from her until I had accomplished the impossible. So, do I try it? What do I do?

What should Jace do? What would you do? What lengths should a person go to for love?