Resignation
Over and over again I ran past this. Did not want to look at, did not want to enter this place. Who do it want this already? Everybody, also me, edged out this thought to have to go there. But sometime this time will catch up us and then we would be all there.
Deadly.
Lifelessly.
Why does one live, only to return behind his life?
Giving and taking. If I consider it in such a way, it is an unfair deal.
Many people wish a life after the death. Many say, 'Nothing' would come. What should come there also largely already? I'll wait.
The sheets whirled up from the ground when a strong wind gust arose. The sky was blue beaming, I saw only few clouds. The sun seemed.
Still a deep breath, before I entered the place of the silence. Immediately a rotten feeling surrounded me. I did not want to be here. Actually. But I wanted to do her one favour.
After I have crossed a big, bald green arrangement, I came to her grave.
For the first time I saw it. My breath went faster, so that almost the air stayed away to me. To me, I became all of a sudden bad and strangled something.
„Condemns …", I whispered to myself.
Their grave was dreary and empty. Only a white marble stone adorned it.
„Akemi … why don't you have belonged on me … Nevertheless, I knew it, he has not been good for you, this …", I crunched with the teeth, was infuriated. In me it bubbled.
However, then I sank my head.
Silence. I allowed to spread the time.
Somewhere birds twittered. They came along certainly on in the south, soon. Any animal rustled in the foliage heap. Certain in search of some comestibles.
„Akemi … I love you. For good. I hope, we soon meet somewhere again.", I said, finally, laid a few more flowers on her grave and left it.
The resignation was difficult, but I was not able to stay here anymore. Always I would be reminded of the evening in whom I got said that she died.
In me a world broke down. I could only rebuild them, while I found him and could take revenge.