Soundscape to Ardour

( Gin x Rangiku fan fic)

"Gin!!!" Rangiku jumped from the rooftop of the building where I think she saw me torn apart from my arm and was eventually stabbed by Captain Aizen. She readily jumped onto me and her tears poured immediately that drenched almost half of my face.

She grabbed me on my collar and showed me how I was able to make her cry with a crumpled face.

I just smiled. Remembering the past that she was almost as stoic as a robot that the 12th squad developed.

"No! Don't die on me!!!" she shook me but I was too numb to feel the shaking.

My sight is getting blury and I was abashed to have her see me like this. I was hoping that I could go back to here with the Hakufuku in my grip... but I was wrong.

I guess that is a broken promise then. I'm sorry, Rangiku.

I remembered when the three of us, Captain Aizen, Kaname and committed a coupe d' tat against the whole Soul Society. The captains went all berserk and the way they glared at us were really scalding but I've got no choice.

I don't want to betray my home but... I just have to do it for the sake of the only family I have.

We were bound to be gone when Rangiku came and got a hold of my hand but her grasp was really weak that I could slip.

How I wish she held me a little bit tight.

Maybe, that could change my mind.

"I'm sorry Rangiku... only if you held me a little bit tightier." I told her.

She did not move and just took a few steps away from me and like the other soul reaper watching our departure, she remained on her place and with a grimace.

I wanted to profess the feelings I long held back for me not to find any reason for cowery but my voice was nowhere to be found in my vocal chord. I am really dying. The last sense that I could lose will be my hearing but before that I wanted to hear your voice more. Can you do the confession that I failed to do a couple of decades back?

I admit, that was too demanding for that.

I tried reaching out her face with my other arm but I was too weak to do so.

I saw you lying on the ground that night. You were like a beggar that I wanted to offer every thing I have and I saw people who took a gem from you. I wanted to do the revenge for you.

That's why maybe I became a snake, a way too thick skinned to be called your ally or your enemy but I will prefer to be the one on your side.

I love you, Rangiku.

I'm sorry, I didn't get what they took back from you. I'm a failure again. I don't deserve to tell you this but I really love you.

If only you could...

"Gin!!!" she was still sobbing and tears were dripping from her eyes which soaked all of my face.

I see.

Maybe, a person who'll cry in the moment of your death cherish you the way you do to them.

Don't worry, woman, I get it. I smiled as the only memento she'll see before I took my last huff.

The end