I stand over the hospital bed, all I can hear is the beeping of the machines, and Christian is lying motionless, his hands at his sides, his skin pale and IV attached to his arm. I can feel the tears building in my throat, but I just don't want to cry in front of everyone. Just two days ago Christian and I were planning our future, just two days ago we had made love, and my insides still quiver at the thought. Then suddenly, without a warning Charlie Tango goes down, taking my love with. I feel partly to blame, Christian had begged me to stay at Escala and not go leave, but I had taken Sawyer with me and I knew that I was safe. Damn Christian Grey and his control issues. Now he was lying in an induced coma, I want to scream at him, shake him even; all I want is for him to wake up. So I can tell him that I am sorry, so I can tell him that I love him. So I can look into his eyes and see the love he feels for me.
"Ana you should go home and get some rest." Grace says to me, rubbing my arms to soothe me.
"I want to be here Grace, he could wake up at any time and I want to be here when he does."
"You need to rest Ana, he is in good hands."
"No Grace, I can't leave him." I say firmly.
Grace can see that she is not going to win, she gives up, hugs me and leaves, each member of the family in turns hug me and tell me that everything will be fine.
"Ana if you need me, just call me." Kate says.
I hug her and send her off with Elliot, I just want to be alone with Christian, and I just want to talk to him. To bring him home, I know he can hear me.
"Please come back to me Christian." I say stroking his face.
"I cannot live without you, I need you."
It's been a week already and nothing had happened, he is breathing on his own but still not awake, the doctors can't say if he will be fine or not. All they can say is hope and pray, he could wake up and have lost all his motion skills, he could not wake up at all but I don't want to think of that, I want to think positive, I want him to wake up and be Christian Powerful Grey. I want him to spank me for leaving Escala and then make love to me like only he can.
"Ms Steele." Taylor disturbs my train of thoughts.
"Yes Taylor." I ask feeling weak as I speak.
"Gail has sent you some lunch and a fresh set of clothes, would you like me to watch Mr Grey while you freshen up?"
"No thank you Taylor, I can manage." I say trying to smile at him.
"Call if you need anything." Taylor says and turns to walk away.
"Taylor." I call out his name.
"Yes Ms Steele." He asks.
"Is he going to wake up?" I ask.
"Yes, he is a fighter; he will be awake soon enough." Taylor says with a reassuring smile.
I want to believe it so much; just hearing someone say those words gives me hope. I place a kiss on Christian's head and head to the adjoining bathroom to freshen up. I look in the mirror and I'm paler than normal, my eyes feel like they have sunk deep into my eye socket. In total I look scary, but I need to be here for him. As I step out I hear a moan, I rush over to Christian's side and watch him, he doesn't move or open his eyes, after a few minutes he lets out another throaty moan. I quickly call the nurse.
Could this be it, could he finally be waking up?