Sunday, June 13, 2010
Dear Diary,
So this is it? This is what I have as a life? Everyone else is happy and in love, and me…desperate and helpless? Really? Why do I have to sit back, miserable and alone, and watch everybody gaze at each other with mushy-gushy, lovey-dovey expressions? I want in on the action too! I think I deserve a "happily ever after" seeing as I was the one who mashed everyone else together. I'm like the "puppet master" of the group if you will. Don't you think my so-called best friends should help me nab a certain southern gentleman, who I have been ogling all my life, just as I had for them? I could only wish though.
I mean, helped Emmett get Rose after he drooled over her as soon as he hit puberty for crying out loud! That was hard work due to Rose's then boyfriend, but we got rid of him easily. Don't even ask me how. And don't even get me started on Edward and Bella! It took a lot of blood, sweat and tears, figuratively of course, to get them to stop being stupid and just kiss each other to death!
The only thing that makes my situation even worse and more complicated is that the man of my dreams, the love of my life, the MOST amazing (and every other synonym to that word in a thesaurus) man in the world is my best friend, Jasper. With his luscious, soft light-golden locks, his gorgeous, liquid blue eyes and his adorably alluring southern accent there are MANY, and I mean many, girls who constantly chase after him. I usually get quite possessive and jealous when it comes to girls flirting with him, but every time they do, Jasper, the polite gentleman he is, turns them down gently. Every time. That always makes me feel a tad better. Jasper has also never had a serious girlfriend which has always been good news, although I know he had his first kiss long ago. When I saw him give away his first to some other girl at the beach, my heart cracked a tiny bit that I almost lost hope. I, of course, was still pretty melodramatic back then.
Nowadays, the only thing that keeps me confident that we will end up spending the rest of our lives together is that we hardly ever spend time apart and that we know that we are the most important people in each other's lives. But for me, that's not good enough. I need to hear those three words that I've been longing to hear, to be sure and satisfied.
What will my life come to? I really don't know. But what I do know now is that…life sucks.
-Alice Cullen
There you go! A little glimpse into Alice's head. Now, I know that she might be a tad OOC, but I really hope you like her anyway. I hope you enjoy and review to tell me what you think. They really motivate me to write more!
~Allie 3