I don't own SOA. No copyright infringement is intended.

I've read a ton of stories where the guy cheats, it's rare to find where the girl cheats, so I want to write one. This will be an AU. Kozik/OFC

"Koz? What are you doing on the couch?" Maddison asked shaking him awoake. She was ready to confront him, to tell him she had seen him and some Croweater, Cindy, last night.

"Your fucking brother was fucking Cindy in my dorm room, so I had to walk home." He explained pulling her to him, no NO, fuck please, God no. She saw Wendy on top of a blonde, she swore it was Koz it was his room his bed, oh Fuck she had fucked Tig to get back at him, so she could throw it in his face, so he could hurt too.

"Yeah they were going at it fucking Jax now I have to burn my bed" he kissed her neck, "I couldn't find you figured you'd left" Maddison started to cry.

"I'm sorry, Koz so fucking sorry.." It was all she could get out before she started sobbing uncontrollably.

"Hey babe calm down, whatever it is it's cool we can fix it, you hit my bike again?" She cried harder if only she hit his fucking bike.

"No this is worse so, so much worse" she jumped up running her hands through her hair. "Last night I wasn't feeling good, to many people, it was hot so I went up to your room and I saw them.."

"Okay... did you hit Jax? Babe your brother won't do shit to you, threaten to tell Tara she'll kill him" he chuckled at his words, knowing they were the truth.

"I thought...I thought it was you and God Koz I ran into Tig and I'm sorry, I love you and I..," Kozik jumped up fast enough to knock the coffee table over

" are you telling me you fucked Tig to get back at me?" he ground out slowly as not to add to the confusion he felt.

"I'm sorry, I wanted to hurt you too... I thought it was you" she continued crying grabbing his shirt but for the first time he batted her hands away. Looking up she saw the unmistakeable angry set of his jaw, but looking into his eyes she cursed herself for the pain and tears she saw in them.

"Well good fucking job Maddy mission accomplished" Koz laughed mirthlessly. "I'll be... fuck I'm leaving he said grabbing his cut and walking to the door to get his boots on. Maddison followed.

"Please stay Koz we can talk, I'm sorry I know I fucked up but...but I love you and please Koz don't go" she begged through her tears. Kozik looked at her and pulled her to him kissing her hard.

"I love you too Maddy always but this... I'm sorry, I can't." He kissed her one last time and walked out, heading to the clubhouse to get his Dyna. As Kozik walked out Maddison fell to the floor in a heap of gut wrenching sobs, she didn't know how long she had stayed there but the next thing she knew Happy was banging on her door.

"Maddy let me in... Come on Maddy your fucking nosy ass neighbors are gonna call the cops" she pulled herself up and let the idiot in but one look at his face and she wished she hadn't.

"Care to tell me why this afternoon in church Koz decided to go Nomad?" Maddison gasped shaking her head in disbelief.

"He..he left?" She asked in barely a whisper.

"Yup asked to go Nomad, we voted he left, but not before he knocked Tig the fuck out, so why?" She explained the night before her complete fuck up and telling Koz the truth this morning. Happy sighed and pulled her into a hug which was more than she expected for Koziks best friend.

"Damn Maddy, how could you think Koz would fuck around?" it only served to make her start sobbing again because, she didn't. " You know when he was waiting until you turned 18 that whole year he knew that you were different and so he stayed away from dirty pussy.. and now" Maddy didn't need him to finish his thought she knew now she fucked around and Kozik was gone.

"Do you think he'll be back?" She asked. Happy shook his head, yeah neither did she. She knew he left Charming because of Tig now she made home leave Tacoma. What the fuck was wrong with her? She should have made sure it was him not her stupid ass brother with his new prison hair cut. Tig that bastard he said that he had seen Kozik go up to his room, that fucking prick knew what she would find. She'd kill him and then Jax and then maybe she could drown in a bottle if Jameson. It was her fault Jax and Tig were idiots but her she was their leader, she was no better than either one. Hell at least Tig wasn't in a relationship like Jax and herself. She would get Kozik back make him talk to her and then she could let go she hoped.