Disclaimer: I don't own YYH or the song "My Bloody Valentine" by Good Charlotte.
Dedicated, as always, to Angelkitsune.
Yeah, all my work has been kind of angsty lately…but I've been upset, and writing just helps me vent. This is yaoi…sort of a love triangle, I suppose…Hiei loves Kurama, but Kurama and Touya are in love…so what does Hiei do? Well…that's what the song-fic is about! Enjoy!
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Oh my love, please don't cry
I wash my bloody hands and we'll start a new life
&&&&&
Kurama...
I love you so much.
I would do anything...
Anything...
To always be at your side.
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I ripped out his throat
I slowly pulled my bloodstained sword from the lifeless body before me. My hands shone bright crimson in the moonlight, my eyes glinted the same color. I had finally done it. I had finally killed him.
All those years...those painful years...were gone. Now the kitsune was mine, my own. There was no one to take him from me.
And called you on the telephone
I left the mangled body and ran silently through the treetops. My mind exploded with both joy and guilt over what I had just done.
No matter, I reassured myself. What is done, is done, after all. But now...now I had to meet with the fox.
To take off my disguise
I jumped down from a branch without a sound, but he felt my presence.
"Hello, Hiei," he greeted me.
I stuffed my tainted hands beneath my cloak and nodded in response. It was dark; I wouldn't have been able to see him if not for his brilliant hair.
Hair the color of his love's fresh blood...
Just in time to hear you cry
I mentally shook myself. I could not afford guilt. I could not afford to regret my actions. Regret was weakness. Regret was intolerable.
I suppose he noted my discomfort, for he asked, "Hiei? Are you alright?"
"I'm fine, fox," I replied, perhaps a bit too quickly. Mentally kicking myself for the too-fast reply, I muttered, "Why wouldn't I be?"
He gave me a suspicious glance; I couldn't help but wince under his gaze.
When you mourn the death of your blood valentine
"Where is Touya? I thought you were both meeting me here."
The question startled me. I didn't think the subject would come up so soon.
The night he died
I shifted position to take attention away from my shock. How could I possibly tell him what I had done? I hadn't even told him how I felt...and now he expected me to tell him the whereabouts of his love. I was speechless for perhaps the first time in my life.
You mourned the death of your bloody valentine
He stared at me, waiting for an answer.
I looked away as I felt sweat forming on my forehead. Even though he couldn't see it, I felt self-conscious with beads of sweat trickling down my face.
"Hiei?" he pressed. I could feel his gaze intensify, only adding to my discomfort.
One last time, singing
"I-I don't know," I finally said, my voice shaking. I looked up at him to confirm my statement. "He told me he was coming...but I don't know where he is."
His eyes narrowed, and instantly I regretted what I had said. I had lied to his face! I had lied while staring him straight in the eye! Regret was weakness, but this regret was justified.
Oh my love, please don't cry
Silence fell between us as he let the subject pass. I should have been relieved, but sweat still hung heavy on my brow. Why didn't I tell him the truth? It would have been so much easier, so less painful.
"Kurama..." I breathed.
I wash my bloody hands and we'll start a new life
His eyes were on me in response.
Regret again fell upon me like a bag of bricks. Why in the Worlds had I said his name?
I silently cursed myself while he waited for my words. I had to say something...but what could I say?
I don't know much at all, I don't know wrong from right
"Yes?" he finally questioned, his interest captured by my hesitation.
"I...I have to tell you something..." I stuttered.
This was it. I was finally forced to tell him how I felt, something I had been wanting to do since I met him, something that had been torturing me for years.
So why in Enma's name was I holding back?
All I know is that I love you tonight
"I...I've wanted to tell you for so long..." I murmured.
"Tell me what?" he asked softly, leaning down to meet my gaze.
My breathing quickened. He was so close...
"I love you, fox," I whispered.
His eyes widened in shock. "Hiei...I..."
There was police and flashing lights
I cut him off as I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him. He tried to pull away, but I would not have that. Not when I had come so far.
The rain came down so hard that night
Finally he was able to shove me off. "No, Hiei! I love Touya, you know that!"
I glared at him. "You can't have Touya anymore, for he can't love you anymore!"
And the headlines read "A Lover Died"
His eyes grew, if possible, wider. "What are you talking about?"
"I-" I stopped. I couldn't tell him...not now.
He came to me, rage building in his beautiful emerald eyes. "Where is Touya?"
No tell-tale heart was left to find
I would not answer.
"Where is he?" Kurama yelled, now in a panic, and grabbed me by my cloak.
When you mourn the death of your bloody valentine
I simply kissed him again.
The night he died
In rage, the kitsune tried to hit me, but this time I would not let him escape. I grasped his shoulders and we fell to the ground, struggling, as he tried to get away.
You mourned the death of your bloody valentine
Finally he yanked his head away from mine and looked into my eyes. I saw the fear burning in his own.
"You...you didn't..." he panted. "Please tell me you didn't..."
One last time, singing
His eyes fell to my hands.
Now I was the panicked one. I realized this had been a mistake...a big mistake.
Hastily, I let go of him, trying to suppress my hands underneath my cloak. But it was too late.
Oh my love, please don't cry
He looked back at me in shock, silently pleading with me to tell him that this was just a big misunderstanding.
We sat there, no sound penetrating the darkness.
I wash my bloody hands and we'll start a new life
"Hiei...the blood on your hands...I need to hear it's not his. Just...just tell me that. Please," he finally whispered.
I don't know much at all, I don't know wrong from right
"I wish I could, kitsune..." I said softly.
Fear flashed across his face. "I'm begging you, Hiei..."
"...but I can't..."
"No..."
All I know is that I love you tonight
"...I can't lie to you anymore..."
I stared deep into his penetrating eyes. He knew...he didn't want it to be true...but he knew.
He dropped you off, I followed him home
Then I stood outside his bedroom window
Standing over him he begged me not to do what I knew I had to do
'Cause I'm so in love with you
"I killed Touya."
Oh my love, please don't cry
He threw himself onto the grass, sobbing. I wanted so much to comfort him, to tell him it would be alright. But, after what I had done...his forgiveness seemed impossible.
I wash my bloody hands and we'll start a new life
Suddenly...seeing him grieve...I was overcome by guilt and despair. A tear ran down my face.
"Kurama...I'm sorry..."
I don't know much at all, I don't know wrong from right
"...I never meant to hurt you...I just wanted you for my own."
All I know is that I love you tonight
"I'm sorry I'm so selfish..."
At that, something lodged itself in my chest. I looked down to see a sharp blade of grass embedded in my flesh.
"Apology accepted, Hiei," Kurama said quietly, not even looking up.
Tonight
I fell to the ground, and blackness began to envelop my world.
"I love you, Kurama..."
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