Author's note: this story hasn't been beta and English isn't my mother language so, sorry for the mistakes. Just a little story I needed to get off my head. T this story is for you, you're the strongest! Please review! Ari
She can't sleep. She can't figure why either. She's exhausted but still she can't sleep. She hates that. She had asked the boys to do the first watch so she could have a good night sleep, but it doesn't work. She went to bed two hours ago and she's still awake. And she's a little cold too. But the planet isn't cold nor is the weather. Just her. She puts her sleeping bag closer to her body but she can't get warm enough. A shiver comes down her spine and she turns on her small camp bed for the umpteenth time of the night. She needs warm to sleep properly. In fact, she needs somebody to spoon behind her. She doesn't know why but she knows that's what she needs. Unfortunately she can't have somebody spoon behind her. She's certain Daniel would agree to do it because he considers her like a sister. But she knows he's going to take his watch soon and she needs the presence for at least a few hours. Teal'c wouldn't understand her need. And Jack… Jack is the only one she wants to be spoon behind her but she knows she can't ask him. She turns another time and faces the brown eyes of her CO. She hasn't heard him get in the tent they were sharing that night. She notices concern in his eyes. That and something else that she's not sure what it is.
Having trouble sleeping, Carter? Is something bugging you?
No, sir, I'm fine.
Don't lie to my Carter, I've been watching you for a little while and you keep on turning.
Well… it's nothing, really…
Tell me, maybe I could help
"Oh I'd love you to," Sam tells to herself.
Come on, Carter! You know you can tell me anything.
"Oh, I wouldn't say that!" She thinks. He looks at her intensely and the words gets out of her mouth before she can stops them.
I need someone to spoon behind me to keep me warm when I sleep.
Oh!
They stay quiet for a while, amaze that she said that. She feels the flush in her face and he seems to think very hard. After a few minutes, he takes off his boots and stretches next to her on the very tight bed. They are face to face, a few inches between their noses. Their stare at each other for it seems like hours. Finally, Sam turns around and Jack spoons behind her. Within minutes, they're both deeply asleep. Tonight, they don't talk about their relationship. Tonight, they aren't Colonel O'Neill and Major Carter; they are simply Jack and Sam, Sam and Jack, a man and a woman who desperately need human contact. They know they won't talk about that night. They'll keep it in the closet with all those moment when they were so happy together. But they secretly hope that one day; they'll be allowed to sleep like this anytime they want. And secretly, deeply inside their hearts, they enjoy this night because they know it's forbidden but it feel so good, so right, so true. They feel love.