Full Summary: Grimmjow has gone away with his job in order to help people who have suffered from natural disasters. Ichigo is torn. Grimmjow is gone for three years, leaving Ichigo to spiral into the deepest pits of depression. Though a surprise comes on Christmas morning.
Disclaimer: I don't own Bleach(Sad face!) Or Nickelback's song So Far Away. I just own this story idea
Warnings: In the beginning, sadness and depression then fluffiness.
Three years.
It's been three years since my everything went out to travel the world and help people who had been struck by natural disasters.
Three years since I last spoke to him, felt his arms around me, felt his lips upon mine.
Depression started to kick in by the second year.
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
My friends have all tried to help me feel better. They tried to tell me he'd be back. I wanted to believe them, but it hurt so much. Being so far from him was so hard, and it grew harder with each seemingly endless day.
By the beginning of the third year, people really began to worry. They worried about me because my depression had grown worse. The grew so worried about me that they volunteered Renji to stay at my apartment with me. It was a stupid idea on their part. I'm not going to do anything stupid. He promised he'd be back and I'm not stupid enough to try and kill myself because he's not back yet. But...it hurts...oh god it hurts so bad...
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
The dreams began on the third year as well...well...if you could call em dreams. It was more like my mind was trying to make things worse by showing me horrible accidents involving him. I didn't want to believe them, but sometimes it was so real that I woke up with tears on my face and sweat covering my whole body. It was those nights that I woke to find myself in Renji's arms as he tried to make the pain vanish with soft whispered words and hugs.
I'm beginning to think my friends were smart by making him stay here. It wasn't Grimm, but his arms still made me feel safer then anyones. He helped me through those horrid nightmares. Having Renji around was like having the older brother I never had there. I'm forever thankful that he came to help me.
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
Two and a half years now.
The nightmares have grown worse.
It's rare to have a night free of them. Its gotten so bad that Renji has taken to sleeping in the bed with me so that he's closer when I wake up sobbing. It's such a relief to have him there. I just wish it was Grimm instead. I miss him so much it's starting to make me physically sick.
It's gotten so bad now that my boss, Urahara Kisuke, demanded I take a vacation until Grimm comes back. I can't think straight at work and thanks to the nightmares that plague my sleeping hours, I look like the walking dead. It's getting so much worse. Please...come home Grimm.
So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
It's almost Christmas now. What I wouldn't give to wake up in his arms on Christmas morning. Don't get me wrong. Renji's helping, but it's not the same. I do have to say though, without Renji, things would be so much worse. I mean, he's not like a rebound or anything cuz I grew up with the guy being pretty much my older brother. That's just not right. No...he's like a rock for me now. Something to keep me grounded in this world without Grimm here to do so.
Well...Christmas Eve. If there is a God out there. Please, I want nothing more then to wake up in Grimm's arms tomorrow. Please...I'll do anything to wake up in his arms again. Please.
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Hmmm...those aren't Renji's arms...that smell...I know that scent...but it can't be.
Oh my god.
He's here. He's in our bed. He's alive. My wish...it came true. What's that sound? Oh...I'm crying again. He wakes up. Those eyes. Full of sleep, yet still so beautiful. He wraps me in his arms again and I sob like a baby.
"I missed you." I sob through my tears.
"I missed you too Kitten. I'm here now though...no more crying." He whispers to me, running his hand through my hair.
The tears eventually stop and I glance over his shoulder to see Renji in the doorway, grinning like the cat that got the canary. I send him a watery smile and mouth the words 'Thank you' before burying my face in Grimm's shoulder.
He's back. My life is whole once again.