Why'd You Only Call Me When You're High?
Chapter 1
"The only thing worse than a boy that hates you: a boy that loves you"
"I am Allyson Marie Dawson. Most just call me Ally. Most hate, some tend to appreciate. I wish I could speak up but they'd hate that. I'm small, only 5'2, 105 pounds. Porcelain skin, like a china doll. Long wavy brown dip-dyed hair. I was Ocean High's doll face; I was the innocent sweetheart, their golden virgin barbie as they like to say. I'm their marionette, letting them tug my strings and play me around. If I actually gave a fuck, it'd be a completely different story. I'm 16, a junior at Ocean. I take a senior class, calculus. I had a brain, but most didn't understand that. I've had one other boyfriend in my life, Tommy. He was sweet, he was a dork, but he was my dork. If I could tell you one very important thing about my life is that I hate Austin Moon. Where do I start with Austin Moon? Austin Moon is the popular one, the bad boy, the player. Tan skin, blond hair, great body, nice face. He was one of the main reasons I was a marionette. He played and toyed with me, speaking in his sexual innuendos every day to me in biology. I despised him. Actually despise is too light of a word. But what do I care, he's with Cassondra Mitchell. Cassondra was my best friend until freshman year. She started fucking everything with a dick between its legs. Apparently she wasn't at fault for everyone wanting to fuck her. You know those girls with the long hip-length blonde hair, huge boobs, skinny waist? Yeah that's her and then no one will be at fault when she ends up with herpes, chlamydia, and whatever other shitty diseases she could get between her legs. If it were up to me I'd leave Ocean, but where the fuck would I go? Exactly I don't know either. My mom is writing a book in Africa, and my dad's never around. I literally live alone in the big house they bought together years ago. Graduation seems like a gift I'd love to receive right fucking now."
I slammed the journal closed, pushing it to the edge of the wooden desk. I lifted my head, looking up at my calculus teacher. I sighed, watching him write out different derivatives on the white board. I stared aimlessly at the clock above the white board.
"Allyson, what is the power rule of d over dx times x to the n power and equals nx to the n-1 power?" asked, tapping his foot impatiently.
"The power rule is n is not equal to 0." I said rolling my eyes in the left corner, staring at Cassondra. She snorted as she went back to focusing on her phone, probably texting Austin. The bell rang, signaling that class was over. I walked down the hall, Dallas Matthews stopping me on the way.
"Hey Ally, can we meet up at Lyla's party, in the back room so I can take you the way you are dollface?" He asked, trying to be slick.
"Fuck off." I spat back, kicking his ankle out from under him.
"Mhm how'd you know I like it rough baby." He said, inching his way closer to me. I rolled my eyes, scoffed and continued walking to my locker. I punched in 12-14-29 and shoved my calculus text book inside. I grabbed my biology textbook and slammed the blue metal locker shut. I speed walked to room 59, walking in slowly. This was the class I dreaded the most. I sat down in the seat my teacher had assigned me, one row in front of the back where Austin and all his idiotic friends sat. Student filed into the classroom taking their seats.
"Hey doll face, you wanna fuck behind the gym after class?" One of the many idiots behind me spoke to me.
"Ryan, I would love to, believe me I would but I don't want whatever shit you got crawling on your dick." I said my voice sweeter than honey, my confidence running thicker than it. His friends began laughing at him, and I on the other hand felt very accomplished. Five minutes after the bell rang to signal last period beginning, in strolled Austin fucking Moon.
"Hey doll face." He said as he walked past me. He smelled of smoke, vodka, and leather. I scoffed and crossed my arms over my chest.
"Yeah perk up those tits for me." He said, licking his lips and winking slowly. I rolled my eyes back.
"Darling, if you just trust in me, I could make your eyes roll back so far with pleasure they'd hit your spine." Austin said, biting the right corner of his lip.
"Oh sounds like fun." I said monotonous and with apparent uninterest. Austin looked at his friends. They whispered something to him and he turned towards me again.
"Princess, can I watch you sever the velvet or should I do it for you?" He whispered leaning forward into my ear. I turned my head swiftly, glaring through him like a bullet through a deer.
"What the fuck moon? If you're so fucking horny then go fuck Cassondra for fucks sake! Go to hell for heaven's sake!" I said loudly, half the class room turning towards me. Austin glared at me, anger boiling through him. If he were a cartoon character, he'd have smoke coming out of his ears. I turned back around, balancing my head on my hand. I stared at the clock again, uninterested in whatever my teacher was speaking about. I must've dozed off because the high pitch of the school bell jolted me awake. I gathered my bag, walking towards the door. I felt someone's hand squeeze my ass as I opened the door. I twirled on my heels, glaring at the person responsible.
"Oops my hand must've slipped." Austin chuckled, faking innocence. I pushed him back harshly as I walked out of the classroom. I raced my way out of the school, onto the bustling sidewalk and then to my house. I sat on the large recliner in the foyer, looking around. I sighed as I got up, walking to the front porch. I grabbed my house keys and decided to go to the park. I walked along the winding sidewalks, kicking random pebbled into people's front lawns. I walked into the park gate taking a seat on a bench near the lake. I watch the ducks and geese frolic in the sprinkling water of the fountain in the middle of the lake. Next me, I heard a familiar voice. I looked out of the corner of my eye, seeing Austin and Cassondra sucking face on the bench next to me. I got up and quickly walked past them, trying to go unnoticed, but that didn't happen.
"Hey sweetie, you wanna join?" He asked smirking at me. Cassondra looked up to me, smirking the same way.
"Nahh she's too much of a virgin Mary." She smacked towards me. I scowled at her, taking a step forward.
"Shut the fuck up Cassondra, or do I have to explain to your idiotic boyfriend over her about the 'Cassie baby' incident?" I said smirking evilly. She looked down, knowing she had been defeated.
"Exactly." I said walking away from them. I walked through the park, admiring the coupled picnicking and just walking and holding hands on such a nice Friday night. I took my phone out of my pocket. I looked through my text messages and just like that the bright screen was snatched from in front of my face. I turned, the screen illuminating the boy with shaggy blond hair I knew too well.
"Austin give me the fucking phone."I yelled. He fiddled with it for a second, before holding it over his head.
"Kiss me then?" He said pouting and pointing to his lips. I fake gagged as I tried to reach up and grab the phone, all to no avail. He looked up and typed something into the phone before lowering it into my face, letting me grab it.
"If you ever wanna fuck, I put my number in there." He said smirking.
"Haha, never fucking ever." I said sarcasticating the 'haha'.
"Or we could just talk." He spoke back, this time being sincerely kind for once.
"Austin, if you haven't figured this out yet, I hate your fucking guts. Plus you have Cass to talk to if you wanna talk." I said quickly, shaking my head. He rubbed the back of neck.
"Umm actually me and Cassondra just broke up." He said, sounding genuinely upset.
"Oh wow." I said quietly and surprisingly. He just nodded back silently.
"I have an idea." He said acting like a giddy child on Christmas morning. I motioned my hand for him to go on, seeing as I still had to walk home and it was getting dark.
"Go to homecoming with me." He spoke, looking into my eyes for any sign of emotion towards the question.
"No, hell no." I straight forward rejecting Austin. He sighed and shrugged before he walked in the opposite direction I had to go. I walked home through the winding sidewalks again, the sun setting behind the Miami skyline. I trudged my tired body up to bed. I threw myself on the large mattress, the springs creaky slightly from wear and tear over the years. I snuggled up into the comforter, letting the black depths of sleep wash over me.