A/N: After watching a clip from Episode 5 again (I'm sure you'll be able to guess the one :P) this little idea popped into my head. The song is from Lord of the Rings. I may continue it, but I'm not sure. Anyways, hope you like! :)

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In Dreams

~*~
When the cold winter comes
Starless night will cover day
In the veiling of the sun
We will walk in bitter rain

But in dreams
I still hear your name
And in dreams
We will meet again

When the seas and mountains fall
And we come to end of days
In the dark I hear a call
Calling me there
I will go there
And back again...
-"In Dreams," Edward Ross
~*~

"I don't want to remember."

Eric had meant what he had said: he had no desire to remember what he had done, what he had been. Based on what he had been able to piece together about his past he was certain that there was nothing about his old life that he would want to remember.

Nothing…

…except for her.

Pam.

His child.

He'd felt her pain when he'd uttered those words and immediately realised that she had construed them to mean he didn't want to remember her. But he had been unable to correct her assumption, unable to comfort her. She was a stranger to him: he didn't know how to reach her.

But he wished he could.

He ran a hand over his face as he sat on the edge of Sookie's bed.

After their emotional reunion he felt almost guilty about thinking about another woman, but he felt more than guilt when he thought about Pam. Just the thought of her brought on a myriad of emotions that were overshadowed by an inexplicable sense of loss and the nagging feeling that he had betrayed her.

They were linked, he could feel it whenever he was close to her, but he knew that their relationship had been much more than that. It was there in the way she spoke to him, looked at him: something intangible that was just beyond his reach. Something that the curse had taken from him and that he wanted back more than anything.

Although he could not explain why.

He heard Sookie stir behind him and pushed all thoughts of Pam aside, feeling a twinge of guilt as he did so.

It was strange to miss someone when you did not remember them, but even worse when that feeling turned into a deep yearning for something you did not fully understand and feared you would never recover.

...

A/N: I can't help it, Eric ignoring Pam really annoyed me so prepare to have a lot of fics focusing on him...well, not.