Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto characters but I'd like to own one…I don't own Naruto… so what the fuck?
Prologue
One day I opened my eyes and thought to myself, "Life sucks…"
Everyday that is, I feel like nothing matters. I don't know when, or since when I've been like this, or how long I had been staring at nowhere. In more than one occasion, my mind drifted by itself, like a soul breaking away from a corpse.
I already lost count of the many times I told myself it would be the last time I'm going to space out. But I finally admit to myself that I'm sinking- in a place where I'm secluded from what people call reality. I just want to drown where nobody else could reach me.
Well, it's pretty obvious that I'm never happy, but those people chose to ignore it, probably telling themselves that I have no right to. Someone as prominent and popular as me could never be considered as such. They say I have everything every person on this planet desires… but I know better than to believe what I see… things that could never be real because they're only artificial. I have friends- I have many - and I know why they call themselves my friends. I'm not blind, and I could distinguish what's real from fraud. I know that artificial things don't last long… and sooner or later the glitter will wear off, I wonder if they would want anything to do with me.
The reality I live in is but a lie. I'd rather keep to myself than to share with that lie. My life is a fabrication itself- of interwoven lies, of synthetic smiles. Everything's just too perfect- too perfect to be true in itself. I'd like to convince myself that I'm happy right now, but then I would be lying, and I'd become part of that world I despise.
But these emotions- they're real for sure. I thought hatred is the strongest emotion I could bear, but I'll stop lying for now and admit it… I'm lonely and I want to be saved from the dark I let myself drown into. Loneliness- it's one emotion one couldn't bear alone.
I know for sure.