I have a feeling this one is a bit of a head spinner, so you might need to pay close attention to the words.
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"Are you really content to just watch and wait, Kanna?"
Kagura's words echoed through my head.
Back then, when Kagura had spoken, I had, as always, done nothing. I simply sat there, looking as if my attention was fixed elsewhere, even though I had been listening closely to the words she spoke.
Even if I had felt the need to speak, as I rarely ever did, I would not have known how to answer.
For one—what did Kagura mean by content?
Content. Such an odd word, at least in this time and era.
Being privy to a mirror such as mine, I am very much aware of times and eras.
My mirror shows me everything—past, present, and future. Earth, space, and beyond.
Or, perhaps, not everything. If there is such a thing as a Kami, or kamis, I have no knowledge of it or them.
Naraku is not aware that my mirror shows me these things, however.
I am one of the few mysteries lost to Naraku's knowledge, as even he himself knows.
If Kagura knew that Naraku was still figuring me out, I do not doubt she would hasten to take advantage—though I wonder how.
But as to the word content, I know, without doubt, that content is not a word for me.
I will not ever be content, for contentedness is, no doubt, for those that have joy.
While it may seem as if I do not have emotions, such as joy, I do.
I just choose not to show them.
However, joy does not come easily to me, and, in the short life that I have lived; I cannot recall a single moment when I have felt enough joy to find myself content, if only for a moment.
I have felt laughter, as shown when I was amused when the child Rin schemed to capture the ugly youkai Jaken in order to put a flower crown upon his head.
I have felt sadness, as shown when I awoke in this life to realize I was only a tool of use, and only a copy of something, or someone, else.
But not the joy that leads to contentedness.
I suppose, if the question had only posed contentedness, I would have answered Kagura with a negative reply, but it was not to be so.
The question of content was not even the main part of the question, so I wonder why I even felt the need to fill my head with silly queries and references as to why I am not content.
I suppose I think of such things to fill my emotion of loneliness, as I also feel.
And I also suppose that I feel lonely, because I do as Kagura suggests.
I watch and wait, as I have always done.
I think the question, now, is if I will continue to watch and wait.
It is, I think, a hard and easy decision.
Easy, because it is simple to do as I have always done, and hard, because to not watch and wait is much more reasonable than doing as I have always.
Still yet, the question must be answered, even if I will not answer to Kagura, but only to myself in order to put my mind at ease.
So would I just watch and wait?
Without a doubt, the answer is yes.
I would not do it contentedly, or fixedly, or with joy, but I would.
I would simply do as I have always done.
I will watch and wait.
That was the answer, and that was that.
So…that bad? Or was it at least semi-okay?
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