My first Contestshipping!! I wonder why I took so long to post one. I like doing poems because they're fast. Enjoy this, and remember to review!
Denial
Every time you smile at me,
I pretend not to see it;
Every time you stand by my side,
I inch away in mock anger;
Every time you face me in a battle,
I treat you as an arch-rival.
But that isn't the truth…
I don't really feel that way…
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It's so strange.
When you're not looking,
I smile back at you,
When you're not near me,
I imagine that you are, and it makes me glad
When you beat me, lose to me,
My heart, in fact, is leaping within my chest
To know that we put up a spectacular show,
Together…
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Oh why? Will it pain me so much
Just to admit it, even to myself,
Just to believe the truth,
That I think of you as more than a rival,
Even more than a friend?
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I deny it to myself,
My mind casts that possibility away every time
But it's true, isn't it?
You're special to me.
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Why, I sometimes wonder.
Why would I fall for someone so childish, so foolish?
I don't know.
Maybe it's the way you take loss,
The way you can simply stand up to it
And say, "It's alright. I'll do better next time."
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I know I can't.
Maybe it's that you can be so gracious
That makes me honour you,
Maybe feel something even higher than honour.
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Whatever it is, I am now trapped by it.
I know I like you, but I feel so embarrassed to.
I'm not even sure you will like it.
I don't want to confess it,
Even acknowledge its existence.
Maybe I'll keep hiding it.
I'll pretend that I still hate you,
That we are no more than rivals,
Enemies in the least, haters of each other
Just to affirm my wish to ignore it all.
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Have you noticed all the clues I've given you—
The roses, the congratulations and praises,
The secret smiles at your talent?
Did you take all my insults to heart?
I hope you can see beyond them…
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Someday, maybe, there is a happy ending waiting for us.
I don't know how, but something will break, finally,
Sooner or later.
Hate me for it, or otherwise,
I'll tell you someday.
But for now, it is my own painful secret.
I don't know what to say about it. This is definitely NOT of the same quality as most of my fics--it's worse. Hope you people liked it, anyway.