Angel Sanctuary and its characters do not belong to me, I'm just borrowing them for a short time =^.^= yeah so hi everybody, I'm new. Please tell me if I should continue this or not because I'm not sure. Anyway I hope you enjoy this! When brackets are used its Katan giving his two cents in, I'm sure you'll get it ^__^;;
Corrupted
(Darkness)
I'm always in darkness when he is not here, blessing me with his beauty and light. And yet, I dread the moment he walks back into my life. He can't hurt me if he's not here you see, but I still hurt, no ache when he's not with me. My creator, my mentor, my master, my…love. Yes, I'm in love with him, the greatest of all the angels in heaven, Rosiel-sama. It is because I'm in love with him that I'm in this constant torture; he's not the same as he was before.
Once he was so kind and gentle (he still is sometimes) but for reasons I do not know he was cursed and now he's slowly losing his mind. That's why he lashes out at me, hurting me, spilling my blood and bruising my flesh. Immediately after these beatings he apologizes and holds me (oh so close!), peppering kisses over my face all the while asking for my forgiveness. He needn't bother I already had forgiven him, how could I not?
I don't think I'll ever forget the night he tried to force one of his horrid pills down my throat. I was standing in the old chapel we had been living in, waiting for his return (like I am now, where is he? Its been too long) when I suddenly sensed a presence behind me. I spun around, startled, into his waiting arms. He held my head in his slender hands and then he kissed me. It was predatory the way he crushed his lips to mine, bruising them. His tongue forced my mouth open and stroked my tongue once before shoving that damn pill down my throat. Choking, shocked, and scared, I pulled out of his grasp and coughed it up.
I knew what those pills were for, I had seen him give them to some teenage drug addicts, and then later I had…seen the results. The only thing I could think of standing there with the pill in my hand was: why? Why was he doing this to me? Didn't he know that I would do anything for him anyway without that evil, little pill? Despair engulfed me and threatened to completely destroy me when he became angry with me for not swallowing the pill. He left then and didn't return to me for so long. The waiting had been terrible.
It's terrible still, only a little worse now that Kyrie has joined our little group. I don't like her; she's a constant reminder that Rosiel-sama finds me replaceable. Also, she's very annoying, always throwing herself at Rosiel-sama, doesn't she have any shame? I suppose I'm just jealous, I can't help it. In all the years I've known him I have never thrown myself at him like she does (not that I haven't wanted to), that would be disrespectful. I don't believe he really enjoys her presence either, except of course, when she's telling him how beautiful he is. I think he would put up with Lucifer himself if he flattered him regularly.
Hmmm… do I sound just a bit bitter? I guess I am, all these years and the most passionate kiss I receive from him is when he's trying to make me his slave (even though I already am). But it doesn't matter, I'll wait for him, endure all the beatings, and relish in his kindness. As long as there is a chance of his shining light, I would gladly stay forever in this darkness.
I hear Kyrie's squeal of delight, some shuffling and then his sweet voice caresses my ears. He's back. Finally. I go to great him. Oh yes, he has returned, my light, my life. He turns and smiles at me holding out his arms. I eagerly go into his embrace. Even if his good humor fades within minutes, I can endure it, I always will…for him.