BPOV
As I walked into school today I couldn't deny to myself how apprehensive I felt.
See I have this big problem. You know in stories where the boy and the girl are friends, and everyone always gives them crap about being 'friends' because everyone knows they're in love with each other?
Yeah well this isn't that kind of story. This is definitely a one sided relationship story and Edward Cullen is the boy I'm hopelessly in love with. And I mean hopelessly.
Obviously, him being the most lusted after guy in school isn't going to help my chances.
It was sophomore year when it all started.
The new kids Edward and Alice moved to Forks and were quickly the hot topic of conversation. Alice quickly became my best friend, while Edward became a friend, more and then nothing. Ever since the first day I went to Alice's house and saw him there I had had a major crush on him. But not long after that day I soon found myself avoiding Alice's house completely due to the fact that he was there.
Edward had always been the cool guy, even on his first day. I was lucky to have a few classes with him and also be best friends with his sister.
It was then that he first noticed me and he was pretty nice at first. Alice would tell me everything he said about me and even though she denied it, I'm sure she told him what I said about him.
Me him and Alice had hung out a few times, Alice always trying to push us together, but it never really worked out. Edward was always in between girlfriends and I really didn't like the un-dependent side of him. I guess we were considered friends, even though I still liked him, we just talked a lot on instant message but he never really talked to me at school or anytime else except for when we were alone or at his house.
We became pretty god friends and I tried not to care when he talked to me about his other girlfriends. He still didn't talk to me much around school, but I always came over to his house and ended up hanging out with him almost as much as Alice.
So Alice and I would always talk (more like Alice would force me to tell her) about Edward. One day I finally caved and told her I still liked him and of course, right after I left she told him about it.
He instant messaged me that night and I was really glad we hadn't had that conversation in person due to the amount of blush flooding across my face.
He had asked me if it was true that I liked him and I finally relented after his begging and told him it was true. His response was less than ideal. He never said if he liked me but he more seemed like he just thought he was pretty cool since I liked him.
But then a few minutes later he went back to talking about his multiple girlfriends. He didn't realize it, but I had started to get my hopes up so since he quickly brushed off my confession, I got pretty sad and kind of sad.
After that I tried not to talk to him that much, but I always ended up going back to him. I didn't really know why, since my feelings clearly weren't returned, but he was still a really good friend. I felt like I could talk to him about anything, except him.
Alice, Edward and I had become such good friends and since I was so close to them, I practically lived at their house.
That was where the problems had started.
I had felt pretty comfortable at their house, which I probably shouldn't have. I walked into Edward's room one day, hoping to catch him for a movie or something but what I found was Lauren. And him. In a position that made me shut my eyes and immediately race out.